Actually i know that being mine is never easy, i understand.
I know I'm having moodswings currently, let me be okay?
Sorry to angry you with that zhabor, but i freaking dont like to see you having anything to do with her or even talk to her or even talking about her.
Sorry boy, but i really dont like it.
I told daddy that I will scream at you if you touch my stuffs, but i doubt i will, instead i did it by saying that you and her...
SORRRY! LOVES YOU ALRIGHT?

Sometime, somthings, you may not be the best person for me to talk to, but you're still one of my most important person in my life :D ily<3

Sorry friends, for all my stupid moods.
I believe i spoilt lixuan's mood today?
Cause i wasn't high/hyper and instead i think i talk more to darius than her.
Sorrrryyyyy DARLINGGG!

After school, accompany millie to buy prepaid card then she accompany me to bustop and wait for bus.
157 came and boarded it, i yelled for yingchong yet he never hear me shouting.
Obedient me listened to him and went to the upper deck :D
Then met LIXUAN!, ahhas, sorry girl to make you wait for me as though as im a princess (quoted by her)
Luming! PangLUMING! became so much skinnier, so walked around with him, sis, timothy and lixuan :DD
Nothing much bah, since i was ultra moody.
Afiqah~ <333 cheers me up.
Since i was wearing the pink uniform in nursery, i knew her!
If theres no barrier, we could have been the best of the best friends ever!
I really miss her alot :D:D:D :(:(:(
Chatting with her on msn awhile ago, but she havent reply yet. (reply liao)
Didnt saw Aisha! What a waste.
Seriously, i rather go back to see friends lurh.
Then the niagn lin? i dont know how to spell his name, changed alot that i asked if he was from my batch!
Ahahs!
[SkipSkip]
Then to mac, LOL, alot of people?
Darius, weiliang, junren, yingchong and khiameng.
Vivian and Janice.
Aloysius, Desmond, Weisheng, Andy(chockzhongcai) and Yihong.
Terence and Xunbin.
Alot CWSS de!
Lucky Aaron got tell me sth about them, so at least can talk about it!
Ahahas!
Aloysius tio suan by me, how was 1 day _______ :D
Thurs going to their class for maths tuition!
Excited!
I missed many malay friends of mine!
Ohhhh!!!!
Syazwan rememebers me!
HE told LUMING to say HI to me.

SYAZWAN! loveyoulots larh. still remember me at least.
Just that this year i forgotten your birthday until 1 day later!
hehehs.

Imran! Next year, i upgrade you to sec 5 boy although you're sec 4 next year!
Since your p3 boy nick has been used by me since p5 till sec 3 =X

22 more days to AFIQAH's birthday!

Hmmm? Mac to eat then to 140 there see them daqiu :D
Bored? Okay larh, Darius joked alot and Lixuan there to chit chat.
Not really heart-to-heart leh.
Sis left halfway to meet her friend at swing there.

Rushed home to bath and eat, mum force me to eat can.
Then late for tuition, still thought want ask andy meet me.
I missed my bus by a min!

THANKS ADRAINWONGYONGREN'S DAD FOR DRIVING ME HOME!
ADRAINWONG, dont be mistaken by me about last week.
I only fake fake angry only okay!
I wouldnt because of him, then angry with you de okay!

Labels: Boy., lixuan, Physic tuition, teachers' day

We will not be remembered by our words, but by our kind deeds.
Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath.

is it true? thats up to you.

Currently im in my study room with my sis. To be exact is to accompany her since she got exam tomorrow.
What a good sister i am, self praise. Happy happy, cause i did 3 stretches and 2 exercises, 2 more to go!
Actually, thats not the case, the case is he messaged me when i wanted him to.
It wasw when i was bored and doing my work, since i didnt go out at night on a typical sunday!
First time okay, but at least i did go shopping in my track pants and so shirt -.-

Let me be random, thats a blister that i didnt know, and now its skin is going to be tear away by me!
Shuang!

I just realised last sat need go granny's house for 7th month, but Chay's family came so didnt went down.
I'm so gonna make them have a different impression of me, since the last time was at SGH and i wore a tee and khaki and went there to study -.-

Yesterday, went to m'sia at like 630pm. Dad came home late and i didnt went to tuition!
So, jam like siao even when its back to s'pore.
2am plus then slept but 830am woke up. Not that sleepy afterall.
Food was so fantastic, and im not going there anymore!
Plus it wasnt cheap given that kind of food okay.
The captain anyhow introduce one.
I grumble about not going sanlou! And daddy said next time will go! *hops around*
HE intro me de marh, of course i must give face and go. (ehhehh, proud not ah?)
Somemore must be the one near pelangi de!!!!
Cause they say got alot of branches.
Bloody captain tell me the meefen not that nice, i dont trust you =X
Slacked at uncle's house damn long and drank wine.
But i dont think my face was red nor was i drunk/sleepy.
Uncle shocked, so the point is learn to drink sparkling wine then wine :D
James is taking the test to study in s'pore.
Okay shant talk about it after results are out.
Somehow, somewhat i have a feeling about this thing-y.

