i wonder why
why cant you guys fuck off from my life.
irritating.
problems approaching me one by one.
knn larh.
i regretted for not telling how much i hate you.
really.
i damn damn damn regret can.
why?
seeing you now. making me feeling like running away frm u.
when i did nth wrong.
but when i run away it seem lyk im in the wrong.
come on man
i said before..
i da xiao jie can.
now all my da xiao jie attitude coming back.
need you care?
yeah.. and now im saying those stuff to make u fed up.
cant arh?
not happy arh?
your prob larh!
i now is damn damn damn dislike you..
seeing you i can puke man.
so what?
im straightforward?
buay song arh?
say larh.
knn..
all the decision i made was all mistakes mistakes and mistakes.
爱情，学业 etc etc etc is not working well for me.
if im a real flirt i would have agreed to be with you.
but why i didnt?
actually not cause im not a flirt.
but that look of him i cant imagine..
imagine the future and everything.
it would be a very wrong decision if i had chosen to be with you that time.
thank god i didnt.
really.
studies?
haha.
what rubbish are those fucking teachers are teaching?!
rubbish.
shit..
dont try to talk sense to me when it come to huayi.
why?!
huayi sucks man!
been giving me alot of i-can-dont-care stuff.
knn..
oh and tt mdm tan.
who she think she is?
think we students not human arh?
anyhow hit ppl.
thou i nva kena but i think that it is so not fair.
and i think she tio stm liao larh.
princeple? vice? dm? om?
see this?
and i may get sue?
tell u what?!
放马过来
im nt even a single fear.
like i told hanwei.
even if someone murder me now.
im fine with it.
im sick of my life.
same as others very fun but to me its not enough.
still too dull.
too dull.
and too dull..
sometime what simon said about mi is true.
whateva that i say are far too away from what i say.
thats why i got so many worries etc etc etc..
whch everyone doesnt have,
of course i nida worry abt everything.
i wana be the richest zabor can!
true that i can be mature or even too mature.
be i can be emo..
cant i?!
yeah when im alone.
that why when im in my darkest moment no one will be der to accompany me..
thats why i feel no love.
no love..
and no love.
eveyone showers me with love but im greedy..
it can never never and never be enough.
if not im not call WONG LI QING!
sometime i really wish to tell everyone how tongku i am.
but whenever i want to it can never be said out.
or else is you can never understand.
im suppose to have everything that i want.
mor fortunate than others.
but the pressure and stress that im giving myself is too heavy.
i haf too many burdens which i wana carry them..
im always rmbing the sad moment of my life.
why ?
why ?
why ?
can anyone tell me?!
i really wish that he is here right now.
yesh right now.
right beside me.
and i would want him to
hug me.
shower me with all the love that he can give me.
lend me his shoulder.
let me cry out loud.
even if he can go deaf.
i tried to go to the swing to scream etc etc.
but whenever im der.
i wouldnt be slone or just with my friend.
there would be passerbyer etc etc etc..
dey are such a pest..
if not whenever i wanna scream.
i fear that i would disturb others etc.
like what i sae b4..
i rather myself suffer than others.
because of this.
my heart is 101% fiiled with pain. burden. etc etc etc.
thats why my heart is so heavy i can even feel it man..
freaking painful.
why?
why am i giving myself such a life?
when i had so many other paths to walk.
i chose the most painful one.
sin?
hah?
i nva believe in that?
hah?
i dont know -.-

idk what is happening.
i really dont know.
dont force me to do things that i dont want.
please.
take it as though im begging you.
idk whats wrong with me nowadays.
seem as though i got many problems.
maybe i really do.
cause im those who want ppl to think im happy when i am.
but actually when i think about small tiny matter can really make me super upset liao..
this few weeks im always crying.
thinking about the past.
having the urge to vomit for no reason.
no appetite even when i see the food or what which im so in love with it.
its like a month alrdy.
now im thinking of him again which i dont want.
20 days and nights thinking of you.
i can go bonsak de you know.
i wanna avoid you.
but i cant..
you know how much i care for you though i dont express it out..
i simply hate this.
i thought i could escape from such problem which i realise that i cant eventually..
im always emo-ing when im nt in sch.
yes! the word i hate the most-emo.
because of this ppl think that im nt myself.
yeah.
liqing can be hyper at times but can also be 'emo' at times too.
everyone has their pretty side and ugly side.
they also have the happy moment but also the sad moment too.
the fact that i cant forget that day is a fact.
i cant chg it.
neither do i want.
im sorry to say this..
from the deep of my heart.
i regret not telling you.
i really regret.
when you are gone.
no matter how loud i scream just to tell you.
its useless.
you will never be able to listen.
unless i believe in soul/spirit etc.
its impossible.
really!
its impossble for me to forget you.
call me a fool can you?
no.
im nt asking whether you are able to call me or not.
but im giving you an order to call me.
so..
call me a fool!
im living for others sake.
not for myself.
so..
whats the point of living.
let me go.
please.
im really begging you now.
loosen your hand.
dont hold on to me tightly.
im not like the little bird being by the mummy side.
im alrdy mature.
let me go.
go to somewhr.
which i wanna be.
somewhr i cn be alone.
somewhr which you guys arent there.
somewhr i have peace an quite.
im sick of all this.
one problem after another.

found this lyric.. and maybe after editing it will somehow be talking aboutme..


