Just finished watching Death Note : The Last Name, LOL they played the ending song for 3 mins already!
Imma super hungry! *Call up to Nicholas for supper!* LOL, I want sleep though I slept alot just now.
Tomorrow must finish tuition homework, I'm a guaibaobao.
LOL, Chong insisted on using foolscap paper instead of a exercise book but i think i would be a fool to use the paper since my papers will fly to some other place in the end.
Anyway, I doubt I will be using the laptop tomorrow morning so that I can chiong my homework or maybe I will to play some Facebook's game.
After tuition, meeting Lin Yan! So long never see her and going to flea market!
Orhh, the plan to go to Nigh Safari should most probablt be cancelled due to cheowyi gotta meet us late and the chances of getting the tickets low, cause its limited and it would be crowded since its the actual day.
If I go out then sis can study quietly at home and ask me questions when I'm back home.
Anyway,
Happy Halloween!

always_wlq : I am not happy now!
Dear (insert name),
I dont know whats wrong with me, is it because i have got too many faces that caused me to lose control of myself now. I dont know what was my feeling then, but now I know, ever since you took the initiative, making me feeling that Imma more important, I think I straightened my thoughts. Hahahahahas, ridiculous, I know! However, because of you I changed my opinion in life. Hahas, the way I looked at marriage changed from good to bad, back to good and then to worse again.
Okay, the main part is that
I went to your ex's blog, I dont wanna hide it anymore, you know. I saw that photo, the cuter version of you. I doubt I'll be again to see that from you, trust me you wouldnt give me that cute face. If you think you can, prove it to me then. You know I hate it when I visited places that have your shadow, I dont like it because it made me feeling that I dont know who you're. You never let me know what you're like, who you're like, who you like, whats your reaction to this and that and etc etc etc. Yes, Imma going gaga over you, everyone knows. You know it too, dont deny, you want it, I can play along with you. Or maybe you dont, cant you even feel the happiness in me after missing you during the few 3 days if being 15, you didnt knew my birthday, did you?
Dont wanna continue for I know my feelings for you are too deep to be forgotten.

p/s : I changed my blogskin! I like the chio-ness of it!
p/s/s : I just realised that Kahmin and RouZhen are in the same class in CGS! & Samantha!

Your Inspirational Quote for today is

"Home is where the heart is. "

Is it even true? I was just talking about leaving home and this inspirational quote was seen.
I dont even know what i want right now.
I wanted to say sorry for leaving you all alone there however I am like so freaking happy when I realised that you didnt blame me :)
Maybe it is a training for me that i managed to endure for 3days?

/update : No more of leaving home for I know I need a home badly, I need to be shower with love for I know only a small number of people can make me feel that, thanks to you guys my life is filled with laughers, happiness, care, concern and love. Although my character changes as fast as the speed of lightning, for one thing I know is that you guys tolerated it quietly. Thanks many to these hunkies and lovelies. Although some may have talked to me about my stupid-arse character, making me damn fed-up for noone dare to speak to me like that, one thing I knew was that you overcomed your own character and spoke daringly to me, not bothering about my character, congrates to you guys :) & myself to be able to take it down and give myself opportunities to change. Although I've mentioned alot of time about the different changes I have, but they're mainly moodswing if not is because I cant be the weak/emo me and therefore I acted differently but still mainly they're the real me with different faces, I dont act. The most is act happy when down. For one thing you should know is that I love you alot. Thanks to you guys, I am who I am now. Everything is back to normal! & I am loving you guys. However, mainly because of B. I get very sad. :( B. should make me happier :)


***
Anyway! Yeesan, so sorry to have 'pangseh' you, for the camp, since you said i did.
I thought I pangseh-ed my DFsis, i didnt know you were affected.

They're back! Happy!

Ohgosh, those i miss alot alot alot alot alot! Are back!
Loves many many, okay larh, you should know that i am the happiest when i saw him.
Hehes, this time i never take the initiative okay!
:) :) :)
Okay, gotta play my facebook's game and skip lunch and sleep, damn tired after consecutive 3 busy days!

/Update : Time check : 10:22pm
Today did nothing much, after schoolmates were back, those in student hub went to the basketball court to look for them to assemble! I WAS DAMN FREAKING HAPPY! Spells H-A-P-P-Y! I love it! At least I need not miss someone anymore! Okay lorh, I was searching for my friends! Asked about the camp but response didnt seemed that great either! Shujuan! Now you regretted alittle eh! And how can you not know my birthday is on 28oct! You thought it was 29? 30? Oct. Cute you! Its okay, I never forgive you cause I wasnt even angry or what, just sad, that one need to forgive one meh? If need then you;re forgiven! Dont think too much about it okay! Hahahs, now I dont really regret not going because no one tell me that it was damn freaking fun and I should go! Hahas. *Skipskip*, took 187 with Lifang, ohh between the school was freaking SMELLY! Many never 'pompom' one lurh! I dreamt that I held someone's hand, damn funny I tell you! But I dont know when I dreamt it, during nap or sleeping? No idea, funny. I wished to hold that hand forever then, the warmth. Actually if there is someone that has my Daddy's hand I think I would wanna hold my Dad's one, for he was the one that made me to be who I am, the lovely girl that everyone pinched my face when I was young, not forgetting my prettaye Mummy too!
Went home and laptop-ed till 230pm, went to nap and then woke up at 645pm as my room was dark, alittle scare to continue napping. Eat, laptop-ed, TV-ed &&& I havent bathe too! Hahas, think I too hyper lerh, the dream and B.!

I'm freaking tired and am going to go straight home tomorrow after school!
Yeah, and i am not bringing my laptop since Razak say play safe dont bring.
Anyway, post tomorrow when i am in student hub since im going to lala land and think of my B..

Not to worry, everything is going very smoothly for me.
&&&MillieLeeJiaLi and Nicholas! If there is anything or whatsoever, just ring me up.
Chitchat, heart-to-heart talk or whatsoever! I am always available.
The most I pangseh others for you :D
Including that guy, you know, that guy that guy!

/updated : Time check :11:07pm, 30thOct.
Sumary: After school went home, met Millie and Nicholas at 330pm at JE MRT, then to bugis, ate at pasta mania, baked rice for me and nicholas and pasta for Millie. Went to Gombak, home-d with Nicholas, reached home at 10:30pm.

N: What's that?
M: Fusilli (didnt pronounce properly)
N: How you spell it?
M: I dont know, F-U-S-I-L-L-I!
*laughs*, it aint funnaye here but certainly was at pasta mania, nicholas couldnt take it and tweeted!

Went to that place that brought me nothing but sadness, i didnt expect that to happen.
After what I saw, started to miss B. even more.
Okay, supposingly going bugis with nicholas and milllie but now, i dont know anything.
Should have gone out with lixuan then since millie dont want go bugis.
I mean Millie go larh, dont go bugis go other place lurh.
Yesterday at around 1120pm then cake-cutting :)
Why no one wants to go to Pulau Ubin, even ChunFong told me not to go because of my condition.
I dont really feel like posting what happened yesterday until I am at home using my laptop.