Today, taichi then lotone!
I got 3 same handphone strap from LJS! who wanna chg with me?
4 to be exact, 3 from lotone outlet.
i asked an auntie, a boy and another boy.
the 2nd one changed with me :D
The other two same as me so i never exchange dao.
Then got 1 couple got the one i want! or a diff one from what i had, but i never ask.
Cause out of the shop then my sis said. wth?

I'm thinking of him~

Labels: Chay's family, M'sia

Wth? Ytd go hosp, do physio and my knee hurts when i wanted to sleep.
Till now, its aching!
However, ytd i did very little leh.
I did crutches only. I dont if thats how you spell it.
Cause my crutches is training for abdomen muscle, but ytd was training thigh muscle.
LOL. Now its super pain, im limping again!
Bloody friends of my, no volleyball for me unless i initiate it!
However this time round i wanna group with pro.
Since i missed my chance last thurs. LOL.

Labels: Physiotherapy

Dont bother to read this post.

Sorry, is not easy to be said out easily. To me at least.
However daddy has been saying that im in the wrong to express my anger towards you infront of you mum.
Wrong? Yes.
But i've that we should not hide our true self from others.
We should not lie! Even if its white lie!
We should not act/lie just because we dont wish to hurt others.
IF not we will be the one getting internally hurt, which is not good!
Expressing anger is a good way to destress. :D
Yeah right, i didnt give into consideration about your feelings?
I did! Its you who didnt!
You didnt!
Your msg can only touch and hurt me!!!!!!!
HURT! H-U-R-T!
If you're angry with me, dislike me.
Then so be it!
I dont give a f damn about it :D
At least i show my true feeling thou i may regret :)
But you gotta know, in my heart you're still the old you.
Despite you've change.
But at least not infront of me larh.

p/s : Oh jeez, stop acting as thou you guys as my friends, care about me.
I know who care, who doesnt. Fake acters, Disgust me.

Labels: Winnie

Enough is enough!
Let end it :S
End all ties.
Yes, i cant bear to and tears everytime i think of it.
End it, leave it and break it.
Server all ties is the only thing i can do now.
Sorry.

***
So i was supposed to post about two things :D

Yesterday
after school, went home.
*shys* he on bus leh.
LOL. then homed. prepared and ate and used the com to check sth.
emo-ed lo. shouldnt have checked ____. thanks friend.
its you again who caused me like this.
i dont care about you and her but dont come hurting me.
then to alexandra hosp.
wth? i forgotten to bring my hp.
wanted to ran home take but expected the bus to reach soon and im like going to be late for my appointment!
so i didnt lurh.
lated for like 9mins only.
ut i waited for 30mins.
in the end they said they misplaced my document/profile...
3 stretches and 4 exercises.
and yeah volleyball is still in my mind =X
then i was early for tuition.
oh i went to queenstown mrt opp to eat.
615 reach lakeside.
strolled all the way to main gate, side gate no one open sia.
wth?
i msged andy cause i didnt want to walk alone and yet i didnt bring hp.
and he reply super slow!
go gym cannot sms meh.
until 2nd msg then reply.
somehow seemed like purposely dont want reply first msg de lurh.
you good!
630 jiu reach liao.
chong having dinner so i went admiring the scenery at the condo.
hiding at a corner.
sitting near the pool, seeing how one man swam.
feeling down and thinking nonsensical things.
however, he wasnt there for me.
maybe its exactly what i said.
i dont dare to feel down infront of him.
when i was sitting near the pool. i saw no one.
then i went into hiding, was the time all of them reached.
thus, i didnt get to see anyone walking to tuition larh.
after my eyes dont look that red anymore,
i walked out from the pathway beside the gym.
from afar i saw someone so familiar.. atcc...
lol, with his bag.
weird larh.
i came to realise he came to look for me to ask me go tuition.
cause kahhwee called my hp which i reached home then realised.
chong msged my hp.
and he called and msg my mum.
no wonder he will say he knew that i didnt brought my hp.
cause my mum told him when he called -.-
before he could say anything.
pro lurh mummy, so fast jiu say i never bring hp.
no face leh me. hahas.
seldom did i dont bring my hp out de!
is i too rush, kept packing my stuffs and clothes into my backpack.
so forgotten about hp marh!
lucky, i can remember his num.
i so far so good only can remember 7 people num, including my dad mum and home.
liting's one i need to think harder at times.
pathetic right?
ohh, what the hell, my attire was freaking weird!
sp shirt, fbt shorts and nike sport shoe.
no wonder he will ask where i go larh.
who the hell will wear like that to hosp except for those going to sport clinic de youngster.
then called daddy using andy's hp. PATHETIC ME!
lucky i went home, i was super tired.
esp after the physio.
seemed like theres a girl who have the same problem as me.
was told that my kneecap is small and my muscle is weak thus my kneecap will 'sink' down -.-
used com, tv and sms lurh. nth much :D

Labels: A-Maths tuition, Boy., Physiotherapy

Yes thats how I feel, my title says everything.