And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
And so i think all night about the rest of my live
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
Where im gona be when i turn 21
I keep thinking times will never change
i keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
keep on thinking thinks will always be the same(though i know that it will not)
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
but as time moves on everything changes
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
no more the same cause everything is different
And if you got something that you need to say
and if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
Cause everything is moving on and we can't slow down
And I keep thinking of that night in June I didn't know much of love
And I keep thinking of that night in May then i knew so much of love
But it came too soon
But everything was gone in a split second
And there was me and you
And there was me but not you
And then we got real cool
And i got real upset
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
Stay by your side crying quietly in a corner
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
I would get so scared and fear for the posiblity
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
Telling myself that nothing is fair
And this is how it feels
And this is how i feels

As we go on
As i reminise
We remember
I remember
All the times we had together
All the times we had together
And as our lives change
And as everything changes
Come whatever
Come whatever
We will still be Friends Forever
We will still be _______ in name

So if we get the big jobs
And so if im successful
And we make the big money
Earnin big bucks
When we look back now
when i look back
Will our jokes still be funny?
will what happen in the past stil be fun
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
will i manage to remember all that happen
Still be trying to break every single rule
will i still be thinking whether to tell you what i wanted to
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
will i love you more than what i should
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?
can i do sth to save the situation?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
i keep, yeah, i keep thinking that thats not the end of it
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
but i know that i should leave since you leave mi alrdy
And this is how it feels
and this is how i feel

La, la, la, la�
yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la�

We will still be friends forever
we will stil be_______ -yes in name
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
will i think about tmr like what im thinking nw
Can we survive it out there?
can i survive without u
Can we make it somehow?
can i?
I guess I thought that this would never end
i thought that now will be the future
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
and it was when im alrdy a teen now and a kid last time
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
will the past be a shadow that will be following me forever?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town I keep,
will these memories fade when i leave
I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
i keep telling myself that its not the end
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
but keep on thinking its time for me to leave

gosh i think what i edit really is what i think thou it doesnt link with the song which was somehow what i want.
i really dont know what to do.
oh yeah.
i wanted ___ by my side but i wouldnt force him.
you should know me.
somehw i think we are avoiding each other alrdy.
RAMDOM!

i doubt i posted about the moments i had with the india friend barh?
since im lyk so damn freaking boring.
shall post about that lo.

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after school went to the airport with the teacher-in-charge tgt with the singapore buddies and the SC.indeed i had to admit SC can really make ppl hyper and they make a good friend.and so we welcome the india friends with excitment.i was rather stupid lo.cause everyone had to find their india buddy including me but i always forgot how my buddy looks like and i never help her carry her stuff.you should know me.i dont do such thing de leh. then when i offered to help she didnt want me to. but but but she is really very nice and pretty. her eyes are beautiful. oh oh oh. there is this guy call parth which make all girl go gahgah. and i somehow dont believe that he is yingchong buddy lo lo lo. brought them to choice then had briefing and accompany huimin to school to take her bag slack at canteen for awhile tgt with huimin yc yongzheng &&& (i nv fail to forgt his name) and home sweet home.

010708
after sch had icebreaking session but i had sth on which i cnt rmb what it was. =D

020708
didnt had the time to spent with them as no programme was on for me to be with them.

030708
same as 020708

040708
today the school celebrated youth day. it was rather fun though. slacked at the gunking there for quite a long time. my buddy played the flying fox too. so when she in the 'cage' i was tgt with 2e1 malay friends lo. yvonne buddy was like wanted to be dunk then keep asking teacher can be dunk or nt larh or got shirt to change into etc etc.(LOL i mention about this day the few posts back)

050708
in point form i type what happen on o5o7o8 and o6o7o8
-went to watch centralised gradin for yiyang de
-went to eat
-went simei

060708
-bored and went to toapayoh to watch gradin lo lo lo.
-went to burger king
-went to watch hancock an watched them playing bbal at arcade
-knew alot of childish game in bus
-homed and went to westmall in the end

070708
mille birthday.
supposed to go on a city tour with the indian but didnt cause got sth on which was cancel at the last min! boohoo. mum and sis went shopping. i was so lazy so stayed at home lo. ohh and my aunt came my house..RAMDOM!

