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Wednesday, September 30, 2009 @ 4:43 PM

L
O
L

This time round I need not do anything and can be misunderstood as commiting suicide!
When the 'gaspipe' is not off.
LOL LOL LOL
That explained why i dont feel good after an hour of sitting in the kitchen
@ 4:20 PM

Oh freak me, I cant freaking remember where I placed my medicine!
And I am freaking pathetic - alone at home, revising.
Was being disturbed and dont wish to study anymore.
By the way, I cant freaking concentrate!
When all the acids in my body is making me feeling terrible!
Did I hide the medicine? misplaced?
Or I told mum to help me keep it?
Since morning till now, already cant stand the acid reaction!
Acid = HCl?
I think so... :@
@ 3:34 PM
:D

I just realise how busy I am this week.
Saturday, tuition in the noon and sun, taichi in morning and tuition at noon.
And! Taekwondo grading is this weekend!
Bloody, I doubt I be going since my schedule is damn pack and my knee..
Go also no use; extra.
Except with the helping larh, helper?
LOL, so noob. I dont want. Hehes.


During english lesson, I was so stress up when I suddenly cried when Adlin mentioned about not stressing...
What the hell?
I hate it every time there is exam...
I be stressing myself.
And 'commit suicide' is always the words I can think of.
Slinger having match today!
But its so far from batok and theres eng papers tomorrow!

I've getting rather emotional these few days.
Maybe? Perhaps? I think since the day which was 1 month before my birthday?
From misunderstandings to understands to forgive then maybe a little of forget and then to the unwillingness to let you go.
I cant take it.
Cause I am that dumb ass getting emotional over everything and then I will negatively.
Freak me, I delete the icon for my webcam!
Bloody me! How to get it back?

Tell me, what you want?
Me to feign ignorance?
Or forgive and forget?
Or ...

Give me some time, and I promise I will be back to my normal self.
Princessary and optimistic.

How bloody can I be?
Not studying but posting!
Feeling rather guilty for my bad temper and my-somehow-it-seemed-i-did-sth-that-you-cant-know thingy.

Anyw, trust me girl, I didnt do anything wrong behind your back.
Its just that I dont wish to spoil your relationship.
Moreover you know I have my B. and its him who pester me.
Trust me :D I didnt do a single bit of thing/anyone wrong.

p/s : Pictures coming soon~ Not sure when though, till my devices can coordinate with each other.
       Should be Millie and Ethan :D
       I snap alot of photos of Ethan! Loves him lots :D Not sure when got mood to post :D
       Innocent + Adorable = Ethan :D
Tuesday, September 29, 2009 @ 8:13 PM

:D :D :D
Jealousy kills...

Hahas, i realised i didnt post in details about sat~today, next time barh. Including 220909.
Now I cant check back what I did that day! hmpf! Why didnt I watch The Wedding last tues?
Just my thoughts today :D

Hehehehes, I felt so great for not throwing my temper and after everything I felt so great for knowing the truth.
Damn ass me!
Hehes, conclusion, never conclude immediately + what you see and what you think may not be what it is.
I damn regret for thinking it that way...
And I also damn regret for not studying for EOY!
Siao liao!
Damn tired now!!!
Didnt go for maths tuition.
LOL LOL LOL
Okay I am just happy cause everything is fine and etc etc etc

Ohh, I remember what I wanna say...
Granny, remember Miss Wong Li Qing is around, you cant give up on yourself nor leave me here alone.
I will always be your precious princessary granddaughter :D :D :D
Love you always.
Monday, September 28, 2009 @ 10:52 PM
Sorry for my jealousy.

Sorry for my jealousy.
I'm really sorry.
But somehow I regretted my for decision to wait.
I didnt expect to see that sencenario.
Can you understand how I feels?
The two guys sitting down there, knew how I felt.
What about you?
Somehow the Con-----(idk wht) made me smiled.
The 'jokes' and everything made me happier.
But the sadness outweigh everything.
Why didnt you just scold me and told me to get lost first.
I regretted sending that msg out right before I met A.
Seriously, if only I met A before sending that msg.
You know what?
I could stop all the 'tragic' from happening.
Now I lost my sense, and my will to live.
Neither do I know if my feeling have changed.
Maybe not, cause its was jealousy that caused me to be like that...
When nth should have happened nor did anything happened.
I didnt flare up! and I'm proud of it.