[updated]
Today i will purely write on 1 topic.
That is........ (im not telling, figure it youself)
So today, on my way home.
I tried hard not to turn back but i did.
Our eyes met each other, and thats was when i couldnt say i dont love you.
Why?! This few days i've down so its the best time to end everything.
Since he wasnt by my side when im crying.
In fact, i hide it thus no one can see it.
I went missing in action, you came searching for me. Touched.
However, you didnt saw my eyes with tears. Yeah, i hid it.
Then everything was fine till i heard those word.
Were they words of anger? or toleration?
OR you were shy infront of me?
OR you cant accept the fact?
I believe there must be something behind, if not those words shouldnt be heard.
Anyw, i think im overly sensitive.
Anyhow sensing things and twisting facts.
Yeah so, im sorry to be that hateful towards you.
But still you know ily.

Sleeping soon! School tomorrow! but theres tuition...
See how first.

Coming up next
- today's hectic/fun/loving day
- words of apologic(?) to my pooh

i can only be trueful to myself to a stranger.
11:19pm now.

Labels: Boy.

Why did you turn back when i left??
You made me even more willing to leave...

Off to Alexandra hospital :(
Then maybe shopping? grandma house?
Then tuition!

I wanted to tell you to not look me up anymore.
Every in s'pore, this few years i meant, every visit hurts me.
Now, even when i wanted to tell you to end everything.
I can take it that i dont know you, even though i dont wish to.
I wanted to stop this misery.
I wanted to tell you to let me go from it.
Leave me, is enough!
Yet, i'm not even given the chance to say that.
How cruel can you be?
I really wish to tell you this.
______, this is how i feels... :(
The msg you sent me in the morning, i cried immediately.
Did you?!
Have you forgotten how i cried everytime i leave you.
And then you will tell me that you cried after i left.
I can remember, up to now im still crying because of this.
You told me that you wanna study in s'pore.
And wanna stay my house.
I love it but the expenses and everyt that my dad has to spend?(its a rhetorical Q)
Never once did you not make me cry nor smile.
Its easy, I see you, im happy.
I see your back, i cry.

This time, i cried in school.
No one for me to confide into, no one to let me hug tightly and hide my tears.
Last night I cried because im not happy with you.
Daddy told me something but i didnt learn anything.
I can never let you go off my life.
But eventually, you will leave.
Or i will leave you.
One day, my b. will replace you.
Thou i dont wish to.

I was happy about you visiting me.
But not happy when im not the first person you visit, but instead you went JB.

All i could say is...
Have you ever spare a thought for me?
I kept saying I dont freaking give a damn, its not my prob to your mum.
Did your mum even told you how fed up i was.
Go larh, go away from me.
You stab me once and once and once again.
When will you stopp stabbing.
Last time was your exams as an excuse not to be able to visit me.
Though i understand the real reason behind it.
NOW!
Now you sad you're having spm during nov.
How can i believe you after all the lies made?
I dont care if its black or white lies.
The msg you send. You said during dec you will accomany me again.
Seriously! Kim what, you comfirm go find him.
If not because i have school that would be better.
While shopping with me, you asked me to ask your friend and kim down.
Have you ever wonder how sad i am?
Its akin to having you physically with me but mentally with them.
Fuck you man.
I have never use this word on you.
I dont say it randomly until im that fed up.

I told we could have a heart-to-heart talk last night.
Camwhore was what i wanna do with you on the MRT, but dont dare.
So thought when back home then camwhore.
You didnt give me the chance.
I thought we could spend our last moment together, sleeping side by side, cuddling.
Chatting too.
Seeing you sleeping is good enough.
I thought you would call me automatically.
But in the end i instructed my mum to told you to msg me.
To play it safe enough. Somehow i knew that you will, but i wouldnt give it a risk for you hurt me but not contacting.
That msg, that very msg is as impt as b. msg to me.
You didnt reply me when i told you that it wouldnt be possible for you to acc me when you're with me during dec.
Cause.. cause Kim is the obstacle.
Im not expressing how much i hate Kim, cause he is a good guy, i know :D
Just that among all of us, you spend the least time with me cause im furthest from you :(
So, why cant you spend all your time with me when you're near me.

Not until one day i die, then you regret, crying.
Seriously i got to say that i still cant accept the fact of my knees.
No one knows how it is like.
What it is like and whether its okay or not.

To think liting say my knee will be fine, when i said once and once again!
ONCE AND ONCE AGAIN that it will never recover fully.
Why did you bother to say :( Why?!
Why did you ask me to play volleyball today?!
DONT YOU KNOW I CANT!
AND IM TRYING TO STOP MY ADDICTION!
i cant play volleyball not because i cant run! only.
its because when we play, we comfirm must bend knee to hit the ball.
im not allow to even bend my knee.
since when playing volleyball we bend then hit, the pressure exerted is that much.
Dont say you fail your science.
I FEEL SO BAD TO NOT LISTEN TO MY PARENTS TO NOT PLAY.
BLOODY FUCKING ARSEHOLE. is the word i wanna say.
(p/s : liting, dont misunderstand me okay. im just very angry when typing this post!)