080708
went to the zoo and night safari with them. did went to watch the elephant perform. they were like rather excited. oh oh oh. tell you guys sth. everyone were pissed. hehe. i was lyk angry lo and controlling it when i saw geoffrey kind of vent it out or say just vent it out. and i was like chao angry and really wanted to vent but then as a host i dont think i should be like that lo. me was freaking tired and having gastric pain. and there was like no shoulder or back to lie on larh! the way i saw how those performer 'ill treat' the elephant im like pity the elephant lo. ohh and the so-call-hao-xin-ren geoffrey lent me lie on his to sleep. and and and i kind of feel aslp larh. see! i so tired and stil went to zoo cause im hao xin ren.. i can say i nearly fell hah.. stand and dozed off? whateva. then it was someone birthday so got the cake which i think all the singaporean buddy did ate it which i didnt. pls lo no matter how hungry i am i will never eat that kind of thing. see alrdy wann vomit.. yeah.. that day dont know how many time wanna vomit lo. and pls larh. who say wana vomit=pregnant. lo lo lo. will emphasize on the trip i went next time i meant where we walk etc etc etc. about 6 meet at the entrance. for a long time can. alot ppl kinda of will late and hor many were walking v slow. one of the reason why we were piss off can.. ate at night safari there.. food not bad lurh. not as bad as i thought. and there were like some sort of problem at there. took the tram and missed the tribe performance. the route we took on the tram stink! many used flash and were told off. oh. and the lady was piss and said if the person beside you dont understand english pls kindly tell him or her in any matter to ask him or her stop using flash. as flash will be like lighting to the animal and they might be frighten and scared then our life will be in danger. lo lo lo. i think it is in some sort of s____ manner lo. i was like suppose to sit with geoffrey and the teachers on the tram de can but then jisheng went to line up with them though i is like gt 'yue hao' with geoffrey but nvm. i dun really bother about this. went to the creature of the night. the place i sat suck larh. cant see some part but who care. is kinda boring. esp for geoffrey i think? cause is like he watch nt long b4 and is the same LOL. to think i slap him when he was so kind enuf to let mi lie on his. RAMDOM! walked around the safari and waited for the bus. everyone slpt. and i was siting at a corner secretly looking at him. remembered about the past and cried again. then im lik eonly one didnt slp. when we need to get off the bus. i was like hope no one seen my eye full of tear. cause everyone left then eraineand geoffry they walk home marh. chances of seein is high. but i suppose they didnt :D waited for aobut 1min for daddy to drive mi home. hehe. was super tired this day but overall its still quite fun? just dont bother about the piss off thing is actually okay de. oh jisheng and a guy kinda quarel? and hor the tram at the zoo many didnt take cause got some comunication problem which i think zoo should do sth about it.

090708
had music until 2 cause mrs kwok dont let me leave early so i missed the trip to yakult supposed to meet lixuan after that but then in the end i was too tired for it. mum when to wake mi up cause the room i slpt in. the air con need to be checked. and i was like so frustrated can. wake mi up because of such small case lo.

100708
skipped maths hah.. cause we had briefing on what we supposed to do on fri and erm when they stay in our house. yeah. last min i went to birdpark with them. again i was piss off. zoey went there too. can say is i influence her de cause i told her marh. then kind of duibuqi her. nbm. i love the swing there can. so sweet lo. saw a half naked man cleaning the tank. interested party can go there if you want. still got swing to sit on to watch. muahahahah. went to the dont know what restaurant. didnt eat. dont too appetising to me lo.

110708
had sport extravaganza. sec 1 4 and 5 did 3.2km. sec 2 is inline skatin and sec 3 kayaking. i last min back out. cant leh. the road was like sodamn freaking hard to skate. jengila also back out. heard is because sth crop up thats why. aiya alot prob de larh. ohh and tekong won LOL. going end soon all the singapore buddy met up 1st cause is like later many ppl then mess up. so miss sally png called me to meet up 1st lo. then went to choice packed and left for homed. bathe and prepared to go jp met up with yvonne. they did menicure. then met up with geoffrey at arcade there. LOL. i somehow think he was angry cause yvonne accompany the buddy to 'shop' which was the right think to do. then went to breaktalk.piang can. the Q so long stil wanna buy. which guy will like it larh. but then he said he wasnt angry so is like i gt nth to say LOL. met with the rest the buddies frm both side to csc for bowlin. and i cried can, cause i was so sad that i didnt attend tdk. though they did kicking only larh. to think i promised chun that i wil work hard etc etc etc.i helped out in the puzzle. i didnt play bowling. sick of it larh. then dad came. lucky he came lo. hlped to solve some matter. which caused many singaporean to be piss AGAIN. we piss alot time hor? bo bian larh. bear with it can? cause they say they know how to played when they very guailan go disturb ppl. really thanks dad fro being there. ohh and i managed to know some more new friend. went to ate rotiprate with my buddy and daniel tgt with his buddy. i went to make yongzheng sort of jealous of me being able to go out and eat. cuse they say what if beofre a certain time dont go home then what police can came ask u sth or catch u. i sudenly forgot the word. but i first time no. actualy last time i no. but i took tat matter very lightly and my dad was like dont know about it. cause i go home very late everytime also no police come talk to me etc etc. homed after that. was tired but need to wait for my buddy to prepare for bed first. i v gd rite? nxt time need wake up early stil let her do everyting 1st den slp. ohh.. and i cried because of many thing too larh. and hor we were told that they were supposed to play for the bowling themselves.. i think is so wrong can. bt what jerrick told me was true. nt only jerrick,, nelson and yongzheng said also quite true. but my dad told mi that as a host i shld pay marh.