The only thing is I regreted crying/tear-ing.

Feeling super stress.
And I am on the verge of giving up.
I dont wish to post anymore.
Maybe skipping tuition tomorrow and then doing 300 word search.

Tell me, what you want me to do? Whats with you?!
Sunday, September 27, 2009 @ 7:35 PM

I'm so sick of doing my homework!
I did chinese the comprehension alone took me 2 hours!
How crazy can that be?
And I am sacrificing my F1 :(
LOL LOL LOL
Actually nothing much about F1 since Ferrari team aint that strong -.-
Button? LOL Though he v good larh but Hamilton also not bad.
Crapping...
Shall do my work instead.
Still hope for G.F to get some points rather and maybe? Button winning?
Or K. ? :) :) :) Boring~
Craving for roasted duck -.- -.- -.- =X
Saturday, September 26, 2009 @ 11:30 PM

Yesterday, after school went to 3E5 then library. Boring~
Watched a movie, quite nice ehh.
Though I dont understand right till the end :)
Went to ISH, slinger?!
Okay, I dont know how to spell.
LOL, no shuaige one.
Got one not bad, got the height and the hairstyle.
One super fair but... Nvm.
Waited for Millie, then went to mamashop then 187 and walked to my house.
Played at fitness corner for a while, kinda sian lurh.
She came my house till 920pm.
Felt bad though, hahas.
While waiting for my family members to be back home.
I slept upon sis reaching home.
Woke up at 1230am, slept for 1h15mins.

Seriously, I dont feel the L-O-V-E anymore.
Whenever I think about me, I will cry.
Yeah, like now.
Is this where I belong.
You know I changed from bad to good then to worse.
F is what I always use.
To me, F - a way of expressing anger.
It doesnt have to be a word, just a alphabeth is enough :D
How much I dont feel loved.
How much I dont wished to be born.
My existence make me felt...
No one knows how I feel...
Get me to shut up larh, like a give a freaking care.
Not when I commited suicide then you come regretting.
Too late~
Thursday, September 24, 2009 @ 10:24 PM


I really cant bear to...

The thought of it, makes me feel so guilty...

Hehes, dont feel that bad for not quitting tuition cause of physic etc etc etc
Napped and was rather unwilling to wake up, thanks to tuition!
Hehes, knew everyone there except Hairy?
I dont really know his name.
Zhihan became v cold.
Amos damn talkative.
Aloysius kind of talkative + beng attitude.
I dont like.
Aaron seemed v stress, dont stress yourself too much boy.
Why is his brother so different?
If both is 50 50 each, that would be great.
Wanted to get Zhihan to send me home.
I meant his dad, but paiseh so get my dad and sent Aaron home.
I've go no comment about tuition anym.
@ 4:17 PM

Just finished talking to Daddy on phone, and i decided not to quit tuition due to some reason.
Thinking, thinking and thinking.
Pondering, pondering and pondering.
Why? Cause I heart You.
You know that :D

Maybe face is one of them but Im not going to be those who humji scare teacher throw them away.
Learnt some tips from Daddy, gonna make good use of it.
Between, I must not make the situation to their advantage :D
Most probably meeting 'bro-in-law' later, lol, quite awkward leh.
Hahas. Chatting with Winnie now, although theres still some displease I have but I should learn to forget it since it wasnt meant to be remembered in the first place :D
Boring~
Mdm Lye was good enough to sort of force me go home thanks to my gastric pain!
I couldnt walk properly.
Had a hard time going home.
PE was stupid, had to help the 'paralymic' girls do the scoring and holding of net.
Tan got no heart one, asked me to hold and say what ball hit not pain.
Asked her about the vb's price, never answer me!
After school went to KFC with DF sis, then back to school for less than 10 mins.
Okay, I'm tired and want to rest now!
Wednesday, September 23, 2009 @ 8:14 PM