Bloody motherfucking you guys.
All leave! Leave i say!
I only need lixuan, millie, eunice. and maybe b.
Since b. just now treated me like that, which is nothing but i dont like.
okay larh, b. cares alot for me deep in the heart when my knees became an arsehole.
Dont ask what about ____?
Family support is what i need during this period of time.
So friend, yes this particular friend.
Dont act machiam you know me alot okay.

Now im freaking fed up and not sad, so i think the post wouldnt be that emotional enough or touching.
In school, i cried at the wrong time?
Cause he wasnt around?
Ehh no!
Before going hall he caught me crying. Ohh yeah.

Oh no, im crying.
hurting that much.
I realised that words can never describe how i feels,
since i typed a real long post.

If only b. is here. i will want to hold onto him tightly.
he is the only pillar that i can really lean onto.
but somehow with this pillar i dont feel sad that much.
i cant bring myself to cry profusely infront of him.
i cant only show the sad face but crying deep down inside.

Seriously, lesson learnt.
Jealousy can kill one.
Hoping for a better day tomorrow in school.
And spending more time with b. too :D

Labels: DFsis, Winnie

Okay, so up to now i'm just that sad since last night.
Maybe my dad was right, i cannot be that jealous.
Fine! I dont love you then i wouldnt give a damn right?

A detailed post!

240809 MONDAY!
Went to school excitedly hoping to reach home school to see winnie and sanyi!
Then i prepared real quick for tuition.
By 6pm, i was ready.
However it was a real sad day for me, after all the fights and quarellings. :(
On my way to tuition, getting up the bus and on the bus,
someone never ans my call. Hmpf!
I reach tuition then ans.
That so sad..
While i was crying, hoping for a shoulder to lean on, someone to hug on, he wasnt there.
Glad that millie called me at the right time that i stopped crying.
Adrain saw me on the bus!
Felt so bad that aaron cant have the vb on tues to play. Sorry.
Whatthehell was that, my dad supposed to drive them back, and adrain dad came abruptly! -.-
Forget it, but the brothers not bad uh, still say want take his car, cause more convenient.
Then to wutou for durian. Thailand de, so didnt buy.
I just realised that dad wanted to bring them to shengshiong there eat tzechar, but they never take my dad's car.
Mei kou fu for all of us :(
Homed, then i stayed at home since mum asked dad to fetch them home from JP.
And the lame me keep calling and putting the phone down on millie!
Helped aunt with my computer and lappies.
Then to bed :)

250809 Tuesday.
Went home and im so happy to be able to see both lovely.
And its rare that early in the morning i get to see someone that i love others than my dad, mum and sis!
Okay, happy of course, but never sleep beside me, its like decades already!
ever since we slept together at first i thought of sleeping tgt tonight, but then... cont reading.
So i reached home and prepared for tuition.
Then jacelyn not going orchard to meet them, so i napped till 745pm.
When my dad closed the door.
I freaking woke up and nearly wanna scream.
Told him to leave without me when i opened the door and say wait!
Cause i dont feel like being alone at home.
Paragon then to taka.
Freaking angry cause winnie left with her friend and kim.
Okay lorh.
Kim right? Got her dont want me, dont ever find me larh.
Winnie come s'pore? Spend lesser time with me than kim, when you're staying in my house.
I dont fucking give a damn, you leave!
I was freaking angry okay?!
Then to Geylang, wanted to eat durian.
Only got Thailand ones, so didnt bought any for dad's good friend = Andy.
Reached home 1 h later = 1040pm.
Slept with daddy! But he zhao at 1230am, disturbing my sleep.
Winnie went to Kim's house to sleep.
Seriously, Winnie, you're hurting me once and once again.
Angry and sad, but what can i do?

260809 Wednesday!
Homed from school, com-ed and prepared and went to BB mrt there the sweetie, since my dayi is working there and i told them to meet me there.
Was late by a fews minute though.
Then to bugis, then bugis street, iluma then met kim near the bugis street there de bustop and walked all the way to simalu.
Then Kim wanted to watch Final destination 4, supposed i agree.
But i was freaking tired after the past hectic schedule i had and theres school on thurs.
Gave it a miss and accompany sanyi walk walk at iluma.
All i could was to turn my head away sadly and say bye.
You never know how sad i am even when i think back now.
Dad, mum and sis reach at 8pm.
Ate at empire state.
We love it :D
ordered too much, but finished almost everything.
Two appetiser,which could be 2 servings, got potatoes so super bao de lo.
Pizza, 1 chicken, pork ribs! (Daddy's love) and fish and chips for sister.
And mummy ate already, so she was like eat shuang only.
Then aunt dont eat much.
IF only winnie was around or even Kim, then it would be just right.
I super duper bao, thou i only felt so after eating =X
Then walk until 10.
Whe i finally gave up for like less than 3 times in my life.
Telling dad that i very sleepy and my legs hurt.
After all im not supposed to be standing for the whole day!
Then he willing to go home, he was like, you guys shop finish then call me.
I want sleep already ah!
Winnie didnt appreciate me accompaning them shopping despite everything.
Until her mum told her that i specially bring them out and everyt.
Wth? Winnie, you dont love me anymore! :(
She went to Kim's house again.

today, nothing much.
they left.
and i did cried in school if you guys are wondering.
since some caught me.
eso lim yuting!
you're very observance unlike that sister of mine!
nvm, expected anyw.

