Hmm? what should i say leh?
Seriously today i wasnt myself, yet i gotta be myself.
Theres two story.

1st.
I can say that im suuper disturbed by those stuff-which-i-should-not-bother.

2nd.
Actually i can say i dont know my feelings. Its infatuation~~~

SEE! Im not even sure myself.

Esp, when doing maths today, i got my sums wrong and everything!!!
I just couldnt concentrate, though i can that thats not the reason why but I cant find any other reason to not being able to concentrate.

Seriously, why am i going thru such life when it can be oh-so-perfect! I trust my instinct cause its never wrong. But, how to start off then?

Actually, whats my problem man? i dont even know but i could just keep typing non-stop. What am I think now? Its blank!

I'm feeling down now.

Because you've never been hurt before,
thus not knowing how painful/hurtful it can be.

Wth. Im so damn freaking tired now.
Cause i slept at 3am last night -.-
Maybe cause was happily chatting with dad mum uncle and aunt.
So worthwhile barh.. reward for slping late = panda eyes.
Seriously, i straighten my mind alrdy ;D
My piority is study ;D Cause i've plan my future alrdy.
As long as i can get into U,
i believe it won't go long esp when theres dad helping ;D
Hopefully, everything will turn out right ;D
Ehh, actually theres two routes, hope that it would be possible to be greedy barh ;D
Hey guys, I think that its time to straighten up everything/ thoughts, trust me.


fang le ai 放了爱 - guo meimei 郭美美

im so boredddddddddddddd
and tiredddddddddddddddd
waiting for lixuan now lo.
to go out? chit-chat?
think she having remedial now?

came straight home today with evangeline.
huida on bus too, together walk till shelter there.
supposed to do online discussion about jap proj.
but .. i also dont know the reason lo.
im already dozing off alrdy!!!!

ever since i saw what had happened.
seriously, i was super shocked and scared.

khoolixuan! im still waiting for you!!!!

With determination, I'll be able to do it!

Today got chinese oral ahh!! shiokk ahh!
haha.. im actually happy now..
everytime i talk to him i be uber happy happy de ;D
1 more mth.. just 1 more mth!
i be able to see him.. after tahan-ing for sooo longggg!
talking about oral. quite easy. not as difficult as i expected.
actually 2:30pm done alrdy.
thanks to eunice larh. waited for like 30mins.
then want wait for millie. LOL!
after that bought bbt and walked home.
was saying to go peps to eat late-lunch,
and not i backout and go home.
sth like that larh.
in the end, rain like siao.
eunice holding my umbrella.
we share share lurh.
and i laugh like i dont want my face like that.
somemore infront still got ppl.
our skirt got contrast somemore leh!
funny laarh! jiu dui le!
everytime walk home with her kinda funny.
but in sch like totally diff leh.
still want take photo ahh her.
she left at 530+ cause her dad fetching.
if not i teaching her maths for FREE.
hahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahah.

because you've never been hurt before, thus not knowing the painfulness.

i hope i'm able to control my envyness/jealousness.
sth out oof point 1st.
if the foundation is strong.
the next level of relationship will also be strong. ;D
i guess i cant control myself anymore.
i thought the feeling would be a short one,
but i guess im wrong.
its getting deeper and deeper
and unresistable.

it is the longest time among all the never-meet-up moments with KLX!
never once did we so long never meetup.
but nevermind 3more days.
jiu tahan yixia barh.

i feel so bad dirtying andy's pant now.
haha.

friday
8am to 6pm was peak performance
i thought it would be boring and a waste of my time
luckily, it wasnt tha bad
however, i was freaking tired for the day.
ken and peter were th speakers of the day
humourous till i laugh like no body business
but alot niang la
i found ken a bit strict? at th end lurh
homed with lots of ppl on the bus
and i love it!
waited for neville yc and chinming since neville can take 157 with me
cause i not sure of yc marh
maybe he din want to so din force him
on the bus got...
i neville yc chinming judith suichyuen weelee raina dawn jill and khiameng
yiting and chole frm jvss
13 ppl.
so long nv like that liao.
prepared for tdk and went.
and homed at 1230am

tday..
nothing much so forgt it.
but but but
it would be oh-so-not-truee if i said im not angry now.
precious winnie didnt tell me that they be gg jb.
if i knew i would insist on gg jb to stayover with her.
but just only when i knew
i was f.angry can.
why didnt she bothers to tell me.
have we become oh-so-distance!
if i didnt know i would be ignorance for life man.
what is this.
why is she gg to jb n nt singapore?
here is so much better than that ass place.
i f.hate her!
her actions really hurt me so much.
my heart felt as though im stab by my loves ones.
dad say ltr gg malaysia for late dinner and maybe supper.
and sunbian visit my grandma since sanyi and her daughter are there.
bloody i make sure i give attitude again.
like what i did in 2007 cny.
i want her to apologise to me.
why why why?