120708
met up with geoffrey AGAIN. sick of it le barh? bobian for the exchg program. im mor close to huimin eraine geoffrey and yvonne. ate mac. i treat my buddy can. cause my dad told me that being a host i should be providing everything for her. so treat her mac lo. cause she nt suit to singapore taste. diao larh i bought mcgriddle which i think its nt very de nice. then geoffrey bought after us. same as mi too larh. and my buddy was like anyhow think liao lo. we were like the earliest? waited v long for the rest. walked about sc centre then the water work. went to jec after tt. and they ate mac agn. i huimin eraine was kinda angry cause geoffrey passed his buddy to jisheng went jisheng was about to leave and geoffrey went to arcade. very irresponsible can. didnt ate. saw jessica. went bugis and when we were at the cafe we saw jessica again. and huimin n eraine kip drinkin my drink. which i allow de larh. it was quite nice, but i couldnt suck the 'water' then huimin and eraine can lo. cause i stupid marh. ohh then geoffrey asked me to go meet up with him etc for pool. when i was wearing pe attired. i didnt bring extra cloth lo. i didnt larh. cause frm bugis den bck to jurong, v mafan. wats more evann and siti were there. its like enuf ppl to pei him alrdy can. few hrs ltr called mi up again. to play pool lo. this time i dam fed up can. u guys see and think whether i shld b angry nt larh. he asked me to go and pei him cause he sian. then i was lyk evann and siti with you right. can go flirt with them if you wan larh. cause he is such a flirt can. then he was like saying there nt at there liao they at bugis which was wen i also saw them at the cafe. i know im bad say wan flirt go flirt with them im nt the one. k la im bad. but i was real fed up is like no one pei you then come find mi? (when was nt true cause he ask mi b4 liao) but stil angry marh. then he sae he with a grp of guys? which i duno hu dey were. i was like i go then only girl which make mi look so dam ____?then i also xinruan liao feel lyk giving in to him cause he plead until very what marh. passed hp to huimin and huimin tok crap larh. she said sth which i was like wahlao dun anihw say, but then is nth larh. she was like wana zhui os dunid zhui until lyk tt larh. aiyo.huimin arh.dun anihw conclude thing u no?shop finish huimin wanted met up with those playing pool then how we know we went to diva and wasted alot of time too late to met up with them liao. so homed after tt. wanted treat my buddy eat but she dont want. she wanted me to eat india dish. the good liqing agreed and we went home to cook follow by me toasting bread and we watched hairspray. my love can. when show fin dad was back.so she sae she tired wana slp. mayb its true larh. then she bathe i told her tt dad wanted bring her around the city and she say ok cause nt tired liao. at 1st say tired dont slp wil dizzy then after tt say can. blur liao larh mi. went many places and stop at mt faber. stupid geoffrey went to believe that i went out for a date withmy bf leavin my buddy slpin at hm cause jerrick say by 9 they must be at home. but i dino marh.. haha. liqing whr gt so bad de? go datin nv bother about my buddy. hah. and you know what! at 1240 geoffrey guaiguai de called mi and with 3 mins? he dozed off. i was like!!! piang. then he so tired i oso bu ren xin ask him call mi agn. before that yvonne called me up and sth crop agn, her buddy very lihai lo. in the middle of the night go out with the indian without and singaporean. win alrdy lo. homed and slpt.