It has been very long since I start to love you...
I dont know why I dislike you getting a little fed up or whatsoever, but it doesnt stop me from loving you.
Does this show that anything doesnt matter whenever you love someone?
I hate to know how much you dont bear me from leaving.
I dislike how cute you're and the innocent look you have....
@ 7:55 PM

Its kina boring today, since I went home considerably early and ate at home. After using laptop for less than an hour or so, I was super tired and I napped
and
woke up unwillingly!
Cause it was 630pm by then and its time to be awake!
Ate and slacked around, doing my face now -.-
I hate the disgusting feeling, even sis is doing, Yuck.
In additon, I'm using the laptop and not doing my homework too!
Watching TV too.
Theres alot of homework today, chinese chaoxie-newspaper , O level book, SS mindmap on Chpt 2, Eng CRE and Amaths Ex11.3? 5 homeworks. Like I will do?
I'm still feeling bad about Mon's incident.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009 @ 7:41 PM

LOL, a LV pouch or a cow skin bag?
LV triple the price lurh!

B., you made me unwillingly to leave! ILY!
Monday, September 21, 2009 @ 5:52 PM

I learnt.
NEVER be too happy about something.
Once something happened, your mood will be damn shitty.

MotherF-er. CB, dont ever let me see you again.

Now I dont know what to do. F.
@ 5:50 PM


I've got no idea why I cant mug anymore.

Got freaking no mood to study or check new word, thus I got the mood to post!
But I forgotten what happened already.

Today I woke up super late, 1140 plus.
See! Lucky I told Chong that Monday morning class, no way will I go.
And Andy still insist on having during school time etc.
Checked new words and prepared for tuition.
I thought my house was ransacked by some robber!
Hahas!
Uncle and family came but I cant go town with them due to tuition.
My little cousin was the last to leave and no one locked the gate when I was in the kitchen studying.
I didnt even know the gate was opened and unlocked!
Cant find my key and thought that it was being stolen.
Called Mum to check and my keys were with her, no choice used Sis' one.
Home-d and waited for Dad, when plan changed.
Dad went to find his friend instead and Mum called to say that they were coming back.
So, not going Ion.
Should have got Dad to drive me there and shop with Mum and Sis despite Uncle and family leaving!
Now waiting for Mum to be back and see what we gonna do next :D

Yesterday...
Taichi in the morning, then went to Westmall to eat and rushed home.
LOL in the end, Dad drove me to tuition.
I'm a good girl and was the third to reach after the two brothers.
Bought drinks for the 3As. :)
IceLemonTra for Adrain, Rootbeer for Andy and F&N orange for Aaron.
Good right?
To think Adrain think I got motive or sth. Hahas.
After that went home, took MRT with Alister while Jonathan was far far away.
6+ went to meet Dad's friend and went to eat kampong chicken, nice!
Then Dad drop us at Ion.
Bougth 2 new tops and Mum, 1.
Regretted not buying the green Mango top.
Then Dad parked his car at Ion after finishing chatting with his friend and met us, but not long later was 10+ 11, wheree all shops were close, so left.

Saturday, Amaths tuition.
I forgotten what happened.

Friday, after duty was raining and chatted with basketballer at the court.
Wanted to go home with lifang but didnt in the end.
Look for Dawn for Kahmin, but she was 1 step faster than me.
Went to Gombak there to eat.
Ohh, we took 187 and walked, despite my legs...
Then to BBT shop until like 9+ 10.
I dont dare go home lurh!
Unwillingly I went.
Then to basketball court since Sis was there etc etc etc.
Then ChunFong asked me to go Mac.
Went and I reached homed nearly 12!
OMG! super tired! Bathed and everyt somemore.
But I went to Why Why Love!
and use laptop and exercise/stretch/train my legs.

Did I post about thurs?
@ 1:40 PM

I just slacked by checking up new words on dictionary.com.
And I forgotten about English homework!
First, I need to bathe and prepare for tuition.
Then after tuition, I think I'll do it before proceeding to town.
Either on my own or wait for dad to drive me there.
Went to Ion yesterday, and I think I'm going later.
@ 1:02 AM
After much thinking..