Labels: Bugis, Iluma, Physic tuition, Winnie and 三姨

A quick post?
Nothing much actually.
Going to prepare to bath and off to westmall meeting my winnie and sanyi :)
Then go bugis and iluma!
I think so? not that sure.

I gave biatch a cold shoulder!
Happy!
F off biatch!

And why is my teacher so attentive to my b.?
Hmpf!

Gave me a 'warm' shoulder then treat me coldly!
You watch out b. ! hmpf!

okokay, excited to meet my winnie. :)
330pm i must reach there!
Paiseh to let them wait.

Labels: Winnie and 三姨

Boy, you know some times i wished to give you a perk on your cheek =X
Thanks
for brightening up fo life, thou i made it seemed that you darken it.

Wanted to go orchard after tuition, then jacelyn asked me to rest at home first.
Think she food poisoning then say cant go.
Now im left at home, doing some proj and wondering to go not.
Or i wait for dad to be back and send me there.
Anyw! Bugis tomorrow? i think.
Gonna ask cousin to play vb with me later! if early!
I wanted to ask andy to pei me play now, but i so noob.

Yesterday night and today's school time was a piss of thingy.

Anyway bitch, you are so much bitchy than my bitch friend!
You kept asking who is he? Hey, frankly, i scare you flirt with him leh.
But i trust him, just that i destest th way u flirt, th way u ask, th qianbian face you have, biatch.
Backstabber, useless slut.

Gonna post later. Go watch my ETHD or nap! <3

F off biatch & B. is <3

My heart goes out to you...

Someone who can never do things right,
is not worth being love, being care, being dote one.

I can never proclaim that i know everything and am a imperfectionist-to-be.
I surrender :(

I will be a girl that is ordinary. No more princess-attitude.
I will be a girl that is kind-hearted. No more saying he/she deserve it.
I will be a girl who doesnt love any guy. No more heart-breaking.
I will be a girl who lives in her past. No more sadness but happiness.
I will be a girl who strive hard to be able to walk perfectly. No not being able to walk in future.
I will still remain as a girl who visits that heart-breaking place though. Cause i know i love you too much and i wanna see hows your progress :(
I will want to maybe let you live deep in my heart. Cause i find it too hard to sad i dont love you.
I will not have anymore more to do with you. If not i will remember you.
the list goes on....

In short, i still love you yet i wouldnt express it out anymore.
You'll be the last for now.
I will just wanna be like those very kind-hearted girl.
No ahlian-lish, though i still thinks that im not except for some vulgarities.
Not even having the thinking that having elderly staying in my house is not convenient.
Because that wasnt my thinking in the first place, just that i've change.
Okay, i admit that i changed drastically.
And ever since i went to the hospital, i wasnt in good mood, having the piss off face.
If thats the case, dont bother me larh!
I only dont give the face to those i really cherish.
Actually, i always give in to elderly due to me seeing alot of pitiful one.
Therefore, i want all elderly to be as happy as possible.
You wouldnt want to end up pitifully right?
However, due to me having parents and sis staying with me.
Its hard for me to imagine having one :S
In short, its good having to see an elderly at home cause you feel good :)
by just looking at them.

LOL. i said in short, but not that short either.

Tomorrow aunt and winnie! until thursday! Happy happy girl!
However, i and poohpooh not that close already?
Mummy just say maybe tues going town, without me?
I got tuition.
I only wednesday free!
Thurs physiotherapy, then they leaving.
Wahlao, why cant their holiday be next week?
At least my mon is more free, can see them in the afternoon.

I dont know if i can let you go.
Cause i dont even know if you're hers?
IF you aint, then wouldnt it be a waste?
I dont even know who is hers? :(

MILLIE!
I dont know what got into you, but have you really forgotten me?
I'm here, you can always share you unhappiness with me :)
Though i always give rubbish comment but i can give you my most outmost
sincere advice :)
Mai sad leh, like that i also sad one you know.
Ytd was so paiseh, let you see tears in my eyes =X
(idk why im tear-ing whn im on phone with millie)

***

I dont know why you dont give a damn until i voice out..
Seriously, you need not fake if you dont wish to.
Not because im wongliqing, so you're doing this
But because I am the person you care for even just as classmates as normal friend.
Okay, whatever im ranting, you will never know its you.
I want your care but now i dont need it unless its sincere.
Sincerity means alot.
You dont see me cryign in front of you, cause i know i cant.
Later, i will be mistooken as a faker.
***

Can you tell me it was a wrong decision to choose you??
Should everything ends now, and let my feelings be there?
So that I can say, I ended everything with my heart there.