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after i prepared i realis emy buddy din wake up. think she nv set alarm. what my family planned were like wasted. in the end when to blk 130 der ate indian food, i ate roti tissue. hee.then to choice. no girl at there larh. i gt off the car huimin and eraine came and left. i supose to follow but din, so sat at the chair tgt with nelson yongzheng geoffrey and erm (the one whom i always forget his name) did chat lo. was saying how stress im in huayi due to me presurin myself. helson was like saying if nw i stress sec 3 even worst. talk about hw i talk back to teacher etc etc. about the principal etc etc. and that geoffrey and yongzheng so no manner. why?! geoffrey asked mi to let him slp then i was siting der marh so why shld i let him leh? so he took the empty box (which i brought with choco and let everyone eat de) and put on my lap and just rest on it. hw can one slp so comfortably on it larh. then the yongzheng go take video or photo. think he thought i will lyk dun take larh btr delete it. bt i din. i was calm so was geoffrey.wahahaha. then when i borrow hp frm yongzheng with no intention of deletin the photo but to see gt what song inside then i realise tt i shld take a look if the pic is der. and its gone. woah. i was like nt bad arh stil will delete. then geoffrey was like i delete it alrdy. but then i dont know if he knew that der is also one mor in nelson hp larh. actuali i dont gt bo bt yongzheng was buletooth-in to nelson which he said its the pic marh. haha. then jerrick came brief us and he left with some of them to buy food. then the rest of us waited awhile and walked to siti house for a farewell lunch. didnt eat any food. :D and jerrick was like asking mi to cause gastric marh :D then its yingchong birthday. happy birthday boy. around 2+ the indian went bck to choice cause they had sth on in the night. slacked at siti housed then to csc. bowling again. i din cause mon playing marh stil go play? i wil die man. after that off to pool. din play cause leavin real soon. nt long ltr dad fetched mi eraine and huimin to eraine hse, waited for huimin to take her stuff and drove her home went to ABC to eat. mum n sis went sakura with fren. yeah. then homed. chat on phone instead of doin hw.

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had excuse letter to skip math to go airport cause they leaving le marh. on the bus to choice when we supose to rehearsal i cried can. everyone was like wah so fast cry liao when haven even see them, i cried dam jialat can. at the choice i dun1 let them see marh, so sat on the bench and cried. mr fok was like why u emoin then miss wong ask whether im ok nt. bt then i need to ask my dear friends for comfortin me and lentin my their shoulder to cry on and rest on. brought the luggage to the bus and off to airport. tried nt to cry saw my buddy like wanna cry. then the indian buddies were like askin many of us to sign on their shirt. around 10? then the most handsome guy never ask mi sign cause when he wanted to i was busying signing others marh. then at the airport there i cried about 3 4 time. someone said liqing ltr wil cry then grofrrey say mayb nt leh mayb she go bus cry. but i didnt. there was once when i cried when they went into the erm departure stationto check in. i walk off to a side and cried till lyk my grandpa pass away. suddenly got one arm go over my front. around the front neck from shoulder to shoulder. so sad liao who cares. so was like grab it kinda hard and kip pushing the tears away? so scare dirty the person arm marh. i didnt face up cause i look real ugly when crying. and i realise then its geoffrey's arm. -.- at 1st gt the arm i din bother cause gt sth or what can comfort mi im alright. i tot it was eraine at 1st cause she comfort mi real lots can. i that time xin hen tong liao lo it was when i felt the care i had cause another hand was on my right-back shoulder marh. chao comfortable de can? i dont know hw to say but when u r crying and someone did that to u, u will feel sth which i dont know hw to say. ohh. dont ask me when my hands were i dont know. think i was grabing the arm the 'pushing' all the tears away then erm i duno gt like hug him or nt. mayb my left hand on his body then right hand grabing his arm?aiya 1stly i dont hw many ppl i hug b4. its just a form of gesture? so dont anihw tink can. its very normal in those angmoh countries. but i can tell you if you cry go hug someone of the opp sex. cause you would feel btr. i dont know hw to say bt the feeling wil be much mor btr jiu dui le. then that geoffrey dont know hw to an wei ppl de. go say dun cry cause cry liao den bu mei liao. pls larh i dare to cry stil care mei bu mei de meh? hah. then yingchong go touch my head say dont cry le or cry for what. i was lyk -.- those because of what he say but he treat me lyk baby crying so comfory by touching the head. then followed by geoffrey doing that again. -.- and yingchong did not only once can. i think aft geoffrey he did it again. hah. bt then what they say really make mi feel the 'love'. cause recently i think that in this world im so extra what they did make me chg my thinking. then yingchong was like making fun of eraine. then he step the bck of my foot meaning i too short he cnt see larh. hw i know i turn bck left 1 leg hiting his injury part. which was real painful what surprise me was yingchong didnt scold me and when i apologise his reaction was nvm is ok. but do you know how guilty i was. he wasnt even angry with me for doing that. i tot he wil like scream etc etc. aniw i think i shld say sry here. cause im so guilty and he din scold mi. scold mi i will feel btr bt wil bt real mad at it larh. mayb he knows that he is in the wrong too? hah idk. on the bus chated with yvonne follow by eraine. while walkin was smsin to tell him that i apreciate his comfort at the airport. then hw i no he behind mi. lo lo lo. then eraine huimin yingchong jerrick geoffrey plus dont who went to tehtarik to eat i wanted to go so much i was uper hungry but then hor. i need to ruch to csc for bowling. joined shermaine and evelyn.. hehe. then went to buy balloon then homed bathe and ate followed by meeting chunfong to teac mi math. chpt 7 cos i wanted the ans to be 100percent correct marh. and i dun understand mos of the question. don tforget in school i missed 3 leson of math and ms phang said that im lagging behind alrdy lo. which i tink is only 10percent true haha. at 7+ saw simon hah but he was in the rush for tutoring. it was until the last question we were all stuck lo lo lo. cause the question chun cnt think the solution. after that of cause is went home larh. ohh and chun came my hse der to teach mi rite? like picnic lol. he brought tibit i brought drinks. pro right we both din brought the same stuff :D xinlingxiangtong lo.