According to my tittle, I've made up my mind that no matter what my next move is, 
I will leave you.

p/s : I am not in the right state of mind right now; berserk.
@ 12:35 AM
Self Reminder

Still got chinese essays and english homework to chiong tomorrow!
I wanted to check up 300 new words tomorrow one!
@ 12:34 AM
Trust me, I didnt change a single bit.

Originally Posted by muppet

next thing you know this super smart malaysian tourism minister would want to lay claims to all the sea water surrounding singapore because they flowed in from malaysia and its surrounding areas.

Hahas! I find it funny.
Another person wrote :
 
 
no lah . . . they will claim Marina Bay for the sands they sold
 


Dont you find it ridiculous on the issue of the food -.- LOL
Okay I got nth better to do after these few heart-aching day.
No matter how i hate to leave you, it seemed that i need to.
My feelings for you will never change nor did i change.
Be understanding.
I didnt get to see Ethan last week but this week no physio however sat i be able to see him!!!
Busy wondering how to dress up to the nines on sat.
Doubt I be wearing a dress for a wedding, since its during a day.
More informal I guess.

Wouldnt be updating any proper post i guess, too many heart-achine stuffs :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(
I dont wish to be like that but its impossible.
Chong put too much stress on me and I got no one to talk to.
B. is always the one i think of, but i doubt he be interested in this shit thing.

Trust me, I didnt change.
Its the stress that I can't take it; not you.
Sunday, September 20, 2009 @ 6:38 PM

Heart aching! I dislike it! :(
@ 5:45 PM
I know what it means... Happiness...

I know what it means for my decision, sorry to disappoint you :(
Dont you think that my heart aint aching, its worse than yours.

Do you know that up to now, i feel like crying every now and then.
Seriously, let me be. Dont bother whats going to happen to me.
I'm useless in every aspect anyway; be it my legs, my studies, my like/hate relationship.
I'm facing alot of stress now, and the decision to quit tuitions is also very stressful.
I wanna quite Amaths but not Physics.
Yet I'm forced to quit Physics if i quit Amaths.
I know what it means to quit Physic for me too.
Its the end, but Chong's teaching is not good, esp with his bitchy wife.
Up to now, they still complain about my DFsis.
I actually think that its good for them to quit :D Quite envy them.
You know whats holding me back uh?
Moreover Chong's character is freaking bad, and i dont see the need to tolerate since I am the one paying the money!
And his teaching isn't that good either, plus my maths is not bad thus i think i can cope :D
Or maybe I am confident of being able to cope except for stress.
Every Fri, I dread Sat.
Thanks to tuition.
Every Mon, I dread it.
Thanks to tuition but I feel the sense of happiness though.
That may be the day I feel the happiness in 1 week.

Saw many photos of Ethan, thats so cute.
Reminds me of the word 'happiness'.
How I wish I can spend more time with him,
let him spread happiness to me too. Hahas.

I know what it means..
Seriously I dont know which to choose.
You or studies?
I know what it means..
Do I really know?
You at the expense of studies of the other way round?
B., can you tell me what to do, i'm aching in my heart.
@ 1:35 PM

No time to post, going tuition soon.
@ 1:09 AM

Woah, i just reach home and prepared to go to bed.
Watching  wo cai.
The second guy is super shuai!!!!!!!! =X
More than B.!!!!
Okay, today twice i wanted to call B. and cry on the phone!
I was super sad after the talk by the Chong and when i was on my way to find food for my dinner/supper!

I cant believe no. 2 lost! no. 4 so ugly!
Okay wocai ended and im off to bed.

B., I'm really very sad!
Studies, Stress and Sad

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FwM_tYAaZWw
Go watch! 1st 24sec was cool, then focus on the feet, look so cool!
Saturday, September 19, 2009 @ 1:00 PM

Yesterday, i didnt spent my day well by not studying but i did spent it well by using my time fruitfully; i didnt waste the whole day?