Current, I'm in HuaYi's Student Hub.
LOL, Razak asked all of us to clear the stuffs then can play LAN(the term he used), playstations and Wii.
LOL, the com i used damn sucky, the one next to me much better.
WHAT TIME IS NICHOLAS GOING  TO WAKE UP/REPLY ME!
I reply misses my classmates lurh, shouldnt come to school, I planned to skip school until Millie message me saying she want to go school de. Kena bomb-ed..
If not I will be sleeping at home now.
Not wasting my time on surfing the net, to think they say 3e3 got physic class, but i think i kena bomb also lurh, dont think have barh.
Sian, if nicholas not contacting me soon, i'll want to go home and sleep already cause i am like freaking tired after being so busy yesterday and 27oct.
I regretted not going!
If i going then 27oct i will be like sleeping at 1 plus lur!
Tired but i believe the camp will be fruitful and i'll then be going to the camp with the shuaige laoshi.

Hahas, even bestie sort of think i abit flirt lurh! LOLOLOL.
During yesterdays's chat, okay larh flirt but still devoted in that sense.
However, im not the only flirt one plus i dont think i am, right?
I am a good girl who studies all day long :D

&&& if i am at the camp what would i be doing? is the reception there bad?
did they saw any snake when woke up?
why do i miss them so much.

Shujuan! after you come back, must go out celebrate!
I never angry with you, seriously, just sad only.
Cause is like you 'qipian le wo de ganqing'.
Yesterday on the way to the washroom, you saw me, i was just faking to be damn angry, thats all! :)

Darling :) :) :) :) :)
Love you very much.
&&& Thanks alot for all you did for me!
Really love you.
I mean is like, surprising me on the eve though i upset-ed you in the sense that i wasnt home.
I'm sorry for that (you're the first that i typed sorry after being 15 :D)
&&& Thanks alot for lying to me that you've got CCA on that day.
Esp after someone told me that you've got CCA, which make me totally believe you!
Though you didnt told me on  the eve but the day itself, because you forgot.
However, I really got alot of surprises from you!
Okay, I dont now what i did to get such a gooooood DARLING like you, hahas.
But i think im not that good, ohh.
Anyway I've something for you, but the timing doesnt seemed to be right.

Okay, was a little dissappointed due to some(thing?), however i kept it quite shut from you. Yeah so..

Dont feel like continuing, Razak is just 2meters away from me! LOL.

I tried not to cry in school, how much i wanted to cry when i saw shujuan, wondering how sad it would be for me as she unable to celebrate my birthday.
However, I failed, I'm crying now. Not because of her but some other stuffs.
If being Li Qing is so difficult, I rather I am not.
I rather be the girl born-ed on 7th Nov.
If you're so hot-tempered, then i have to call the police, if not i'm not sure what is going to happen to you, is all for your sake.
I dont mind going away ALONE.

Sometimes i really wonder, am i the cause of everything, if that is the case, my bad.
I should have gone to camp, seriously, no matter how happy everyone made my birthday to be, once i think of what happened, i think i should have gone to camp.
I need B. now.(it will never happen)
I want to talk to darling so much, but i dont know how to start the conversation.
Maybe I should just go to bed at the last min of my birthday, thinking about how enjoyable it is today.
Happy but tired.

Thanks to those who wished me happy birthday :D
On fb,
Gokul Kanna(wished in advance), Mazri, SzeWei, Jeremy, Cynthia(3rd aunt), Lifang, ChekJun, Jianri, Zahra, Nicholas, Afiqah, Charles(distant uncle), WynnSoh(unknown),  YiJin, YeongJennLoong(unknown), Wynie, ZhengNing, Wilson, Razanah Anuar(unknown), Randy(unknown), Sonakshi, ShiLong(unknown), Aileen, Vasvii, KangWei, Hughes, Aanchal, Manasi, Mabel, Naina, Kelvin.

On msn,
Jeremy(wished in advance), LinYan, WeeLee, Wynie, YongZheng.

Through sms,
Lixuan, Khiameng, WaiLap, Mazri, LiTing, Shawn, Shermaine,YiQun.

On phone,
Millie & Nicholas(though you claimed but i didnt heard! :@)

In school,
Raina, Alister, Zahra, Nadiah, SuiChyuen, Xinyi, GekNian, YingPing, FangFang, Dave, ChengJiang, Miss Leyana, Michelle and her friend, YongZheng.

p/s : There are so many more! But I forgotten! Sorry to those! However thanks many! If i didnt write your name, do tell me!

Continue tomorrow, something happened..
F you, so what if is my birthday, let me tell you, dont force you, nb, let me tell you, dont think i dont dare to kill you, let me tell you, i sentence to death i dont mind! f you.
I dont mean what i say, for i still love you for who you're.

2 MORE DAYS!
but i dont seem to be excited about it anymore nor do i wish for a celebration.

BLOODY! MY KNEE IS FREAKING PAIN!
LOL, if got notice during tuition I was feeling damn terrible partly due to nauseous and my knee!
TMD! If doctor say knne guard will help I jitao go buy.
But the Ebene one which I dont even know is what, seemed so efficient, but comfirm lie one.
BLOODY! CANT MAKE MY DECISION UP ON WHETHER TO GO SCHOOL NOT!
I V TIRED LEH!
Tuition damn freaking tired lurh, stayed back in school until 330pm, where got not tired, but imma not the only one okay, but people worse than me, you should know who lurh.
Kept wanting to sleep, nearly doze off, think i dont know meh, directly opposite me only.
LOL, did i say im the leader, in charge of the inline skating for sports extravagaza?
Hahas, teamed with zuraidah, supposed to be with Gael incharge of kayaking but he want be with yihpin, tmd!
If kayaking then maybe someone will kayak marh, i dont think that person will want to skate lurh!
LOLOLOL, got my class and cca photo, sport leader one coming soon! Hehes.

Okay I'm finding myself so stupid to be so sad and then so happy!
In car just now, i want damn freaking sad deep inside and while during tuition but i was smiling throughout, how irony!

Just had my dinner after getting home from Physic tuition.
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!
Damn xintong! Thanks to andytanchunchiang, so damn freaking chorlor with my crystal :( :( :(
Damn xintong, then i dont really know how to handle that hp.
So aaron was experimenting till cannot type on the keypad, which i dont even know why, i tried all the way till i reached home.
In which i exited and then back to typing the message then can, really scare me ttm!
LOL, feel like not going school tomorrow then i will have time to do my tuition homework but imma too lazy plus i want my attendence lurh!
If not i will like grumble non stop! =X
But even if i really wanna pon is only on my birthday and the next two day, the most report book get someone to take for me.
Plus, looks like many people have already foreseen that they will be sick tomorrow hor!
Alot of the xing wong one leh!
LOL, but somehow i will comfirm tolerate and wake up early and go school, comfirm barh.
Guai hai zi marh.

Ohh I got second in class for chinese!
I think I am fit to be a china lady already, nah just joking.
Shocked but last time during mid year i first leh!
de-prove-d!
LOL still got tuition homework to be done, finished the letter but need buy the envelop tomorrow, too big already!

Okay okay, i hope B. sees this, this is an order for you to go to school during this week!
If not I will miss you and be angry lurh!

Oh well, Maths Trail was freaking boring and the winner is Group 4 and 10, first few hand info okay!
And I reached home at 410pm, bloody.
After bathing and writting letter, Imma left with 10 to 20mins only, now i need mum to be home for the envelopes(dont know how to spell.).
Hope that the postman is going to do his job man.
Having cambell's mushroom soup now.
I can breads toasted with pork floss in the morning and skipped recess and had milo+honeydew+cereals up to now.
Gastric pain occured dont know how many time
Anyway lucky me went to look for Lye if not I had to go camp sia and the chinese supp though wasw kinda boring and I felt like Im disturbing the class but learnt something?
Razak came to talk to ChenLaoShi and I got damn f freaked out just now, ChenLaoShi know that.
And Razak called me, I was like huh my skirt short was sitting down you also can see ah? (tikopek)
No larh, he was telling me I dropped a mentos which wasnt even mine lurh!