Who really knows whom i left my heart with?

Cause sometime thinking about you, i feel sad/bad.
Sometime nightmares scare me out of my wits.
I really wants to be with you always.
Which is so impossible.
I like it how we are now, and even closer.
Not when some intruders get in between us.

Okay I dont wish to continue.

***

My daddy's friend and my friends! are finally here!

Currently taking my temperature now :(
LOL no fever 36.2 degrees.
But my my face is super duper red, and im feeling feverish.
Mum say maybe i 'scrub' my face too much =X
And i think is cause ytd despite v tired, i waited for sister to reach home and prepare for bed.
Which ended up at 1230? 1?
Cause she reached home at 12+, or my knee is having prob, causing me to be sick??
Hahas, nvm, i sick, b. care more =X
But now b. busy ah. nvm.
Thinking back about ytd, after what seniors said, made me scare.
And i really hope to be able to play vb soon!
I dont wish for the doc to say, you cannot play sports anymore.
Anyw, we need to exercise what, they cant forbid me from playing too.
HEEHEES!

Knee : My owner is making me feeling lots of pain! She dont care about me le! (by peirong)

Yeah, to think im doing such great harm to my body, sorry.

If only b. straigh away tell me to stop playing, that would be so great.
B. only hint hint like that. Say in a way to make me less worried.
But he never say : liqing, dont play anym, wait for ur knee to recover(which i doubt would be possible) then you can play long long. :(

I know my my face red red already, I drank that wine just now, not 1 sip larh. Thats why so red, mummy dont know i drank marh, only daddy know, so he said lo. Then i rmb.
Wth? Shouldnt drank, later i want slp, made me sleepy now, no wonder i was thinking why so tired.
But wine doesnt made me feel sick, i feel sick leh! Nvm.

I think ytd game made all of us sleepy, no wonder millie never ans my call.
And peirong say want go home instead of gombak.
Thats the life i should have, but not for this period of time.
Then you will see the 3rd life? wongliqing is back.
Those fun days, out whole day, home late etc etc.
In times to come only larh.

Baby, you tell me what to do?
I cant never get rid off you from my mind and wish for you every moment.
Without you, im dead.
I dont wish for me to be like my friend.
I dont wish for such thing to make me getting sad.
You know how miserable it is? :S
You made me feel that im important, and you're important to me... :*)

Wong Li Qing is blessed today to have panda and wormy :)

After school, ate with eunice then duty, stayed back for 1h so mon need do 1h only!
Hehehes, cause fri i may not be able to go!

Hmpf, everything was fine except that i didnt get the volleyball as expected.
And daddy really smart to say to drive me to his house to get the ball if he never bring, and suay suay really never come school!
But valid reason, jiu close two eyes.
Its great that theres no vb for today, cause after everything, played vb opp sch.
Wth? now my knees hurt! Super pain, sharp pain now.
But thanks to millie and peirong and kaivoon always run after the ball, since im not suppose to be running and jumping, i did larh.
But liting didnt stop me from playing, yeah soo.. i didnt give a single damn since i wasnt scolded.
And got millie and peirong! heart heart heart!

After library, spent alot of time and toliet due to some sort of reason, which really made me reflected alot and wished for b. love to be there with me.
Hey my sweeties, dont like that anymore okay!
It hurts my heart alot and i dont want to think about my past nor cry anymore.
Since 1July08 im not that emo already.
This year i really changed :)
I didnt cry that badly in class anymore since i got no should to lie onto except 1?
and i dont want that 1 to be that worried thou i know im care... etc etc.

However for once im that sad, rather sad!
Since i dont dare to cry in class and dont wish to be mistooken as those who acted to cry to gain sympathy, im not!
When i cry im real sad. and wish for some to care.

LOL! now no vb meaning timetable may change but may not too. :)
Hmm, currently im exciting for tmr, but am told that my dad's friend may come during the afternoon!
Cause they thought daddy's work end at 5+
bloody, tmr daddy super early, like 11?

Ohh, we played vb from 5+ to 740 like that?
Then to kopitiam wash hand then walked to bustop, i missed one 157 , millie 2 157.
thanks to me, honoured.
Then jasmin and chaoxiang tgt on the same bus, then i went to tkd.
until i met this ah mah, she waited for me then she cycle i walk home.
And sir was like, liqing i know why u dont dare go home le!
wth? and they like say until my condition v bad.
Thus no more vb, maybe today last or until thurs larh.
I still want the ball one hor, atcc!

Thanks to him, i never pay attention in sch, esp chem. and i missed out alot of things, super sad sia.
Simon still say that i still know that im distracted, of course!