woah..
i just wanted to post suddenly thou homeworks are lining up waiting for me to do now.
=DD
i just wanna sae

1)I think i really love you
2)YES! i really miss you i dont joke can.
3)i dont know how to tell you
-how much i love you
-that i dont wanna be wid ya cause im afraid that you will..

p/s they are both to diff ppl.
im goin crazy over ____

4)cause of your attitude i think i hate you
5)i wanna hear your voice NOW
6)i gt angry easily when im with you &&&
7)i find you really sweet LASTLY
8)ILY<3

diff colour represent diff ppl.
gosh im such ____

01. What's more important? Money Or Love?

Love larh. if not my imagination will go wild. but money is impt too.

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?

of course i do. when i receive annonying call or msg. in sch sometimes. or slping?

03. What happened at 10.00am today?

sleeping.

04. When did you last cry?

just now when i was doing another survey. when i was typing about grandpa.

05. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?

bread.

06. What do you want in your life right now?

happiness.money.love.care.security.

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?

Carry an umbrella. to me hood is useless. i had it when its raining and i get wet. they are all acid.

08. What is your favourite thing to have on your bed?

Bolster.

09. What bottom are you wearing now?

Shorts. i cnt be excalt cause i dont know what you call it excalty.

10. What is the nicest text in your inbox say?

it tells me how rude i was.

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?

Depends. i cn be a flirt too. :D it ok to be one when you are young :D

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?

Nope.

13. What was the last movie you caught?
Hancock :D

14. What are you proud of?

Teachers complimenting me. ppl caring for me. esp frm hanwei and chunfong. i got no idea why? as long as its mature guy i feel the warmth. they are like my elder brother. i do love them can. maybe i know. cause i dont really know them. or rather they are quite cold. or i thought they dislike me or dun care me de.

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?

Singtel wishes you a Happy Birthday! Dial *4239(*4BDY) ot log on to www.singtel.com/birthday08 to enjoy our exclusive line-up of treats, just for you!

(at first i didnt know why they send me then realise its my sis birthday month.)

16. If you have a chance to migrate where will you migrate to?

Canada. the house are freaking huge.

17. Do you have any nicknames?

LQ, WLQ(in the past), ah girl(since young till now)

18. What does your last received text message say?

i deleted it. but the last msg saved in my phone is..

haha ya la. Rest early bah. I see you on friday.

received yesterday from chunfong.

19. What time did you do to bed last night?

do to bed?i supposed is slpt barh.. hmm 1? i have been having a hard time slping.

20. Are you currently happy?

nope. D:

21. Who gives you best advice?

actually Jacob do give good advices. hanwei gives advices that are mature? i dont know how to say. but i do loves his advices though! chunfong gives advices that might be able to strong-er me. :D

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?

No. It's really fattening. whats more i so fat alrdy.

23. Who did you talk to on phone last night?

oh dear. so many. afew like daddy, yiqun & millie.

24. Is anything bugging you right now?

Yes. :( if i elaborate. that person would be like chao no face de. so btr dun.

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?

ohh dear. so many tried to make me laugh. hah. maybe messages from sir? i cnt rmb which sir larh. both hanwei's and chunfong's do make me laugh. i gt thrill whenever i see msges from them.

26. Do you wear toe socks?

nope. you buy for me i wear lo. i dont mind trying leh.

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?

cause i put silent mode while slping. haha. liqing is a pig.

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?

of course. its like uncountable. i break others 1st then i feel de pain. esp when i love him so much but dont wana be tgt anymore. im a flirt rmb?

29. What annoys you most in a person?

when i dislike him/her but he/she keep talking/smsing me. OR those who 拍马屁 OR trying to act smart. or rather follows you wherever you go.

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?

past-yes

currently-i dont know

future-comfirm will have de larh in future

unless i dont wanna gt married or kena force de larh

i was posting halfway when i saw these..
so decided to do this first..