Think I had to get my stomach filled up first, gotta go, cya :D

One last post during Winnie's birthday.

LOL, im starting to wonder if my way of doing is right?
But dont you think the commiting suicide of you is too big a thing for me that it made me feel..
yes, zi bei.
I dont wish to talk about that anymore but you forced me to.
LOL, I can only say I am sorry, baby :S
The most I think I am going to buy the Michael Jackson's biography for you.
LOL, the most ex one that I can find in the bookstore?
[HUH! VERY WASTE MY MONEY LEH =X, sound so suaku  ;S]
Okay okay, anyone that I prefer more =X TMD thanks to MJ's death that I need to spend my money on his stuff =X
But I dont think I can help you with many many thing so maybe I get my friend to help you okay?
Sorry arh, always make you either angry or sad with me D:
DuiBuQi!

If you don’t go after what you want, you’ll never have it.
If you don’t ask, the answer is always no.
If you don’t step forward,
you’re always in the same place.

A short post for today, I guess.
LOL, I wanted to list down or rather write a post on 'I may not...',
but I'm watching the 'Magic', cant concentrate larh.
LOL, today after taichi which was like 1130am then went to Westmall,
saw a guy in pink, Japheth.
Wait, Imma not sure if i spell his name correctly, too long never spell lerh!
Anyway, I think I stayed at popular for an hour, reading the horoscope,
choosing assessment book for sister though I strongly disagree to this, and erm like nothing else liao.
But I think the horoscope damn accurate! Ohh! Read the zodiac but I dont get it. LOL!
And it wasted for my day, lol.
Reached home at like 330pm, quite long never go westmall for so long already.
Got once I thought go there buy food, can waste my day in the end only 1h?
I buy jitao went home.
[offtrack-ed] LOL.
Okay I went home jitao sleep till 610pm, how tired can I be.
Super paiseh lurh, when practising the 'zhao shi', as in the pattern of chen shi tai qi quan, I kept yawning and didnt kick cuase firstly my knee and ankle today freaking pain, secondly i dont think i can kick dao lurh.
Afterall I didnt train for so long, bet the coach damn upset, ok he was I did saw.
Dissappointed his the word.
Freak now my knee is hurting!
Went to Chinatown at like 7? reach there 7+.
Has chicken rice at the i-forgotten-the-name store,
Quite nice :D Not expensice  but they got 'tou' the breast meat, so the chicken looked damn little, okay larh.
We still got other dish to go with what, but the other parts of the chicken were damn 'hua', as in erm err? okay I dont know.
Walked around looking for the icecream made up off cow milk, but couldnt find, daddy said that it was closed.
Bloody! Last time IMM got one lurh, I still say when I grow up I want go there work.
[Everyday eat the icecream! Hahas.]
LOL, I dont think this post is that short already.
Reached home at like 930pm, wahlao super early okay!
Nevermind, watching Magic now.
Somehow though today we didnt spend money on LV bag, burberry bag and whatsoever, but somehow I felt the happiness in me.
A girl that could have felt on the top on the world and yet could be so emotional at time, what went wrong actually?

Yesterday, Saturday.
Erm, after tuition went home and then drove Mum to BBCC there and went to fetch QiRui, went to HongLim there to eat. Dont ask why, continue reading.
Erm, had roasted duck and I think I damn daxiaojie kept buaysong with the environment, shant do that anymore :S
Then to Hong Lim Park for the Martial Arts Display, Daddy damn dont give face, sit awhile jiu want go.
But I wanted to watch at least Mum's performance first.
After their turn we went to the place that we eat before that, but the first level this time  as Mum and her friends havent ate.
LOL, Dad's treat, again.
I was like may as well buy me Anderson's ice cream, just joking larh.
Like there will have like that.
Erm, we went home after that? 10+ 11, I think.
NO! 10, I remembering catching the taohuaxiaomei :D
NICE! I LIKE!

Okay, I am so going to watch 'Black and White', 'Qiao Qiao Ai Shang Ni', 'Happy Fortune Happy Life'
and I forgotten got what else. LOL
LOL, in the end yesterday night ended up talking on phone till 1am, and Mummy accompanied me by staying awake cause... you know...
But I feel bad larh, she damn sleepy still pei me.
Who was the one on phone with me arh? All your fault!
Anyw, I like cause got play piano.
I dont think B. knows how to.
Seriously when I think what happened yesterday, lets hope that he was joking with me, it can be possible that he (insert feeling) me larh.
Seriously, impossible and his reaction was really damn scary.
Forgotten to ask (insert name) about him but oh well.
Who cares? I care about B. only.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY WINNIE!
My dear girl, all I wanna say should be in the letter/card that I'll be sending you.
p/s : I havent finish it up =X Sorry but sincerity matters more right?

3 MORE DAYS!


okayokay, i have to admit imma missing B. now. :(
sorry nicholas for not able to call you now. :(

Now I know how to phrase my words, I think...
Okay, so I kept saying about how much I dont know about my feelings etc.
You see ah, hold on, dont bother reading if you dont want to, Imma not forcing you :D
You see ah, I was, I was..
In the past, whoever I see is the image of B.
[B. is just to see the person anonymous :D]
Then I would be day dreaming of him, everything about him.
Then it seemed like I would die if I dont see him.
And whatever he does it just seemed so sweet and everything.
The day that I think and miss him seemed to grow as I grow.
However...
I just learnt something,

Love is like a blossoming flower bud.
Just when you wanna pluck it up, you must have the courage.
Love is like a bolt of strength.
When you feel torment, shock, loneliness, as long as you have love, it will all turn to sweetness.
Love is crazy, lacks of reasoning, acts without logic.
It's just like the flower bud growing in the brain.

Quote from somewhere de larh!
Okay due to this logic, it reminds me of what I wanna say!
OKAYOKAY! 14 more mins! Need to call someone up!
4 more minutes to Winnie's Birthday.
Not going to surprise her with my call =X
Okay in the past, no matter how sad I am, just think of B. and it will cheer it up TOTALLY!
However. now I not sure already!
In the past, no matter how upset B. caused me to, I never failed to cheer up due to his tiny tiny actions :D
Listening to his voice on the phone sounded so manly.
Okay okay, i do like male chauvinist larh!
1 more minute, bloody Imma typing super slow, need to think on how to phrase it!
Then, I trusted him so much that even if he lie to him IDK what will happen.
Okay larh, sad lurh, cry lurh.
But at least or maybe in the end I get myself convinced for his 'wrongdoings'.
LOL.
Okay maybe many dont trust the way I say him to be, dont believe or dont agree.
But in my eyes, its like that!
12:01am.
Okay, the problem is, even when I think about him I dont get any happier when Imma alone, if with friends I can go keesiao.
Is the because the problem lie in me?
I dont love him anymore?
OR WHAT?
You tell me larh. Bloody.
It seemed that is because Imma numb to his appearance, everything about him?
Cannot be! LOVE SHOULDNT BE LIKE THAT!
SUCH LOVE IS NOT LOVE!
I dont know why, the point is I dont really craze over him but I still like the tiny actions he did.
I dont get happy when I think of him anymore but I still miss him at times.
However I still have to admit the way he talk and everything impresses me, up to today.
And I believe that it really works if he can convince me on why we shouldnt slit; commit suicide.
Dumbass, thinking about that again.
LOL, erm, I have to admit imma still sad for idk what reason or is it the same old personal reason?
Hmm? Too personal to be mention? Cant be, Imma always transparent, reason being its too silly for me to say it out.
Then you guys will say Imma childish, xiao qi or whatsoever!
LOL, the problem now is I've got too many problems.