Why didnt millie call me back! :S

Today, went to sch by bus :D
Hahas, ytd, while taking bus, i say linyan's mum, junren, pri sch mate, 2 huayi girl,1 senior and junior, the bastard friend, judith etc etc
Today, pri sch mate, bastard friend etc etc.
LOL, Was he the first person i met? Blurred.
After school, home and tuition. dozed off again. MALU to the max.
Slept,ate and called my lovely millie :D
Talked for 2h 25min and 51sec.
Then while talking while chatting with shawny.
Wth? I dao? I flirt? I fierce? NO!
Cause on phone, hard to chat marh.
Then i waited 15 mins for <3 to call me back :)
Fri, after sch, duty. then wait for millie? either go js, or i ps her, then meet her after i packed my house then go play vb :D :D :D
Sat, whole day out with the chay's family!
Sun, dad's company function? buffet? Night maybe go see mummy pratice or for awhile cause daddy wanna be good husband, sweet enough too specially send her home? kekes.
Mon, cca then maths supp then home then tuition -.- (Aunt, granny are coming! Not sure about my winnie! But cant dress up on that day too, after that hectic schedule! But i still love mon's night! [Is his good friend going to fetch us home?])
Tues, tuition. and if winnie is with me, shopping! maybe nearby.
Wed, FREE! Happy me! if winnie is in s'pore, shopping!
Thurs, physiotherapy, then going granny's house? But never go also quite late reach home?
Fri, i think got appointment with doc leh! wahlao, go hosp for 2 consecutive days? night maybe go coach for tkd. IF not after hosp go granny's house again? OR TOWN!
Sat, tuition -.- dull!
Sun, got taichi already! coach's back!

I dont even know if she's coming, moreover, i have a feeling alot of things wouldnt happened, those coloured.

So many upcoming activities!!!! EXCITED!

Today i shouldnt play vb, i limped home and it hurts all day long after i played.
MUMMY AND DADDY NEVER SCOLD ME!
(dont they care for me anymore? :S hahahs!)
I wish to have a elder bro and baby bro! Can I? =X

Do you know what hurts me the most?
Its when i dont know who you belongs to...
Visiting the place that never brings me happiness but sadness,
upsets me alot.
These two days, i've been rather sad about my result.
Yet, i still went to visit that place, that brings me sadness.
Which is the truth?
I chose to believe what i see and what i know and what i feel.
However, outsiders/passerbys and everyone are making me insecure.
Insecurity is what i hate the most.
Why like this!
Whats with the sweetness, the security, the care and everything!
When im just so scare when others tell me about it.
Dont i trust you anymore?

(i wanna watch fated to love you yet i got no mood, im so sad right now!)

Im still sad about not able to play vb okay!
Im even more (i typed this post at 9:37 when its 10:27 now! better use this chance to type when shawn is chging his com.)
Im even more sad to not know you more.
Im so sad when i dont believe what is happening.
No! I think is not knowing whats happening!
Whats with you today, making me feeling tresured, cherished, cared.
Making me feel that im in the first piority before those friends of yours?
Whats with you listening to what i say, waiting for me.
Whats with you?!

Seriously, you've made me totally no mood for my exciting upcoming eventS!

***
You know i love today, when you know what happened to me upon giving you key words only.
And i love it when you care, when you agreed to what i said thou it may not happen.
When you waited, saying you be gone but you were there with me.
Passing it to me, instead of others.
Thou some took it away from me...
(he is online :) ) (dad and sis are back at 10:37!)
Then still got what ah?
i dont know! I only know i was v happy cause of you.
Until i visit that place, that bloody sickening place.
Reminding me of her, wondering if it was you that she mentioned.
I hope its not.

I hope that i would see you and hug you, crying.
Saying how much i regretted, how much i hated you.
You were the first one that i wanted to hug onto when i knew that i couldnt play vb for a period of time, that made me nearly cried profusely.
The one i wanted to hug onto tightly, telling you how sad i were.
I did told you that i'm sad but not that much!

Okay, off to help mr shawn with amaths :) [update : he learnt de, i havent learn :S]

p/s shawn is not from hyss :)

Sorry babies for not updating after so long, not as long as compared to others?
Hahas, firstly, its quite saddening for me to know that i cant partipate in sports for now, except swimming and cycling :S however i can go for taichi not taekwondo.
Better than nothing eh, and i need to go for physiotherapy.
So, i guess thats all you need to know?
Since many have been asking me about my condition.
I was utterly sad cause no more volleyball for me, when i planned to buy one this weekend.
Think im kicking this idea away.

Slipshort post?
Sat, tuition then to m'sia then taizi restaurent and had lobster but in steamboat style.
Dont know why that dsay so many people had expensive seafood.
LOL! everytime i go, dont have. suddenly i go there for lobster, yes there were many.
Homed after that.

Sunday no taichi, slacked at home and packed all my worksheet and a shelve.
Night to botak john at batok since mum having her practice nearby.
Then to imm then to look for mummy.
Boring, if only i had a vb at that time was what i kept thinking.

Mon, after school home, then ate a little, no appetite? napped till 6.
WTH?! LATE norh! But hehes, got andy pei marh.
But really sorry! cause i caused him to miss two 187 which i intentionally dont want take cause need to walk.
Cause him cant eat, but i tempted him in the end and he got off at lakeside mrt for chicken rice -.-
Lucky me never follow him, cause when i reached tutot house, he jiu behind me liao.
He walked super fast!
Adrain dad drove us home.