1. How long would you wait for someone you love?
actually i dont know. depend. if its like i always think of him etc etc. then wait until my love for him is gone :D

2. What do you hope for now?
to gain more confidence for taekwondo and not bother about relationship problems :D
or rather be more happy :D
in short, to change myself with the support from everyone :D

3. What is the last thing you say/do if tomorrow is the end of the world?
i would say I LOVE YOU to everyone i see &&&
i would thanks everyone. without them i wouldnt be what i am now.

4. Do you hate your friends sometimes?
i do but i forgive and keep it deep down in my heart.
as i dont believe in forgetting unless i met with an accident and my brain is damaged.

5. What is your favourite colour?
nothing in particular.
but now im thinking of black.
as thats what im feeling now.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
of course. theres scientific logic what. but it doesnt happen everytime.

7. Will you be happy, if the one you love is happy?
of course. he happy i sad for what?

8. What are you listening now?
百分百

9. Are you happy with your life now?
actually i am or rather i should be. but im living in 26 may 2006. the day my grandpa passed away. the day that i wanted to visit him and tell him infront of everyone that i love him. so much then he die i will die. the day that i wanted to cry but i cnt. if not daddy woul be saying that im silly. everyone have to die. but i dont want. cnt u let me die before them. nw im thinking and crying. 我好爱你. before he was sick i wanted to tell him so much but am afraid. gone liao then regret.

10. What if your crush ask you out?
depends lo. shall nt elaborate on it.

11. What would you do if your crush know you had a crush on them?
that would be better. dont need hide or avoid. and let nature take it course.

12. What feeling do you hate most?
'emo'. to be frank 'emo' isnt a word to desbribe feelings unlike happy etc. whenever im 'emo' my heart would be so heavy that i cnt stand it. after that i would wanna commit suicide. i have a hard cover covering my weak heart.

13. You are currently in?
singapore.
bukit batok.
the living room?
or in huayi sec sch?
or in bowling?
or in taekwondo?

14. What are you looking forward to the outcome weeks?
hah. nothing. why? cause when im young, my parent brought to to many places. that when some of my friend asked me out. i think is nothing. thus i wanna be humble. :D

15. The most important thing in your life?
actually without money we will starve etc. but i think i need love more. im like hancock. :D

16. Who do you hope to be always there for you?
my family. my friend. everyone. i need you. yes. you. actually i need ppl like my sirs to give me advice. so that i would not be pessimistic. by right im not pessimistic. unless i let my mind go wild.

17. Do you find life meaningless?
actually i do. i think i live not for myself but my family and friends. not really friends. only a few. esp not my sec sch friends.

18. What if you believe that there is "true love"?
actually i do. but people say there isnt. so now i dont know. and its ridiculous to ask this kind of Q. what you expect me to ans? ohh if there is there is larh?

19. What if you lose someone important?
i can tell you man. i will cry and cry and cry. living at that moment every day. and cry and cry. thats why i need you concern and support for me to change,

20. What can you change if you turn back time?
best Q. thats what i want. back to the moment i was born. then mum and dad would be thrill and i would be the first for the wong family 3rd generation(if im those laoahma larh). then i would want everyone to love me. hug me. care for me. kiss me. etc etc. the older i get the worst i become. i need to change!

its boring.
thats why i start typing.
wanted to watch 命中注定我愛你 but got no mood.
was ultra moody this few day lo.
still got to thank hanwei for what he said on tues.
and chunfong for yesterday.
and i set new target/s for myself le.
i know its stupid but then the more i see them sparring etc during lesson.
the more i wanna be belt black 3rd dan ah girl.
1)must not have 'no confidence' attitude(cause i can do it de just that i know my own limit)*
2)no more spoilt brat character!(a must have)
3)be even more humble
4)prepare to get more scolding from chunfong*
5)train harder*
6)dont think so much*
7)spoilt brat to change her mentality*
8)prepare to get tough training*
9)change myself*
10)train to that standard i want*
11)gain more confidence*
12)improve*
*LOL.chunfong say de.how can it be possible larh.but then i really wanna change. D:


ouhh.and some may sound simila but i can tell you its diff.look at it in another angle.

able to bear the toughness of the training, will be able to improve at least abit.

why?

where got people train and get worst de. no such thing.

not excalty true.
cause if you train doing te wrong thing for a few time.
you will become worst eventually.

lastly to be able to toughen up i must be able to 面对them in class.





think i wil just briefly type what happened during the past 3days.

cause they are mainly about taekwondo. :D


friday.


it ws youth day celebration in school.


met up with the india buddies.


and went to dunking.


stayed there for the longest time.


ohh.


i had gastric pain again.


duno why leh.


been having no appetite.


see any food.


only feel like vomiting.


so i drank winter melon only.


should had drank milk larh.

then went home wanted to nap and not eat.

sis brought kfc home.

ate 5 chicken popcorn.

and slept.

gastric was buay tahan alrdy lo..

woke up.

eat less than half of what i ate last time.

then to taekwondo.

before that i cant stand liao.

gastric pain was like making me very weak cant really walk but wanna vomit but stomach too empty for anything to be vomitted out.

ohh training that time saw andy with 4 other people.

he actually didnt saw me.

when i was doing some kickings.

then when running that time..

