I was thinking if I know you. Why is it that people are saying how sucky you are when i find you fine? What kind of person are you? Why when i felt that you are treating me good enough, on the other hand, they say that you are rude? Oh well, in a way. Gradually, I find myself lost in a maze because of you. When I wanted to help you, that was when I find you rude and despicable. I swear 1 day im going to slap you. Im a fool who does not admit that she is....

I told myself not to cry for 15days, just 15days. I thought I could have done it. However, I cant resist from not crying whenever when inner feelings are being told. I feel like typing it out cause I feel like ;D You just need to be who you are and not what people wants you to be. You cant change the way how people look at you. Just be yourself. I know that I loves being random. Its a fact that I never said before. Cause I know that no one arounds me can accept. I might be happy than hyper than sad then angry then crying. Thats who I am. Who the hell can accept? I would be mistooken. I force myself to not be random infront of the same person.

Example: Infront of A Im emokia then i remain as that.
Infront of B Im hot tempered then i remain as that.
As simple as ABC.

But sometimes i hate it when people thinks im so act cause i cry. I hate it when they say Im haolian when i top. But sometimes i so happy thus i tell them that I top. Example ok! Thats who I am. But I want people to accept that kind of me. IS IT POSSIBLE? No.

Why am I like that cause im chatting with Jiaen. Then suddenly...

What am of people am I?
Why is it counted that i got 14 characters?
Why is it that infront of someone particular im always hyper.
But maybe toward another im particularly emo.
Who am I?
Do I really know myself?
Do they know what kind of person I am.

Okay. Enough of this.
2nd matter.
My chemistry teacher.
oh come on.
stop comparing us with other class. cause mdm lye says do not compare. and some on we didnt have 4period of chem lesson not cause we are lazy but holidays. blame nature? dont force me one day cant bear with you and flare up. if she compares again i cant promise that i wouldnt slam the table. -.-

Seriously, i have got no idea whats wrong with me. Seemed like as though i got serious moodswing can! For dont know how many times, i really want to go to school peacefully and happily. Then, i would be trouble free. Not having to worry about not doing homework and got caught by teacher. I swear this year is 1 of the year that i did the most homework. And Im happy about that. Then then then, does Andy has moodswing? haha. cause I and LiTiang(did i spell it correctly?) think so. I told him to take a chair to sit beside me. Less than 10mins, he flared up and told Edmund to keep quiet, I meant I dont remember him having that kind of attitude. And the stich/thread/string I dont know what you called that is blue in colour? I think so? There is like soo many stuffs i want to write. But it would be so inconvience!!! To think of it, Im very kind and helpful. Since Andy injured his little finger(thats what i prefer to call it ;)) , he called him causing me to be soo worried and scared. Then, I helped him by taking all his homeworks adn the fish essence except the newspaper cause I cant find the extra. However, on monday i was lazy to bring home causing us to meet up on tues so I can pass him his stuffs. I even got a file(i supposed its the cheapest file ba), not i stingy but the homeworks are so few, you expect me to get a ultra big ring file meh?! Good right me? Got give file somemore! In fact i thought he was lying to me when he said that he would be going to school on wed, which was true. LOL. Then today i didnt see him at foyer, so thought he not coming. Yesterday, a freaking painful pull of his hair and today a smack on his butt WITH MY NOTES. I even helped him with maths? I think? A little only. But also got help ;D
Oh dear,
I didnt know that I can be that kind. Actually! I just didnt want people to have a good impression of me ;))
Why should I be giving a good impression of myself to others?
I thought i could like not bother about her teachings, but i doubt i could with the comments of others.
I decided to go to JAPAN!
I dont understand why dont my classmates want to get back maths test paper? I freaking want to get it back. Cause i hope to top the class and win that stupid guy. And make sure he dont get too proud infront of me. Thus, today when he said he didnt know how to do Q8 and Q9 i was freaking happy. To prove to him that im better than him :D
Dont play play ;D
Dont know why, when going to school, im supposed to be upset but happy. Then after school and at home, i would be like going to cry, eyes teary teary.
I really hope to receive his sms, but how to start with it? He doesnt seemed to be those who can continue smsing the whole day. Or maybe what Im thinking is not what hes thinking D;
If my class, the guys have moodswing, better off dead.
3 more than to CNY's eve...
Dont seemed to have the mood for it...
Im missing KLX! haha. okay larh freaking random but spice my day up with these 3 words. Not that down.