Labels: A-Maths tuition, Nicholas, Taichi Performance

Theres like 8 jigsaw puzzle for me to choose from, but I like almost all.
Then, it would be damn paiseh if I gave 1 to my Mum's friend.
I dont know leh, damn nice can.
Got one the background colour damn nice but the zhabor is freaking small at a corner.
Sian, tuition later. Yesterday, had this thought of flaring up during tuition!
Hahas, the most I buaysong talk to him only!
Decided on the jigsaw liao!
Not taking the chinese painting-tiger, iron man in mask and some animals from the north pole or something.
Okay okay, I going to play my CafeWorld liao and eat my subway!

Labels: Jigsaw Puzzle

always_wlq : have you ever seen the colours of the wind?


Im dead, never do the birthday card and someone asked me to call him but up to now havent even msg me or talk to me asking me to call him!
Still say sad worh!

Labels: Music

Watching DeathNote I now! Chatting with CEO AND VICE CEO!
Chalet is making everyone headache! hmpf!
Misses him a lot leh!!!!!!

Labels: Chalet, DeathNote

Labels: Kenny Roger Roaster, Photos, Tan Tock Seng Hospital

Well, well, well, I havent do a single bit on the card!
Freak me, oh well, 10 o clock okay =X
Tomorrow, theres tuition, not anticipating towards it!
While waiting for the photos to be upload, let me crap awhile.
I regretted not cherishing the time I had with you, I know for sure 1 day either 1 of us has to leave.
Maybe thats my character, rubbish.
But I really dont know what we can really talk about.
I dont wish to talk so much about B., yeah so.
Anyway! I REALISE CRYSTAL IS GOOD! CAUSE THE FRONT CAMERA(3G) IS DAMN F GOOD.
Its very very clear despite my very dim house's lighting.
TMD, laptop's camera also not so good lurh!
Wanted to right review on it, but super lazy.
Blogger is damn sucky need to post the photo 1 by 1 and then click 1 by one.
Hahahs, I find my english damn primar-ish.
Why is it that my internet doesnt have the light blinking at the wireless there.
TMD, need use wire, can use 3 com at a time. TMD!
Okays, 6 more photos to go :D

Somehow, I wonder how many true friend and love will I be encountering in life.
Somehow many I though would be my true friend ended up not to be one.
Could it be due to the high expectation that I have?
Some would just dump you aside upon knowing how good you are to her/him and that is when you decided to dump that friend away.

Dump me aside, for all I care.
I've never been important to you, am I right?
If not its awhile on and off.
Since when I am a good apple in your eyes.
Even the guy I love doesnt think so, whats more is you.

That very day that Chocolate grab my wrist and quickly checked for any scars or cuts or bloodstain or whatsoever, really surprised me.
For once I know at least a mature guy knew that someone would just threaten to commit suicide.
For once I know someone cared for me.
Did B. even does that? NO! ABSOLUTELY NO!
At least grab my wrist and check, that could be crucial to stop me from doing all silly stuffs.
Just because of the scars that Chocolate see at my (insert the part of the body), he quickly grabbed.
What the hell? The warmth I've felt was undescribable.
Okay, I only wish to lie on someone's shoulder emotion-less-ly, and that would be a little more fine.
Be more attentive to me, can you?
I really didnt expect him to ask about those scars, I really didnt!
Maybe many seen it before, but none questioned about it...

Okay shuang, the post I posted in the day was gone!
Thanks alot to Blogger! TMD!
Fine, heck care.
Today, we got back our results.
Like I said, though my results werent that great, Im okay with it.
I really thought I was!
Then I really I wasnt, deep down I was bleed profusely.
I could just like on someone's shoulder emotionlessly, numb was the word?
I'm not sure, even now it hurts alot.
I thought I'm fine since I did not cry, I thought I was a strong girl, but I wasnt.
Esp with so many happenings, I've got nothing to say.
Somehow, Im looking forward to MON!
Can see B., most prolly going out with Darius and co., theres phys tuition, maths trail and the list goes on!
LAST BUT NOT LEAST! IT WOULD BE 2 DAYS MORE TO MY BIG DAY!
LOL IS BIRTHDAY!
Chatted with Winnie in the noon, but I dont see her talking to me now.
Checking it out first, OHH! not online larh!
Lucky she doesnt has a webcam, if not I be on my webcam for days and days and days!
I'm not sure if i am looking forward to holidays.
Cause, mummy has alot of competition(?)
Then I and sis have to face each other while daddy is at work.
I got to face her to refrain her from getting in those bad company, TMD.
Its all my fault :(
Then she asked her darlings to go M'sia, some ulu place.
But Daddy say we dont like de, so I and sis have to face each other again!
(oh freak! I seriously need someone to be with me now. Tada! PROTECTION!)
Then the list goes on again!
OKAYOKAY! Mum say we can stay at Aunt's house.
If that is the case, I would like to work in the car workshop.
No, work is not the right word, just so there and sit down in the office playing com!
LOL and 'supervise' the workers.
Your head lah, just see see, gain experience only.
Then I'll go gym-ing (again) then swimming then uhoh, no basketball, no volleyball :(
Then go out to StationONE Cafe, KFC, Secret Recipe, etc to chitchat.


Okay, I'm thinking of going down and since Bastard asked me, I shall not :D
Later see those freaking guys, and get into idk what 'trouble' again.
But sis going, abit dont feel good.
Well, hope my friend will takecare of her barh.
Why isnt Winnie online!
I gotta off by 8! Comfirm! Must and do the card with sincerity.
That time I did for B. I took hours to make one simple card lurh!
Got laminate also leh! Good girl right :D
Dont know he still got not! Kekes.
And I damn regret never book the Body Worlds tickets yesterday :(
SO damn cool, Im so going to donate my body when I die :D
Then everyone who visits will see my plastic-ed body without the skin with the flesh, naked. LOL
As if. This year them is cyle of life and aging, what about the past?
Totally forgotten, but research can be done easily :D

How I wish to have a nice talk with you/someone.

I remember saying how loud that I would never commit suicide a month ago.
How loud I said it, I remember.
I promised not to slit, not to have any thoughts of it, etc etc etc.
I remembered!
But I also remembered how I threatened to commit suicide just last week, or rather within 2 weeks.
Then I thought that by spending all my money, the use of the cards and everything would help me.
But I was very very wrong.
How I feel so ashame of myself. Sorry.
Whenever I think about this particular person, how he convince others of their wrongdoings and everything.
It reminded me of myself.
Do I even have a fake-split-personalities?
Its like I get to be so optimistic infront of some particular people and damn freaking pessimistic infront of some others.
While infront of my love ones I get to be normal. LOL I dont know how to define it.
Infront of my loves one excluding family I get to be super optimistic but yet they get to see me crying(profusely) too.
However this particular person can really convince me to get off the thoughts of committing suicide.
Why is it that his words can convince me so much?
Why is it that the words I used to convince others to be optimistic cant be used on myself.
Why is it......

Okay fine, I dont know what to say.
Just shuddup.
Its friday tomorrow! Its promotion day today.
And yet I feel nothing about it.