5 or 4 round during the 3rd or 4th round then he saw me.

during side running that time.

i was like no face liao lo.

after that was like shiok larh.

very long never perspire?

weird.

but sweating is not use on animal?

aiya heck care..

im like missing charles LOL

+++

the dance or rather the stunts that he did that time.

is july so 6 more months then can see him.

has he forgotten about me?

hah..

think he in ns so busy that he forget me le.

after taekwondo.

off to mac.

ohh.

and zhiyuan never gave mi false hope.

cause he went that day.

forget about that.

at mac ate a burger.

dunno why got fast food i stil can eat a little more..

ate about half and pass to sis..

cant swallow leh.

acompanied hanwei to bustop then home.



sat..

mum went to malaysia for some taichi competition early in the morning.

thus i had to bring sis out for breakfast cum lunch.

i dont really take breakfast.

whats more we 12 then eat.

when to kfc.

going to eat fin.

yiqun called mi.

den homed and chat on the phone.

and suddenly sir called me to ask me go to toapayoh for grading.

at first yiqun was like can go.

then i quickly bathe.

called yiqun !#@$%^ times then answer.

and say dont want go.

by then sis was like wana go liao.

so go lol.

and the bus driver drive damn slow larh.

10km per hr?

that the bus after him.

also 157 overtake him.

damn ass lurh.

saw a guy tot he biantai.

then bobian must ask him which stop to stop.

den i knew he is lyk jap or korean.

so cool.

my judgement is wrong!!

i was like so nervous for yiyang.

and angry cause im lyk rushing for time.

and then having stomach cramp.

always like tt de.

too nervous jiu zhe yang.

yiyang taking for black belt of cos wil nervous larh.

bt den none of my business i also nervous.

is kinda weird lo.

i n my sis extra lyk tt.

oni girl.

nvm about tt.

xiguan cn liao.

go mac oso lyk tt.

then so coincidence.

yiyang spar wid tt angmoh again!

too coincidence.

ILOVEANGMOH!

then during the break dad came to fetch us out.

wanted to gim yiyang a ride but then he walk too fast.

went to balestier to eat.

then to simei shopin mall.

east point arh?

duno larh.

gt miss singapore world 2008 der.

then homed.

watch tv LOL!



sun!

i wish everyday were like yesterday!

then i would not be so sad anymore.

the above were type on the seventh.

i was talking about sad right?
yeah dam sad nia mi.
ohh.did i mention about what happen last tues?
i doubt so.
nvm lets skip it,
i b typin a post on what happen durin the holi..
but will type those that i rmb or gt more meanin to me de..
sunday went to toapayoh.
meet simon and yiqun..
thanks to hanwei that i missed the 1st 157.
and i was lyk so mad.
cause i need to share the bus with other tdk member.
im stingy!
and while listenin to radio i cried in the bus.
lucky for me.
no one knew about it.
includin the person who sad beside me.
ANGYIQUN!
come on man.
no one know how i feel.
stupid larh.
the gradin take 15min to fin everyting.
pro man.
1st time.
and everyone pass.
knn.
den i no i go gradin.
nvm.
i kind of promise chunfong that i will kick away the no confidence LIQING
=DDDD
im lyk so happy now.
but also sad.
went to burger king to eat.
and simon was like 'i want to eat burger king'
thats nth.
sudenli i tot it in an another way..
chunfong too.
and i was dead.
cos burger kind is a nick name for somebody..
hee.
secret secret.
so its lyk burger king a nick name for someone?
so horible.stil gt wat woper?
duno wat larh.
anyway let me indirectly tell everyone.
i never like burger king/woper cause he is too _ _ _ _.
i prefer mature guy than that kind of 'burger king'
hah.
i din tell him cause i din wana break his heart.
bt if he force mi to.
nvm.
we wun b fren animor.
tts fine for mi =D
and that sickenin hanwei kip saein tt im rich..
and im a spoilt brat.
kns.
im chgin myself soon can!
caught hancock.
was kinda late.
ohh and went to arcade.
they played the basketball.
chunfong look so cool can.
i dam love tis kinda feeling?
i duno.
male who play basketbal coolly.
i dam love it.
went home tgt and in the bus sis n chunfong were makin quite alot of noise.
learn many lame game.
said to be able to learn in U.
okay?
bt when we were young we did played b4 just tt we called it diff.
love the game tt is lyk a broker/stocker.
homed and dad drove us to imm bt carpark too full.
lazy wait so went to westmal instead.
saw eunice who was siting the table next to me..
homed.
and slacked.
next time then cont barh.