LOL!
i got 30 books written by Robert T. Kiyosaki
at least need 600bucks.
but thats not the problem.
the problem is that i wouldnt have enough time to read.
yesterday,
stayed back for house pratice.
LOL
house leader was in fact a little boring
did some homeworks in class
supposed to being essence to andy
but he said come back then give so gave back to mdm lye
than at night say want come my house take.
win liao lor.
BUT I DIDNT BRING HOME
but before that
i actually discussed with daddy
and said that i will bring it personally to his house
since he became a leftie
and with only 1 useful hand
carrying essence
oh dear
the scenario would be so..
ahahah.
imagine later not enough hand to carry his stuff
wouldnt that look idiotic?
sometime
i wonder why am i that kind?
and why he suddenly scare me
telling me that hes in hospital.
and just now telling me that he got 12 stiches.
thats like so pitiful right?
so i sound sacarstic?
haha.
but im sure im pretty concern about him?
haha.
i kind of hate taking double science.
seemed like not enough time?space? to breathe.
i think is stress?
but this year i wouldnt be like last 2 year
cry when stress sad even when i score well.
i mustnt demand too much ;D
today maths test was 90percent easy.
only Q4 was sort of difficult
but
i manage to solve it after 5mins.
which was way too long

cant remember what i did for noon on fri.
night was such a joke man.
funny dao siao.
however they cnt be mention.

ytd after tuition.
met mum at chinese garden.
actually is i on train thn say meet in front.
they so zhun jiu meet dao lurh.
shopped at tiong.
bought clothe only.
then to grandma house.
so long never take mrt to tiong liao larh.
thanks to dad larh.
got the dont know what ship opening ceremony.
then he gotta be present.
mum supposed to go too.
but got reunion dinner then skipped.
this time round
once i got in ethan was there.
dont need to say once i see him i wanna hug and kiss and pinch him larh..
hes soo cute.
who dont want?
but also abit paiseh larh.
this time round reunion without Jacob.
but another 4 new members?
ethan baby, and Francis' and Henry's zhaborpengyou.
ehh the maid lurh.
was divided to three table for dinner..
cause too many people liao
25?
eh i dont know.
maybe cos table too small or house too small.
left at 930pm.
ehh
seemed time passed v fast.
1 more week
i only need tahan 1 more week.
then can kan dao ta le.
hope this time can stay longer in JB from KL.
than i cheng ji hui dai ta lai S'pore
then everyday shop shop shop
of course gotta go school larh.
but after school jiu shop :D
1 more week than precious will arrive.
but..
i dont think i will be going to JB for CNY
D:
than cant see precious ler.
LOL
see first larh.
i just rmb i freaking long never see lixuan liao!!
dont dare call her.
she so busy how can disturb her leh.
then say want meet up to study but
up to now havent let me know her schedule D:

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY SEETLINYAN!
hehe. once again im younger than you 8)

ohh well, seemed like there isnt anything that i want to post about.
i have almost forgotten what i had done for the past few days.
i cant even remember where i when for NY and NY eve.

however!
i remember the thoughts that i had at the start of the school.
at first i thought i was in some class where there would be bonding, class spirit etc etc
that was what i initially thought of
then i very much wanted to transfer to 3e3
knowing that it would be success,
i didnt.
then once the lesson started
tchers were all telling us their expectation
phys and chem tchers were those who we thought that they are strict
including chi.
then i knew that maths would be ohmygosh
with that kind of teaching..
i swear that was the worst teaching i ever seen
and since then i told myself that i gotta depend on myself for maths
i dont know if she heard what i said or what
then she talked some-stuffs-sorta-related-to-her-teaching
which i mean
ehh
yeah
she said if we dont understand must ask etc
i cnt rmb
but since then my opinion changed
her teaching is that 0.001% slower
and is more of what humans can understand
but the thing is how can a class with
only 12 girls and 29 boys
survive together as a class for 2 holy year
somehow i envy e2 and e5
maybe cause most of the 2e3 are der
there are only 7 student in 3e3 n 3e4?
how pathetic can that be?
and ard 3 in e1?

p/s : im being v frank in the teaching method
and i dont give a damn she knows, cause it would better.
then, she would know whats her faults and changed for the better.
duh!

last friday,
hanwei was so smart enough to not ask me to start the class
thanks to boon larh
but i v kind
knowing that all the sirs will be late i rushed down
see that!
RUSHED!
and then
unexpected,
zhiyuan came
he was being super kind to offer to teach me maths
amaths?
i was like paiseh can
bu hao yi shi ask ppl to teach me
when he gotta reached sch at 12am

2 weeks of 2009 had passed...

HAPPY NEW YEAR! 8)
1st post of the year...

many ppl walked in and out of my life...
but only a few leave their footprints behind...
i have learnt not to cry because it is over,
but smile because it happened.

went to vivo for countdown just like the past years.
and for once im gonna write some resolutions!

1) thing to be going smoothly for family
-although it is now but the financial
crisis...
2) promote to sec4 express
3) sister to wisen up
4) 9 hrs of sleep
-no more panda eyes!
5) good result
6) no more vulgarities!
-and i want my slang back! 8)
7) save more money.
-target: at least a thousand?
8) taller and slim down by alot
-freaking impossible lurh
9) more active in studying
10)school life to be better than 2008