Somehow, somewhat, whenever i sit down and stare into blank, i think of B. again.
I dont like how I make it seemed so necessary.

Shall post soon, kind of lazy.
Need to prepare for tuition and Wushu performance at night! :D

Signing off here. Cya.
Thursday, September 17, 2009 @ 10:54 PM
Surgery? Operation?

Dad told me to go for a surgery to sew my ligament back or something for my ankle.
But im consider to go for MIR for my whole legs and then surgery.
Knee isnt that bad, but its sharp enough to scare me from walking.
Should I go for the surgery?
What if i cant walk? or it gets worsen?
I cant think positively nor can not think and study.
@ 10:17 PM


I want to make a wish when I see the rainbow...
No pe! = No volleyball!
I was all prepared for it okay! But TanHK never come! Hmpf.
Changed into sports attire and shoe and went to JE.
Met mum there and ate at the coffeeshop at the MRT there.
Then to Alexandra Hospital.
Wait for 20mins more, until 410pm+ then the therapist came to me.
Called Candice, much better than Lynn.
Told her about how I dont find Lynn reliable.
She wrote my right knee injured instead of left!
And told her about my right ankle problem.
Ligament torn :(
Hehes, didnt expect it.
My knee could be Patellafemoral Pain Syndrome (PFPS).
Twist here and there for my ankle.
Told that left was alright.
Then she went check another patient, while I got bored and stared at this AJC girl doing some steps/movement using the ladder(for footstep).
Then she explained about the ligament using a structure/model. Disgusting.
And told me to lie on the bed and she pulled my leg 90degress upright, to check my knee?
Should be.
Then said both my leg very tight, etc.
Taught me some stretches and went to the mirror nearby map and used a linen to help with my stretching, provided i wanna slack and sit on the ground. Kekes.
Then I think she told me to make payment/appt booking since the counter was closing soon.
She also told me to do 5 stretches/exercises and checked the stretches/exercises i did before.
Like half squat, like no more sliding. No more of lunges and step up. Stretching of back leg, yes, still got two different kind leh, one is bend and one without bending. Stretching of left leg by pull it up, yes. I forgotten to check with her about the training about left thigh(the one that need one leg to cross over.?)!
Then need to tip toe to train my calf? ankle?
After payment and everything i think i asked her what caused my knee and she told me about PFPS and gave me a phalet on it. Nothing much then.
[I cant accept the fact for both my knee and ankle and i still get sad over it; crying.]
Took their linen and bathed there and went Queensway to shop.
Bought my red basketball shorts.
Cause the guy was shuai. LOL, no larh.
He got overlapped hairstyle too leh! I like!
Cause I dislike that shop when his service shocked me like i can help you check see if other shop have.
When his friend walked over to check alrdy but he called.
Then he nice looking marh.
Despite persuading me that red is nice, i insisted on black.
So, he say he can get the supply by next week when other shops said that FBT dont produce such shorts for now or stopped!
Maybe cause he was eatting and when he finished he walked out and served me immediately.
LOL got the food smell somemore.
And he still gave me their number to contact so that i can find out when got stock :D
Of course, his price was the most expensive -.-
Hahas.

In school, I was super stressed esp during maths and CME, not understanding trigo and not knowing how to do!

I really wish to talk about my problem to B., but can I?

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Wednesday, September 16, 2009 @ 8:11 PM
Crying into Dreamland.

I'm super dissapointed in myself.
Maybe I've changed for the worse not just for personality but studies.
I dont know how to tell to those who pinned high hopes on me.
Never have I got such result in this year nor can I lose to her.
Yeah, her. I dont care if you know who you are or not.
From the very start when I got so much higher than you to me getting all sorts of results to you instead of failing but passing.
Seriously is getting all high passes but 1 fail or all fail but 1 pass or all border line be it fail or pass.
Which you prefer?

Crying when falling asleep or even now.
I so sad to cause my sister to be like my past.
Seriously, I can only say sorry to her :(

I'm so sorry for disappointing my parents. Sorry.
Neither do I want those Louis Vuitton wallet/pouch nor do I want any new stuffs or even revamping my room.
Thats the only way I can do to make myself better.
By kicking away all the materialistic character I have in exchange for what I've done.