Just checked the site for bodyworlds.
LOL, dad say want go zai buy, like that comfirm dont want liao lurh.
But it seemed like he will.
AND I think I went before already with the City Harvest Church when I was much younger.
The past exhibition was duron 2003/04, i think that was when I went to that church and stopped during 04 05?
After I went China.
Around there barh. LOL.
I remember I went Science Centre to watch some idk what show, on outer space and I dont get single thing about it.
The chair slanted one, then screen is curve de.
Forgotten liao larh.

In the end, I went to Tan Tock Seng Hosp for vaccine.
Before that went to POSB to get my atm card, getting it before my birthday I guess.
Darn happy cause there would be my name on it =P
Walked to Batok MRT and chatted with Aunt, in the end kena convince by her and she treated me to milktea + alot of strawberry jelly!
Which I drank at Novena and got choked by it alot of times then I got phobia of it already!
Wth? Then theres this grp of students from NJC or what making a big fuss over a jab, causing me to be like so damn scare larh. TMD!
Then I damn zai compared to them okay!
I went in chit chat with the male nurse(okay I dont know what you call them, i think is nurse.)
less than 30secs or 20 O jiu out.
Even lifang was surprise!
I not that useless, just that I get real disgusted by the feeling when the needle gets into ....
YUCK!
Okay we went to Square2 and Velocity to gaigai.
I think Square2 is better.
Got a cap at Square2 I think. LOL, so cheap.
Okay, *skipskipskip*, i damn mafan! SORRY LF!
Damn choosy, end up we had Kenny Roger! My love.
But I think abit waste money lurh, bohua.
But at least I got my satisfaction granted.
Hahas, the billing part was damn funny, should have paid myself.
And I think I damn kind towards the waiters lurh. Hehes.
Self praise! I super regret never get that hair accessory thingy!
The one that seemed to be like a hair band but its 1 circle circle de.
Then can put on forehead, looks like 'angel'.
Damn regret I never buy!
Why not you buy for me? My birthday is coming!
Damn excited that I couldnt sleep last night.
Cause if I never go camp/school then I will be having lots of fun on my birthday.
But not comfirm about school thingy.
And I think I book bu dao chalet already! Freak!
Shant talk much about it.
Wanted to update photos but my laptop cant detect my memory card. Freak.
Why also like that one?!

I dont like how much you sacrifice for me.
It would only make me dependent of you.
Unable to make you leave me.
Making it a necessity for your existence.
Making me unknowingly what to do when you're not around!

LOL, no wonder the vodka so ex, its some limited edition thingy.

Sometimes, your existence will only remind me of my sad-ness, my weakness, the things that I am unable to do.
Thinking back, today while going home, I was thinking about walking home with a friend of mine holding onto a basketball and me a volleyball.
Thinking back, those balls only make me remember of my knee but also the happiness that I had while playing.
Your happiness may be my sadness.

I freaking cant get to bed!
Whats wrong?!
&&& do people get thrill from adding strangers in FB?
1 word, 'digusted'.

SELF-REMAINDER!
TIME TO DO THE BIRTHDAY CARD FOR W :D :D :D
Call up TanTockSeng and BBPolyclinic tomorrow!

7 more days!

"Someday, someone is going to walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else."

How true is that? I dont know. Besides fmaily members, are they anyone else willing to sacrifice because of
who you are?
In everyone's life, relationship is part and parcel. However, in a love relationship, how long and the love last?
After a period of dating, is the love there?
After marriage, what remains is responsibility.

In every -ship, there are two end. You need to support both side to prevent it from sinking. Thus, one person supporting it is useless.

Do you agree with me? Think about it :D
With one 1 support the -ship, how long can it last?

If love is everything, how are you going to survive?

No matter what, as long as I am into it, I always put 100% attention.
However, by putting 100% attention, I dont get the same amount of attention back.
Is it worth it?
By right, it shouldnt be calculated in this way nor is it calculated like this.
If it is, then is L-O-V-E is not there.
However, it would be too much if you get too less attention back :(

Wth?
Going for vaccination tomorrow and I think my atm card.
Keep draggin lurh, lazy to get it.

Okay my dad is sweet enough to get his friend buy Vodka for me, but the problem is.. is not the one that I want; the one that everyone has.
Mine de hor, the bottle damn damn damn chio, okay to me larh!
And it causes 60bucks plus plus plus without tax, its duty free :D
So you count yourself to see the selling price in the shop lurh.
We were like saying no wonder so ex lurh, cause they even gave a keychain and a bag, just say for fun larh.
Not gonna drink it now, if not I be like last time like that.
No way!
I got off my addict from vodka and all the alcholic drinks then wine now going to be martini soon then vodka again?
No way, wo shi guai kia leh :D
Okay I didnt post yester, reason being my internet sot diao after I used another laptop and my daddy called singnet up.
LOL
He didnt wanna call and insist is I spoil the modemn. LOL
They still say is what I anyhow press the password or something.
Siao one larh. I didnt even do anything.

Yesterday, noon went for english tuition and I went home and used com till 7pm until my house was pitch dark with the lights from the corridor and the roads.
Wth?
Xia si wo leh.
Just because I good girl off-ed the laptop and when I tried to use another laptop after that, my internet went sot!
Caused my cafe world the food all wasted! TMD!

SERIOUSLY! TODAY SCHOOL WAS FREAKING BORING!
AND I START TO DISLIKE MY CHI TEACHER, cause acting may not be a good thing.
Okay many wouldnt get me, just shuddup.
Somehow the feelings dont seemed to be there but the actions seemed.
(Dont you freaking care what Im writing)
I really dont know what happened.
You know, distance may be a problem that we cant solve it easily.
Cant you freaking give a little damn about my feelings?
Sometime I go gaga over you, sometime I get sick of you.
Maybe what my friend had said hit the bulleye.
But Im not going to let it happen.

&&& what im going to say is (dont give a damn, cause it personal...)
DONT YOU DARE TO LEAVE ME ALONE HERE ANYMORE!
YOU KNOW HOW SAD I GET WHENEVER I THINK ABOUT IT!
FREAK FREAK FREAK, I DONT WISH TO BE LIKE THAT,
BUT I CANT STAND IT.
I DONT WISH TO BE LET LAST TIME.AT THE AIRPORT CRYING LIKE SIAOGEENA!
THE PREVIOUS TIME YOU REFUSE TO LET EVERYONE TO SEE YOU OFF NOR DID YOU ALLOW AUNT TO SEND YOU!
I DONT CARE! I DONT CARE! I DONT CARE!
LAST TIME MATERIAL CAN HANDLE!
NO WAY! THE LOVE AND EVERYTHING CANT NEVER BE REPLACED!
HOW? HOW? HOW?
This time I really cant control anymore. I dont know who to lean on this time, okay I know.
But will he allow me to? Will I be able to handle it myself?
Will I be able to calm down after all the consolation and everything.
Even if I see B. can I really be fine?
Can I?!
I NEED B. now :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(
I think I need my vodka now.

i wanna go universal studio next year!

随你怎么说，要分就分，要和就和。
Hey hello，我不是个玩偶leh!
我也不是跟屁虫.
Dont you say I didnt do anything to salvage our r / s.
Many witness that I did!
Seriously, Im damn not happy and I need not need you to say but I will say..
IF THAT IS THE CASE, FREAK OFF!
I DONT EVEN NEED TO KNOW SOMEONE LIKE YOU :D

Hey hey hey, I express my anger until super duper obvious already leh!
And yet you're still pestering me.
Now I officially give cold face hor, you still tigong mi zai ya, still reply huh? ? nth. etc etc etc.
All the stupid replies that you can think of. Bloody you.