i really wanna know whats on your mind?

today
theres presentations on the english project.
it was oh-so-funny? hahas
gavin so shy shy one. hees
after school was oh-so-shuang.
japheth was there and his friend
so 1+1+1=3 ppl taking 157!
then huida and huihao came
3+2=5 ppl taking 157!
but i think huihao felt ignored
and he left without telling us though
he was right infront of me walking up the bus.
then then then
jessica came
5-1+1=5
so the 5 of us took 157
so shuang can.
so long never like that liao
but also sian larh
it was like only me huida and jessica close together
but i wasnt sitting with jessica but with huida
he was like super bad can.
want to see my msg.
thats not the case larh
but the problem is he got a motive for that.
and i wonder why he will mention ____ name.
how did he know? or guessed that?
is it that well-known or sth? hahas.

few days ago,
i met junren!.. agn
walked tgt till peps since its on the way...
and i supposed he changed.
really changed for the better.

the moments when im happy...
the moments when im sad...
the moments when im laughing...
the moments when im crying...
the moments when im walking all alone...
the moments when im with you...
the moments when im not with you...
no matter when or where...
im always thinking of you...
i thought that i wouldn't...
until i was proven wrong...
that day when i suddenly feel lonely,
that day when i was crying like theres no tomorrow;
i was proven that i fallen in love with you,
i was proven that no matter what i will also be thinking of you
and i was proven that...

yes, i admit that i had always be lying about how much i don't like him
but i guess thats not the truth.
i thought waiting for one for around 5 months holds much more weight
than one whom i feels that im being prioritise.
however, i was wrong.
totally wrong.

but...
so what if thats the case?
cause im always not sure about you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~

3March2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY CHUA XUEYUN!

❤4March2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDY TAN CHUN CHIANG!!

Im already super busy.
But am making the effort to wish the two of them.
Such a good friend I am right?

Labels: Andy, Birthday, Joey

i was super pissed a moment ago and when i came across some ass stuff.
i was like furious! jealous! wahseh. idk what word to use..
too angry liao.
since we can be considered as close then what are those acts for!?
by doing this you won cause i lost
jealousy is where i lost at..
i gave up.
remember on saturday ; 2802
i was crying on my way to bus stop.
feeling abandoned.
there was not even a single human being until i walked down the bridge.
the feeling was indescribable.
i felt so scared, it was exactly what i felt long ago.
thinking back i feel like crying already.
remembering the days i worked hard for what i want
without wanting others to know
but all i get back was misunderstandings!
at night we went to Malaysia
had dinner and purpose was to pass the letter to uncle.
wanted to go to christy house but 1130pm liao
didn't want to disturb her liao.

sun..
super surprising cause on our way for breakfast cum lunch
my breakfast is 12 lurh!
daddy keep asking all of us to guess where we going
say we cant guess dao de
then i actually guessed Furama Hotel lurh
cause v long nv go
and i kept asking dad to go there ma
his bday and cny we din get to go to hotel for buffet.
cause we decided to celebrate differently
as to why we din celebrate daddy bday was...
i cant remember will check it out lurh.
then we talked too much in th car and dad drove to the wrong place
that can lead to the destination tt we were gg
we passed by Chinatown
me and sis shocked tio
cause we been going there weekly
and i always said tt there is lao ren jia de di fang
cause i dread there la.
but actually there also got nice nice food de
14 feb i tink i went there too?
then got one uncle threatened to kill someone or sth?
think i mentioned it before.
from Chinatown can go Furama Hotel.
and really went there!
i super shocked + surpris
cause i din know that daddy would mind every single word i say
so a bit bad larh.
cause i said alot of bu gan jiang de hua.
purposely make him think that i change for the worst.
kept grumbling about my sch.
then at the hotel we saw a baby
but not as cute as when i was younger larh!
i guessed 2 mth old mum guessed 3 and dad 4
but i went to ask
end up 6 mth old
super small size larh
and before that sis went to guess Jack's Place
who will go there for breakfast larh!
and i actually thought that dad was going to bring me to somewhere new
a place which is high class but a restaurant
and i finally manage to open the invitation to my nephew bday party
which is in my sis com
hai wo cnt upload.
super duper nice lurh!
and cute of course..

today
got the sport leader thing
its like the 1st time i stand under the sun in huayi
i meant those scorching de hor!
super duper suay larh
i dun wanna be tan can
left at 330pm and find eraine and walked to bus stop there lurh.
nth much after that.
watched my jia hao yue yuan lurh!
i actually am excited abt my upcoming schedule.
but i suppose im not now.
you are the one that can ruin my life.

i hate it when i realised some _____ invaded my privacy?
oh bloody hell, its not as though is your problem so what the hell do you wanna invade.
invaded still nevermind but still go tell other, wth is the prob? seeing you every now and then make me feel like slapping you man. i tell you cause i respect you if not dont bother to go find out larh. pissed.