exams start liao.
still got more coming on the way.
shall not comment much about eng paper1 and chi.
but i can say that i spent my time well.
at least i dont really feel like lying down to sleep etc etc
and i realised that i always get distrated easily.
esp when during the paper.
my mind is full of that shadow..
that shadow which i loved alot.
that shadow that i wanna hug tightly onto..
and suddenly i feel so ashamed of myself.
its exam now yet im thinking abouuut...
well.
i've got nth to say.

ytd meet up with allan and lixuan for night studying.
till erm 10+
went home and read up the model compo..

today waited for eunice went to nearby hawker centre to eat.
ate western food.
bought bubble tea and walked home.
went to the playground infront of 175.
330 went home.
and im so damn tired that i slept from 5 to 8pm.
of course late for taekwondo larh.
chitchat with boonkeat and he pei mi home.
watched F1 of course.
AND IM SO GONA BE A F1 RACER IN FUTURE!

xi wang ming tian kuai dian dao.
and hope i can cut my hair successfully wearing my barney shirt!
i damn love it!
random.
dad called up bbss and was told that their sch full liao.
called commonwealth and dey asked mi to let dem see my result.
haish.
transferin sch is th mos mafan de shi on earth.
many been askin mi nt to transfer.
which is lyk stopin mi.
i wanted to abandon all the memories i had in huayi and be a happy girl :DD
ohh and the moment i think about vernis zoey and jessica.
im so sad can.
dont quit or transfer larh :/
i've gt no time to bother about other thing.
be it him you or myself.

i dont know why after daddy spoke to mrs leong.
i felt so damn freaking happy.
chao happy can.
unlike those humji.
and those who said the petition thing.
all they could do was?
hmm??
err??
ermm??
to say say only.
and the hatre that they have could be erased easily by come praises etc etc.
i know. i know.
what i am writing now is so gona make many of you guys angry.
but then do some reflection.
some of you guys told me that ohh that mdm thk blahblahblah.
in th end leh.
no action was made..
pls larh.
say liao btr kip it larh.
hide those hideous face of yours barh.
haish.
tmr im gona tok to mrs leong.
wish me all the best barh.
muahahah.
ouh..
today nth much.
except that i vomited in the bus.
-.-
dont ask mi why.
i oso dont know.
then went to kfc slacked and bowling.
homed.
and chiong my proj until 1030.
im so damn piss and tired.
and i rly miss him.
i supposed im holdin onto sth thats ending.
do you gt it?
ouhh
and i have been taking alot of china food.
example.
those i bought frm china.
and the white choco and the milk..
gosh.
the milk i haf been drink since p5 and its so damn nice.
the white choco is my fave but bought frm china.
kns.
and im supposed to throw my choco away :P
RANDOM!
im gtin mor n mor random

sometimes i really think that in this world no one is equal.
none of us are equally treated.
whenever i did something wrong.
im always given chances to mend my way etc etc
but why?
why arent these chances given to others?
i realised that im nt happy whenever theres someone bside me bein upset.
why?!
i thought i said that those problems are none of my business.
but why it seemed to be able to affect me so much.

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idk why.
i rly dont know why tt i kept thinkin of him..
nan dao wo zhen de ai shang ta le ma?

gosh.
problems comin one after another again.
or mayb when one haven even been settle the other came!!!

oh and anyw.
hope u b able to c these.
u rly tink ily arh?
i tink u misunderstood sth.
well in short i nv lyk u in th 1st place n i nv would.
cause..
its imposible btw us.
and the game has nv started at all..
its just ur wishful thinking my dear.
bao zhong ba.
-.-
dun try haolianin to mi abt her.
gosh im lyk nv jealous at all..
hah.
bodoh.
wo zhen zhen xi huan de shi ta bu shi ni :DD

YEAH!

at last im back from china.

i nearly wanted to run away and not come back.=DD













am a happy girl now

a wannabe happy girl



anyway let me thanks a few ppl 1st.

ohh

i will post about china next time.

not so soon barh.

yingchong chinming neville xunbin gael darryl cheryl and the unforgetable suichyuen!!

really thanks you guys for comforting me when im sad etc etc.

and sorry for causing you guys to be worried.

i realised that you guys are really great.

esp xunbin.

why?

xunbin ar xunbin.

in china i can sae u r not qianbian at all

but why!?

why when you r at sch you wana make ppl to dislike u.

mayb u tink i duno.

but i tink i no hw u feel.

cause im tt kind of girl who is super weak BUT i wanna ppl to tink im strong!

and when xunbin tell me those da dao li its really unbelieveable.

hah

yingchong..

oh gosh.

i din expect you to be soo sweet can.

and something i wanna say but the prob is tt it can nv b describe by using word.

chinming and neville

both i dont know well.

but this trip sort of bond us.

neville in singapore always disturb me.

hope this time back in singapore

it be like the life in china.

and tell you guys sth barh.

tt time you guys sang the dont know what song

and i cried.

its actually not because of tt song but i hate myself

:D

to me gael is those dao ren kind de.

but on wed in sch i cried.

you sort of comfort me

which really scared me

darryl thou those words you said did make me upset.

but you know what?

you are those funny sort de ppl.

you can made someone to be furious with you but smile again! :D

cheryl.

well. idk wat word to use.

but i hate her can.

wait. dun anyhow think!

continue reading!

i hate her for having such a good character which i dun haf DD:

hah.

but she is real lovable larh.

suichyuen..

hah.

dun cry hor.

crying is wlq's job.

dun snatch frm her uh?

n c'in u 'emo' i wil oso emo de.

jus tt i dun express dem out.

well.
theres isnt anything for mi to update or wana update.
about china trip.
think u guys gona wait longer.
im tired and cant hold on any further.

p/s: this post was type long ago just that i fin it up on 150908