Just now chalet I felt damn bad cause I over angry then abit bad lurh.
Let Eric nan zuo ren, cause his mother-in-law wore my sis's slipper while my sis wore mine then I asked my aunt lent me and make a big fuss over it, firstly I think its damn wrong to wear others slipper without permission, esp when my sis never ask me, and its all cause of that bloody auntie.
Eh let me tell you, to me hor, what zhang pei etc, senior or junior I dont give a damn.
I thought they say what equality.
Okay larh, cause in law marh, so I know what to do.
But what was worse is that Eric told me to bear with it with my aunt shoe but then hor I ren bu zhu jiu cry so dont dare tell him its okay. Wth? I cry for what?
Then Kim told me pei him into the living room, then I found my sis slipper outside the door.
The auntie go put there lurh, and went to change into her own, then I got mine back!
But partly because of that, I ate later then I wanted.
Thanks to the chalet I missed alot of show like channel u's 5pm and 7pm and 8pm show and maybe 10pm?
And channel 8's 9pm show.
Wth?
9pm that time I went to Han's Cade thanks to Kim larh, I super regretted then go arcade, watched Joseph and Kim played, not interested in any of those game though Joseph damn gentleman kept asking if I want to.
If I got a boyfriend as gentleman as Joseph jiu shuang :D
&&& we had banana split though I dont really like, didnt ate much either.
So Joseph was rather tanned and Kim was rather fair, so they were chocolate and vanilla.
And when they were talking about choco and vanilla, which tasted nicer, Kim asked me and I replied strawberry.
So choco is Joseph, vanilla is Kim and strawberry is ME!
So coincidence, i was wearing a pink shirt, but I was referring to my pink cheek :D
Ohh! talking about Joseph is thanks to me translating to eng and helping Kim to convince him to come :D
From simei leh, cab fare caused him 25 bucks? around there.
And he's going to chiong home tmr morning to get his uniform and back to school.
Seriously at chalet I wasted my whole day and I swam for half an hour only.
Somehow I got no stamina anymore plus I got phobia leh, alittle bit, I dont know why.
Reminded of 2 drowning incident which scared me loads.
JOSEPH GOT SERIOUS SHORT TERM MEMORY! HMPF!
He cant remember when and how I knew him!
He only remember my birthday party. LOL
It seemed like its fri or sat today! HAHAS!
Hahas, Eric's manger is the one that has got the coldest face and yet he is the friendly-est.
Damn good okay, I serve them chicken wings and hot dog I think.
Them as in the Jean Yip staffs but then he looked at me and smile.
Damn kind de I tell you!
AND AND AND last time I dont really like him maybe cause in work he is the manyzer(manager), superior marh so need to have the look barh.
Then the guy who live my next block, tmd? He dont remember me or what? hmpf!
Last time I nearly got 'kipnapped' by that 2 guys, he never even look at me when I expected to use him to save myself. Bloody!
But I know got one JY staff never come, no 2! including the one that look like the BOF de! one is chaoahbeng that one!
Wahlao! I want that guy to come lurh!
Maybe cause all the friend came mainly are in the hairdressing line, all damn chio and handsome.
Almost all got tattoo at the calf there, nice! I LIKE!
If its not permanent I will go get one too!
Then their dressings I like!
LOL got once Eric call me 'dajie', cause my mum is his 'si jie' marh, so I thought he calling my mum or aunt since aunt is 'dajie/muiji' too marh!
I jitao blur, actually i think I was dreaming in lala land already lurh, I should have gotten used to it.
Since Im dajie and sis is laoda.
Bloody, whats wrong with me man.
LOL he called me cause he want me be photographer larh, damn shuang I LIKE.
once Jacelyn told me to take but I havent warm up not used to the flash, scare paiseh marh cause Im not close to in-law's staff and friend only the JY staffs people know me. But I can say all the guys damn dao.
Dao as in cold cold one, maybe bu ren shi barh.
But good looking leh, i like.

Dont like then scram off larh, bloody arse.
Im like super bored lurh.
After sis, jacelyn and eric went imm, i went swimming alone.
Shuang to the max cause I was the only one in the pool.
Before that I spent hours transferring photos.
From Eric's phone to Jacelyn's then to mine.
Wtf? My laptop's bluetooth I dont know how to manage.
Then from my handphone memory card to my laptop and Jacelyn 's hp memory card to my laptop.
What was damn freaking was that, Jacelyn hp only have 16 photos instead of 30.
Then the photos were supposed to be in my memory card couldnt be found.
Always like that one, when you wan it you cant find it.
Gave up and went swimming.
Back, bathed and used laptop, freaking wireless connected but cant be use, lucky I used another one in the end.
Boring and wanted to edit photo etc.
So transfered photo from one folder to another for duplication and lucky me found the 30 photos.
HENG! But 1 couldnt be view, just nice Eric they all just came back and I think I am going to get the photo from him again.
Eh! is damn difficult okay!
From his hp bluetooth to my then take out SD card then copy paste etc etc.
So mafan that Jacelyn didnt bring her hp out with her.
Uncle! this time round you must be damn happy to have a niece like me leh! Kekes.

Never ending stress!

Up to today, Imma still not perfectly fine, hope later's chalet will help me de-stress.
After all the mugging, sleeping late and waking up early.
I am still damn stress up when I'm having a 6day straight break.
Having bad 'day'-mare, bad nightmare.
Dreaming all sort of weird weird thing, the one that scared me for a few days was the one regarding B.
Wahlao, up to now I still get very very very very very very freak out!
Could it be due to not seeing B.? Abit sot one.
OR the result?
Comfirm not top 4 liao lurh :(
I seriously miss B. damn loads.
Didnt get to see the (insert topic) yesterday,
it was like so near yet so far.
2 metres away yet....

STRESS TO THE MAX!

Hey guy, I need to tell you that you're no. 2 for the person that I hate to be with most.
no. 1 was bastard and co. then you.
Hey seriously we werent meant to be friend.
And dont you find you're too childish for your age?
Hey come on everyone is much mature than you, including B..
Dont you find it irritating asking about my r/s with (insert name)?
Dont you find it irritating talking about everything under the Sun?
Dont you find it damn arsehole talking about dao here and dao there?
Maybe not to you but to me yes!
Dao here and there, let me tell you...
YOU'VE GOT THE MOST DAO AND QIANBIAN FACE!
Damn fed up with you man, saying im dao.
Yes I did it on purpose, cause I dont even wanna talk to you larh.
I dont know why I even blurt out (insert name) to you lurh.
I give (insert name) face by 'befriending' you but dont you find it overboard.
I can make you r/s with (insert name) sour, for im (insert name) most important human beside (insert him/her)-self. Freak you man, I had enough, mind you.

