24Dec - X'mas Eve
went to restaurent at tiong for dinner
for once i had a very simple xmas eve
well
it was a rather different experience
think its the 1st or 2nd time that we went to a restaurent
instead of a 4/5 star hotel
cause eve is on wed
thus the atmosphere wasnt the same
and so after dinner
we went home
anyway i saw Fiona Xie too
the heel was bloody high can
and the dress of her
was torn
maybe it was on purpose
but it didnt seem so

25Dec -CHRISTMAS!!!
its xmas
and if you dont go to orchard
then it isnt xmas
1st was far east plaza
then the rest i couldnt rmb
cause everytime i go orchard
i would be like walking from the start where
we got down from a vehicle
then to the other end till night
then back
so i couldnt remember which was the 2nd and so on
this xmas
was the first time i felt that i found my past
a past where i would go orchard everyweek
till night
shopping all day long
reaching home late night
and immediately you wanna jump onto the bed and sleep
however the present
is like
visiting relatives etc etc
and since daddy has to work 7days a week
thus going to town seem to be a little cruel to him
although!
to him is like
children are gem
thus they happy can le
then to us-children
would be like
daddy xinku le
go town still nida walk like siao
spend money like hell
anyway his 7days a week
sat and sun ard 12pm would be at hm le
we went to almost all the designers shop
fendi/dior/chanel etc etc
however they were still a number which we missed
gucci was put
cause daddy think that they brand not famous enough
same for fendi
but we did went in
a bag of dior caught our eye
1500bucks
after 50% discount
in the end didnt get it
saw a fendi belt
im so gona ask my aunt to get it for me
4 more days to school reopen???
school shoe
school bag
pencil case
water bottle
dont think im getting a new school bag
i jsut simply cant find a
nice unique limited backpack
BACKPACK!!!!
all i found were shoulder bag slingbag
special unique
but i want backpack!

HOHOHO~
MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Your Dosha is Pitta

You have a quick mind, a gift for persuasion, and a sharp sense of humor. You have both the drive and people skills to be a very successful leader. Argumentative and a bit stubborn, you have been known to be a little too set in your ways. But while you may be biased toward your own point of view, you are always honest, fair, and ethical. With friends: You are outgoing and open to anyone who might want to talk to you In love: You are picky but passionate To achieve more balance: Be less judgmental of those around you, and take cool walks in the moonlight.

was chatting with joseph just now
dont know why
seemed to be a changed person.
btw think im going malaysia later
back tmr
cause tmr dad need not go to work
think someone gona persuade me to stay for a few more days.
but i will make sure that its a nono
cause tues there will be a tuition
bloody hell
i should have said on 27dec i wan tuition instead of dont want
then tues no tuition
friday ask dad to fetch me
if not 23dec then fetch
the most i will not go grandma house
which is also good
cause i wil be bored to death

sometime i reallydont understand whats wrong with those males out there.
esp the one consider close to me.
hey boy
whats wrong with getting into ite?
so what if the age that you are now
aint supposed to be in ite?
for ard 1 year i have been searching for infos about school
more on ite
but regardless of what i say
you still prefer private school
ok fine
but the prob is you din reach the requirement needed
so who the hell are you to be so fussy about school
although i once hate ite
but thats a long ago story
although im younger than you
so you think whatever i said are craps
but let me tell you they aint
one day when you think back about the past
you will tell yourself that
oh yeah
what liqing told me once were all true
i have done my part
and am on the verge of giving you up
the rest is up to u boy

who doesnt wannabe a rich and elegant lady?
even I want.
however im only the most ordinary girl
i want to learn to not hate myself
i want to like everything that i have
i wannabe someone who doesnt hides her real feelings
难道我不相当名媛淑女
但是
我只是
在平凡不过的普通女孩子而已
i wanna live my life to the fullest
i wanna treat everyone sincerely
and i wanna everything around me seem perfect
everyone is good in my eyes
even someone who detest me is also
one whom i wanna be friend with
i want to have friend who could feel my sincerity and wanna get close to me
i dont wannabe someone who is shallow who just judge someone thru external appearance
i wanna be someone who cherish everything that i have

i've let myself down
i always thought that everyone doesnt matters to me
but that aint true
the truth is they matters alot to me.
because they meant too much to me
every tiny thing that they did
can mean alot to me.

manwei if you see this
i think you would understand right?

suddenly i was asking myself.
did i went back to malaysia to destress?
and suddenly i was shocked by my greatgrandma's death?
did that happen?
why it still seem so unreal?
where is she now after everyone shifted house?
where are you now?
we aint close.
but why am i feeling uber sad now?
i dont understand..

one day im gonna change my destiny
in order to do so i must be brave and willing to sacrifice

im here posting for the sake of both sumin and manwei.
the two of them have been ask me.
why you never post?
thought you say today will post.
why never?
due to being busy ytd.
thus i broke my promise of saying that i will post ytd.
so here i am posting.

i really got nothing to write.
so what you want me to write leh?


不知道为什么
心里酸酸的
眼里的眼泪流个不停
很想像小baby一样的哭
但又不敢
很想跑进一个人的怀抱里
但又不知谁的怀抱

我很想要做一个看起来很strong但是很weak
可是从我告诉manwei我的人格etcetc
我就再也没办法演出很strong的人了
看起来很开心
并不代表我很开心
看起来很伤心
并不代表我很伤心
你明白吗？

thanks for everything..
because of that i learnt to become stronger now.
and i will change for the better.
although i though of giving up.
but i hope this kinda thoughts would leave me alone soon.

nothing much today.
dont wanna elaborate.
went to abc for dinner with grandma.
and browsing some sunglasses now.
LV? Gucci? Prada?
which one?!

after spending a number of days in malaysia
i think im feeling so much better
but i believe if only greatgrandmama.....
i would have been so much more happier
thinking about we wouldnt be meeting each other anymore
its really saddening
however im glad that during the sad moments we spend
we were still happy being as one whole family?
hard to understand hor?
whatever it is
im really glad to have known you guys.
although when i said that we wouldnt be meeting each other
you guys said that singapore is so small
still can de larh
but gender and age also matter marh..