When I saw my result, B. is again the one that I can think off.
I dont like how he knows about how I think/feel.
Make me more difficult to be just with him.

Somehow, I'm finding it too difficult to love someone.
Hot and cold, hot and cold. Thats who you're?
Tuesday, September 15, 2009 @ 11:00 PM

My dear Tan, W Tan, when can you f get outta my life.
Pestering me just like a bee flying around a flower?
LOL! I wanna say just get the f-in f outta my life.
I dont wanna quarrel with anyone because of you!
Nor do I wanna quarrel with you; you know I dont wish for a fight.
So do you need me to call you up and said...
PLEASE F-in GET YOUR EYES ON HTTP://ALWAYS-WLQ.BLOGSPOT.COM
TO SEE HOW MUCH i HATE YOU?

Whats the meaning of this?
SO irony!
I tried to forget you when you appeared.
Let this be the last time, i dont wanna see you anymore.

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@ 10:02 PM
Disappointed


No more such confident pose anymore...


I don't like how I make my life to be.
Exams are holding tight onto me in 16 days time
and yet I have no motivation to study.
All I can think is to slack throughout, sleep =X
Yeah, I've changed to someone with no determination/motivation.


Not wanting anything.
Somehow the only word I can say is - disappointed.



I wanted to study after I reached home from tuition when Mum wanted me so much to go do workout at FY.
I went and did 2800 strides in 30:33 min? with the calories of 400+?
Ohh I can't remember!



Somehow I wish to study during my free time tomorrow and yet I owed two chinese letter writing.
Which I'm doing tomorrow? :(

Disappointed.
I decided to not love you but hate you.


I hope for everyone's low expectation and not high :D
I cant never forgets how Lye how told about being shocked/disappointed at my result.
To me, its really a big surprise which shocked me!
I never want people to be disappointed with me.
Once it happen, my low spirit is back.

Close my eyes and never let me know whats happening in the future;
I chose not to know :( [tear-ing]
@ 6:50 PM
How come talk like dat?



How come talk like dat?
Hahas, Mdm Adlin did talked about it when I came across this article on the net again!
Eng tuition today!
Learnt a few correct pronunciation, like
Film, Their, gave, ate and Owl!
Try it out yourself, for sure 'owl' you'll pronounce it wrongly!
Cause almost 99.9% Singaporeans speak in the wrong way.
Reasons? 'The lack of intensive grammar drills in school, the rise of instant messaging and texting and simple laziness.' & 'But language experts say the critics fail to see that spoken English here is riddled with words, sounds and grammar borrowed from Mandarin, dialects and other languages.' Quoted from AsiaOne.com :D
GoshGoshGosh! I'm so going to improve my pronunciation and make myself more like high society member :D
Thats what I've always wish to be :D
AndAndAnd dont you find it disgusting to have such a beauty speaking in such languagezeszx.
So wrong!
Glad that I'm having a real tutor speaking with an accent and seldom chinese plus not stingy and is always teach grammar and helping me with my vocabularies, together with punctuation and pronunciation.
Just that its seemed too ridiculous for me to speak in perfect English to my friend with an accent.
You know, sometime is just the texting and the net that cause our 'angmoh' to be like datxz.
Especially those who twits. Good luck man.
Monday, September 14, 2009 @ 10:15 PM

Was wondering, what if one day I couldn't control everything that is in my hand.
What am I supposed to do?

My life.
My studies.
My feelings.
My relationship with others.