Update tomorrow, gonna go bed soon :D
No more volleyball(-ing) :( :( :(

edited//
Seriously, when I read this post again, I get real mad.
Cause I just give (insert name) then you jiu overboard liao.
Dao isnt a nice word to use esp when you've got that face.
Cant you feel that I'm trying to kick you outta my life,
seriously you aint any important guy in my life lurh.
To put it 'nicely', I dont think anyone would wanna be friend with you =X

Before I forget, self-remainder : time to get L4D disc from Kim.
Bet tomorrow will be a mundane monday.
Gonna be at the chalet for like one-third of the day?
Eric's booking in at 2pm, then he told me to bring my laptop so that he can show his friends his wedding photoshoot.
I was like okay sure, when I hadforgetten that I am taking public transport tomorrow for the fun of it.
Though mummy was like you want take cab take cab lurh.
Then she jokingly ask me to ask Eric sponser me cab fare cause I'm bringing my laptop.
Hahas, lucky I joked about that, and I found myself a chauffeur =X
To pick us up at 2+?
No idea, that one ask mummy to settle. Kekes.
Gonna be real bored if there is no internet access over there.
Swimmin~ Bowling~ Arcade? Is there even pool there? I suppose there is.
Then it'll be god damn fun.

Yesterday, saturday.
I went to M'sia eh, the trip took us 3h which was rather hell.
Cause of some reason, and it was freaking sunny in the car, due to the position of the sun, duh~
So what to do? Camwhore lurh, ehes, using two hp.
Crystal and Viewty :D
I find the name nice leh. =X
Then to Uncle's house, then freaking unhappy lurh!
This time round I thought never go his house, never bring vb -.-
Talking about vb, theres sth I need to do soon =X
Okay, so I was god damn hungry, no idea why, I took my brunch? lunch? breakfast at 11am.
LOL it was 6+ going 7.
Took some somewhat-look-like-biscuit-but-more-like-mooncake, okay lurh, not horrible but not not nice.
 Abit offtrack, I think I wanna watch piziyingxiong :)
Wth? Sadded didnt get to go sanlou cause Uncle want bring us go the restaurant which serve nice hokkien mee, but sorry I dont like it.
Back to their house and then left at 10+, reached SG at like 1230? Wth?
Damn tired but insist on using com and tv, in the end sunday morning, I woke up late, got woke up by sis hp cause my hp went dead when I snooze it -.-

Today after taichi went to westmall, yes again!
After brunch, I damn damn damn want to see Eric, so looked up and he was there.
So we went up and chit chat etc etc etc, when I realised that he cut his hand.
Must be when cutting others hair lurh! Be careful arh!
Then some customer requested for him or something, yeah lurh, so we went off.
Home then bathed so while waiting for hair to dry I used the com and posted a real damn arse post.
....
So after I posted this post I went to Andy's house, to return the volleyball to Aaron.
What a good girl I am. Cause I specially go their house and pass to (actually I dont know to put Andy/Aaron/them).
Cause it will be damn contradicting. Fine, you dont get what I'll be saying either.
Freak me! I forgotten to request to see Andy's new hairstyle!
HMPF!
I freaking hate go their house one lurh, everytime I go, everytime I get lost.
This time Dad let me down at the carpark which he let them get off whenever he drives them home.
So I thought I was lucky since Andy say there nearer, but what was expected did happen, I took the wrong lift again!
This time was to #_ _ -331 there, last time was 335 or something.
How suay can I be?!
Damn paiseh can, cause door bell spoil one hor, then I msg Aaron also no use.
Until I kpo go see the pink show which I though was a little girl one's. I did mention before.
Then I saw something which was connected to the doorbell, kpo lurh!
Then I looked up! YES! I saw the 'treasure'. The bell which you put on the bicycle one!
Wahlao, I damn happy but paiseh can.
Cause I dont cycle so I not use to the ringing of the bell.
And I press dao chao horrible de lurh. Its loud can!
&&& the corridor so dark, i very scare one leh!
Okay, someone expected opened the door, but not someone I hoped.
LOL. rubbish, just crapping.
And dumbass me wanted to walk down to the storey that has got connected house to take the lift,
when there got lurh.
Lucky I remembered, jiu shi because I remembered therefore I never see dao Andy's hairstyle.
Cause he come here I go there, you get what I'm saying?
Then the real damn stupid thing is back, I got lost again!
Just like last time! I got no sense of direction one lurh!
Everytime I thought I'm right, it isnt!
Wahlao!
Suay Suay Suay!
Thats why I dont like go that block one! Okay but despite going there before, I never get to see the shape of the house, wasted but I paiseh larh.
Overlap~ Happy happy, cause I thought of my post then...
Then from Batok East to Clementi to eat then to Pandan Road then to Ghim Moh.
Damn stupid can.
Cause Daddy thought Ulu Panda CC is at Pandan Road then realise its at Ghim Moh.
So we wasted alot of time and petrol by going to and fro.
Clementi there just to see the western food, maybe cause I've got no appetite from what I think is due to stress.
I couldnt even finish a quarter of the spaghetti, :(
Lucky I warned Dad I couldnt finish it, if not jiu siao liao.
Dad finished le, Sis's food havent even serve.
Wasted damn lots of time lurh!
Then like I mentioned wasted time by going to and fro.
Skip skip skip
Left at 945pm then to the neighbourhood walk walk jiu home-d.
Like always, com-ing and tv-ing. and dao-ing.

Friday, went to Grandma's house, kekes, KaiKai.
Actully I wrote a quite detailed post on this le right?

Thursday, was a boring day which I posted many times due to boringness.
But Mum bought me a slipper from idk which mall or store.
Its the one which I've been eyeing for, just that some place sell de, make it seemed damn cheapo, therefore I didnt buy.
Nice :D Elegant.

***
Its damn mafan okay, I need off my laptop soon and pack it into its home(bag) together with the charger and hard disk.
Then I need to pack all the swimming and after-swimming stuff, including sis.
And I found out that there like got no wireless hotspot.
Hope what the net gave me was false, and theres good internet access there.
If not I really will get crazy.
In addition, my aunt told us to bring the wire extension thingy.
Wahlao, I go jiu hao, still want me bring that?
If I handle the chalet, i make sure everything is bought there and threw away there, unless I've got a car.
If not it would be damn freaking mafan.

1 more day then I would get to see my desired (insert name),
and my unexpected result. :(
Cause I aimed high enough that I wouldnt be able to reach.
Why not let me write down my target or rather what I hope for or what I can get :D
Watching the variety show, saw the durian reminds me of last night.
The perosn who loves durian alots doesnt seemed to be able to eat it happily :( No appetite again?

Target/Hope to get
Eng         B3
Chi         B3
AMaths  A1
Emaths   A1
Phys       B3
Chem     B3
EGeog   A2
ESS       A2
= Humanities A2 lurh!

What I can get
Eng        C6

Chi         B4
AMaths  A2
Emaths   A2
Phys       C5
Chem     C5
EGeog    B3
ESS       B3

LOL, I'm like freaking tired, shall nap awhile before going (insert place) to pass volleyball back to aaron?
Chao lei de!
Dozing off damn soon.
Sian diao, not sure if uncle coming later, if he coming then he be damn difficult for me to return liao lurh.
Still thought tomorrow can bring to chalet there play, but ohh well, it aint mine :(
IF I buy then I'll be playing darn often, by then not only mum will be angry even the doc and therapist will be damn unhappy and angry lurh.
WTH?
Dont feel like posting, post soon.
Excited for chalet rather :D

Like it, you smile.

Dont like it, dont smile.
This might be better, though I love to see you smile :D
It doesnt mean you have to smile to let me know you are smiling;
smilies too can be proven :D
At least let me feel it :D

10 more days!

Just used com for the sake of fb -.-
Hehehehs, I am super happy, 2 wishes done.
But if there is a little change done to the wish that would be great.
Nevermind, contented already.
Just reached home only lurh, the trip to and fro took us about 3h?
Wth?
Nevermind, Imma so happy cause of him and someone didnt talk to me..
Cause I wasnt online, happy to the max can.
Just hope for him to scram off soon :D
Watching wocai now then going to bed le, theres taichi tmr :D
Ohohoh, forgetten to message somebody, just now was rather bufangbian to reply.
Off to replying :D

A very detailed post about this week soon :D

Now Miss Wong Li Qing gets very angry when she realise that its jam at the causeway aftert S'pore custom!
And she gets real mad right now.
On top of that, she cant find the ideal phone that she want except for LG crystal which has got a nice design + good camera + wifi !
However, due to some reason she wouldnt want to use that phone for long!
And I am getting real excited for wed :D *winkwink*
Getting super vex over what to wear on Mon.
Bloody Mon, I have got very limited cloths to choose from as I've to give into consideration about the weather on Mon.
In addition, I think there will be BBQ lurh! Then I comfirm go 'suana' lurh!
So cant wear those clothe that you get warm easily.
Cant wear to simple like a tanktop or something.
Cant be too formal nor informal.
I minus out everything, then I realise polo tee is the best lurh.
Can look formal and informal but abit thick leh.
Then then then! I wanna go for a swim, wahlao if I wear many layer, not only I get warm to death but there will be many things for me to bring. Crap!
Monday zai decide, since my aunt and cousin comfirm wear damn suibian one, so why cant i?
Anyway! I cut my nail real short since many kept saying its long and sharp.
Later I pinch someone got scar then I will feel damn bad since pinching/hitting seemed to be part of my life.
Thanks to some people lurh make me too used to hitting whenever they say something wrong.
 Is it Deepavali today?
Its Deevali! :D
Okay I forgotten how you spelled or what you call that.
Last year Deevali I was in SG then the next day I was in India.
Though 1 day passed but still got the atmosphere when we stayed at the hotel.
LOL, I cant remember much of my trip to India and I never upload dao lurh.
I think I should and I can since I got too much time to spent and I am still not that into Taiwan Dramas yet!
Darn excited for my birthday that week, cause got camp?
Hahas, not very sure lurh.
One of the reasons barh, then who knows I get to spent with clinque?
But if want celebrate on 27oct midnight then I'll get real tired the next day when theres camp.
Did I mentioned that I got an excuse letter?
Abit dont feel like using it =X
And I counted if i dont hold a party this year then next year is O's, how to celebrate?
Belated? Wahlao then people think I damn bhb lurh.
Whatever~ by 21 I must have a hotel ballroom party jiu can le :D Kekes.
Waiting for Dad now, instead of being home early, he is damn late today.
Must be Dad trying call the new hp number, it is! Kekes.

I'm so sorry, I chose to visit that place again.
Nono, its not the same place but they have the same aim:
to make me feel the hurt and sadness.
So sorry for going to that place, cause I was curious.
Too curious to comfirm about you past,
and when I had I realised its too much for me to take.
I chose to face it instead of avoiding it, and when I did,
I chose to run away.

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I've no intention of hurting you or whatsoever, I know I've done it and theres no way for me to turn time back. Dont worry I wouldnt ask for your forgiveness etc. Cause that is the only way to make you hate me and forget me :S

Argh! I'm so bored, not even comfirm if Imma going to M'sia later norh, Daddy always find excuses one lurh.
But now not only do we own a phone with wifi but a phone with internet broadband access, it be much much much more difficult for Daddy to try to persuade us not to go, it should be the other way round, kekes.
Theres no tuition today!

11 more days!

Oh great,
another quarrel. :(

What you wanna me do, I keep mum doesnt mean anything.
Anyway I am like such a fortunate girl, getting all my wish related to B. happening soon.
I mean yeah larh, I wrote on my blog marh.
Blog is like a santa to me!

Okay! I am so damn freaking bored facing this bright 14.1 inch screen laptop in the dim light as though as its damn romantic but without a guy and no romantic-al music playing just a sis who just came home right after I decided to post. I think my sis didnt go mac thats why she is home so early and lucky i didnt went down ah boon and yiqun all never go there, lucky wong liqing.
Okay okay, you can see i am crapping all the way listening to chinese song which i dont even know the title!
It seemed I am freaking bored! YES! Cause S ps-ed me by offline-ing and someone didnt answer my call and still say want call me.
So I am freaking waiting for someone to go online or message me and someone to call me.
As for th3 call de dont want jiu suan le, cause I get very fed up when things said aint done.
This applies to everyone including those I love love love de!
Cause cause cause! Its the same as breaking promise.
Okay larh its not like I never but sometime I lazy or something, at least I inform most of the time!
Freak Imma ranting, thats bad(quoting from <3)
Sis went to get chrysanthemum white tea again! Bloody its like always I drink if not she drink.
Need to stock up again!!!
She is laughing, kekes.
and Imma bleeding inside listening to my sis talking about her school day.
Okay I went bloghopping before coming back here.
And Dad's back!

I was thinking about cutting my hair, maybe at Jean Yip in the evening.
When Eric just called me and invited my family to Chevrolet chalet.
Uncle ah uncle at last you're getting engage and marry in Dec, all the best hunk-y :D
Think he getting engage on Mon thus the celebration.
Anyway, stupid S made me cry just only, why rake the word 'sad'.
I really wish B. can surprise me by messaging me, he can chose to just start a topic by starting anything and I 'll be damn happy already.
Off topic, looks like I need to get a hair cut not any sooner.
Suddenly thinking of overlap hairstyle, wishing for someone to cut it soon. *winkwink*
Kekes.
Lucky me, on-ed my phone cause I off-ed it cause I wanna take my memory card to uplaod photo here.
Then I on-ed it, if not Eric called me without me knowing.
Went to Tiong and bought Fish Burger from Mac :D
Brought to Grandma's place there.
Was surprised by Henry's and Kaikai's appearance.
LOL, kaikai hor, the best way to control him is Mac's fries.
Got many photos of him :D
Shall upload them later.
Then he slept! Wth? When I was about to leave he woke up.
Suan ni you liang xin larh and aunt was like saying how she dont want Kaikai to be with Angel.
Hahas! =X
Left at 3 then to Alexandra Hosp.
Till 5? Then bathed at there, to batok then to central? to buy my i-dont-know-what noodle.
You get to chose a variety of foods together with meefen that one! I like!
But the stall never open, bought BBQ chicken instead, 2 packets for sis and me.
Then home-d, damn guai okay me.
Sat at the dining table and eat, freaking long never sit with mum and sis and eat like this le!
Com-ed till now.
Wanted to go basketball court see if boon and yiqun there not.
But lazy and not when im in red fbt plus plain tee, that be damn awful.
+++ later get into trouble even worse -.-
++ what if  bastard and co. are there, they are the last few whom I wish to see :D

Good Morning!
'Early' in the morning woken up by mum, 15 mins ago.
6+ in the morning dad woke me and sis up, not knowing I've got school.
Now I sort of regret saying I wanna go Grandma's place.
Heard that cousins and aunts will be there.
LOL, I 've been saying going to Grandma's place but I never mention the reason.
My grandpa's anniversary :(
Last time whenever I wanna fake cry, think about it jiu cry.
Until my maternal grandpa was dead then I was much better.
2 years back :D
Should be 7th or 8th anniversary bah.
Cause 2002 died, then must plus 1 year?
LOL, used the com for rc, going off soon. by 1130am I must get myself outta this house.