I dont wish to lose those feelings I had towards you, yet I'm afraid of getting heartache.
Somehow, you made me having those i-cannot-lose-you feeling, which seemed not bad but somehow not heart-warming.
You never let me knows what in your mind and heart.
Not knowing if you're already attached or what, cause i always have the feelings that you're hiding something from me.
Somehow I wish that you know you're the one I meant and somehow hint to me some answer :D
@ 10:06 PM

Yesterday, after taichi went to mac then home and napped till 345pm?
Did chinese compre and then at night went to Dad's lesson venue.
Jurong West Ave 2? Not sure, near the polich headquarter.
Wouldnt be going there anymore, dont really like :D
Then went home? Woah, what a dull sunday I have.
But not bad lurh.
Cause in the past, I grumbled about how often we go out and shop.
Unlike my friends' family, where their mum would cook DAILY!
Some dont even go out on weekend!
So not bad lurh, dull sunday~
@ 9:50 PM

I'm starting to hate my hardisk when my laptop can never sense the usb port!
In addition, my house is full of yellow dim lights or sport light with only 2 room that have white lights.
How pathetic yet cool can my house be.

After school, had a light lunch and napped till 545pm.
How tired can i be?
If only there is physic test tomorrow then i wouldnt be using the laptop now :(
Regretted.

Somehow as expected I really tio scam by Chong, but hecked.
Somehow today is a very tiring but fruitful day.

I got to know 3 new facts today, quite shock/surprising.
I didn't know Eunice and Jasmin read my blog.
And I'm getting more and more suspicious about this particualr person visiting my blog, heck.
My pencil case was official ransacked when I wasn't around that day.
Most probably when I went to the dental.
Don't know to be sad or happy, cause those little little notes were being seen.

Ehh, you know how I feel right? (you should know who you're :D)

Somehow, in my heart I felt blessed and blushed/shy.
Hahas, laughs.

Tuition was seriously boring.
I dont mind saying again; if he quits I would definitely quite and find a private 1-to-1 tutor!

If dad came to fetch us, I would ask him to go eat.
Well, anything, since someone didnt ate I guess? :D
However, I need to thanks Adrain's Dad for sending me home again ;D
My wrists hurt a little :(
Thanks to dont know who?? Scare of being tickle then grabbed my wrist until so tight.
Hahas, who ask you dont want tell me the formula.

Wish hard; I dont pray, that I will score well for tomorrow Emath's retest.
Andy said got 4 formula only?
With that 4, can i pass?

Hahas, I shouldnt have told Adrain that the bus would take some time to reach, then he would have waitted for me at the bustop! :D
Nevermind, cause I didnt expect for someone to be on the bus, since 187 was earlier than 98.
So it seemed weird for him to board 98 leh?
But your msg is a little rude with the singlish leh!

Ohn, by the way, during tuition I received a message from this classmate of mine.
He is seriously freaking rude.
Keep asking got what homework, plue he ask not only me but alot of people okay!
Whats the point in the mass-texting!
Then his Q today was weird, and when I replied 'huh?'.
What the hell, his reply was freaking rude.
'the holiday homework larh'
You see the 'larh'?!
What the hell?
Hahas, even B also got the 'larh' lurh!
I dont like!
So far so good, theres only one guy whom I told him that I dont like the 'larh' and he started to stop texting me with that word!
WIth 'larh', all message seemed much high-class :D
Sunday, September 13, 2009 @ 10:37 PM

LOL, havent pack my bag for school tomorrow.
Dread it :(
No matter whatever nice reason you give me, i would say i dont wish to go school tomorrow :(
I only feel like playing with Ethan now :D
Watching dageda now.
Feeling bored and only wish to go to bed at 11pm!
In short, 10 bucks can never allow me and sis to survive, hahas.
Think people will say i siao, cause the cheapest food that we can get is a few cents bread
or a 2 bucks noodle/burger.
Hahas!
As though my sis will eat like that.
Dont feel like posting.
Will post by friday, hahas!

Off to pack bag! :D
Saturday, September 12, 2009 @ 11:00 PM

Giancarlo Fisichella is so handsome!!!
I'm sure to support him?
Well, it depends after his race tomorrow =X
At least i need to support one whom is at the top 3 position yeah?
Massa is out, :(
maybe his partner isnt that bad after looking through his result :D

Hahas, I told sis about how paiseh B. got, thanks to Daddy.
We laughed like siao!
For once this laptop of mine does have the icon to post photos!
But its useless! Click also no use one!

Gosh! Giancarlo Fisichella is shuai de lurh!
Maybe more shuai then B. ?
Opps =X Watching Scary Movie 4 now.
Seemed to be too stupid for a movie!
Damn lame and childness.
Like no brain scripter who wrote it =X

Used com till 4+ 5, then watched TV till 7 and bathed and did my work while chatting with mum and sis. 830pm went to Jurong West AVE 2? there to eat :D
Nothing much, still not bad lurh, but im not going back there?
I wanted to watch getai one! Thanks to sis, then never!
Homed then.

At the, I call it shengshiong there, Mum thought that she saw her friend.
So I yelled her friend's name out thrice, yet no reply.
Maybe I screamed too soft, but I looked like a fool okay!!
Hahas, great day lurh :D

Ehh! Can upload photo already! But I'm lazy!
Everytime I put my laptop infront of the TV jiu can! Hmpf!
Nights everyone!

I still love how Ethan kissed me that day!
He kissed Mummy too! Soo sweet right?
@ 12:51 PM

Though no promise was made, somehow I felt that I betrayed you :(
Friday, September 11, 2009 @ 10:08 PM

I had a really hard time - 1h, to settle my laptop down!
And its 10pm, in which means that i want to watch Fated to Love You!
With so many homeworks not done!
Hmpf! I miss my B. so much xP

And I stopped texting this particular guy/friend?
I'm not sure if he can be known as my friend.

However I wanna say that I never did anything wrong!
Cause that period of time, I kept feeling guilty.
It doesnt matter to who, maybe to our loves.

The one-year plus TV which we dumped away in my study room, is at last adopted!
By my Mum's friend, save Dad the trouble from carrying it down.
If not, actually can sell away, but Dad didnt want those small amount.
I wanted to give the Bangala one.
But in the end, Mum's friend want it.
May as well!

I wonder how to widen my post, does anyone knows? :D
Maybe I should settle with watching TV and doing homework!
I'm using Blogger in draft! :D
Nicer :D

p/s : I kept dreaming of B.!
       How?! I just love him too much already!
       B., do you know that? :(
 
@ 7:50 PM

Okay, boring but not going to upload any photos. Too sick of it!

Workout just now was seriously great! But too tiring, tomorrow i'm so comfirm going to have muscleache!
I cant seem to get my blogskin template done! Hmpf!
But i'm not going to care! Too tired to do so.
In addition, i have not done any homework yet!
@ 3:16 PM
Army Camp Open House 2009, Part I

Okay, so heres part one, since my hand is aching from this and i shouldnt be wasting my time on my blog! By the way, i need to prepare for my workout later! Supposed to be 4pm but my mum wanna want TV, so should be 430pm!
Super suay lurh! The Prada bags she wants, so fast jiu no stock. Thus asked Kim to order for us first :D White is nice! But easy to get stained/dirty!
Should have known and got that LV wallet for myself! Stupid me, i dont know why I said no lurh!
Sister said that her 12 years old present will not be a LV bag but a sunglass and a wallet instead!
Then my 16th present will be? Chanel watch? or bag? I love the 2.55 bag!
Do note that you may need to tilt your head 90 degree! Cause i didnt rotate!
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Sister qeueing for the souvenier! :D
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Trying out the vehicle?
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Explaining to my sis :D
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Stupid blur/gong face! Hahas!
She's gonna kill me when she sees this! % being hit? 1%!
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She's good! Purposely go try it out for me to take photo! =X
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Hahahahas! Stupid sister!

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I went to Fun World and saw ShiJie! :D
And I asked the Army Boy wheres Fun World when its behind me!
Cause it didnt looked fun enough! Bah!

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Some post cards for those Army Boys overseas?
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Wearing the parachute thing-y.
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She Q-ed halfway and walk off, saying that its wasting alot of time.
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Flying fox! LOL! Long Q, so i asked her to come to Hua Yi to play!
LOL! either she go for the open house? or enrol into Hua Yi!
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Attempting to reach for the top to climb to the other side :D
She did it with the help from the Army Boy, like the previous photo.

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