Today, after school, chiong like siao to JE, bought waffles -.- blueberry de.
Then ate a little, took mrt to queensway and cont eating.
Reached Clinic L, waited for 20 mins, then see doc, then to xray then back to doc.
LOL!
I super lazy to write in details!
Doc Jimmy asked me alot of Qs then ask me lie on the bed and did alot of things to my ankle and knee.
Asked me to bend too.
Then bend my finger to see the flexibility.
Then say need to xray for right knee and left ankle!
LOL, seriously the bill was a bomb from what i think LOL!
Regretted not persuading the doc at the polyclinic for xray for those two parts too!
Then xray-ed back to the clinic L.
Then jimmy doc asked me to go in.
No fracture.
6 weeks MC?
Cause he said that but i didnt see the MC, in a sealed envelope.
Physiotherapy next thurs, in sports attire.
Wearing PE attire since thurs got PE, need sports shoe.
Bloody, i never like that.
So i kuping mummy's one?
Want me go buy new one meh?!
And i forgot to ask about knee guard and ankle guard. Bloody.
HE said what, from what he sees from my finger, can reach the arm, should be ligament loose.
And the therapy comfirm not cheap one lo.
I seriously dont wish to spend so much money on these.
Cause its not neccesary to me larh.
And its taking alot of my time.
SHall said more about the Qs asked tmr. I gained alot of knowledge!
Doc Jimmy consultation with me was nearly 1h for the two visitation.
Hahahs! Feel so weird? Bad?
Maybe is cause people take v long time, i buaytahan.
Then i take even longer! AHAHAS!
Then to tiong for LJS!
Then to grandma's house.
Seroius i admire biaojie and auntie.
Peifu Peifu! I wonder how you guys can manage :)
Love you many many!
Okay, im sick of typing on this bloody new lappy!
Rather show my sis some news!

p/s: i wonder if i should tell b. in details?

Labels: Alexandra Hospital

Hehehes, im back from tuition.
Should have went to gombak lo!
Daddy is napping, and I need to wait for him to wake up before i go to malaysia!
Isnt it bloody?
May as well go find friend then ask daddy to fetch me! hurhur.

Seriously being random, dont you find the craze of bof is over,
and the bof ost is having advert, theres no purpose in it.

Oh bloody, it've been some times since i went? isnt it?
Oh! Last sat i went in for supper and thats it.
Wondering if i should go find christy, hehes.
Or should i go sanlou, since i havent went.
But must find uncle/auntie then tgt go marh,
not like we know like that.
If not another option is for andy to tell my dad whr it is.
If not he tag along and direct, which is so unlikely/rubbish.

OH! i realised i wanted to search for chio vb, so off to it!

Sometimes tuition in the morning is not bad.
Now Im wasting my time. Waiting for 1pm to arrive.
Then i will prepare for tuition and off for it ;D
Millie! once again never ans my call! HMPF!
Seriously, this girl is so hard to contact lo!
Should I go malaysia later?
But i seriously freaking lazy to dress up nicely to meet uncle and family.
Then i will dress up super casual. Hehes.
Then auntie will think wrongly if i dress nicely also.
Aiya, so mafan one!
Wonder if I should call him to go m'sia later?
tgt with my family duh.
Not like i dare to go in myself, later kena kipnap.
Been so long since i met my grannies.
Maternal one longer barh.
Who ask her so bias, that i see no purpose in seeing her.
Cause it really hurts me to see her being alittle bias to boys infront of me.
You know, I know, once i get fed up i will physically abuse people.
So may as well dont see her being bias, then i will feel more love.
Like how i feel the L-O-V-E from daddy! mummy! sister! & him! (<3) :D
Got one more, darling!<3
Hmm???
Forget it, im just crapping for now.

However it hurts to know that you aint love by your love ones.
You know, my friend.
Making me seems important to you,
then heartlessly dump me aside.
Thats what you're to me.
Someone who never cherished me.
Betrayed me.
Making me telling you everything,
but now, im smart enough to not to :D
Thats why you dont get to know who he is.
Someone whom I can confide to,
is never one anymore.
Someone whom I hate that much,
but cant bear to hurt,
thus getting myself hurt for being a coward,
not telling you how bitch you are,
how much i hate you.
How hateful can you be?
You not only make me detest you, but despite you.
Whats with your innocent look?
Flirter you.
How many more do you wanna flirt,
you want mine?
Go flirt lo!
Flirt until you win larh, i trust him?
But somehow i believe you can win his hand,
then go win lo.
I heck care, seriously.

Now im looking for jacket.
Leather? Bomber? Or what?
Or just kup form auntie?
Hehehs, I only want jackets from Mango/F21/Zara etc.
Better/Ex then that, i dont mind.
Esp Prada and LV :D

FRIENDS?
What are they? Who are they? Why they exist? How important are they? Where do you find them?
Friends who bitch with you?
Someone who can have heart-to-heart talk with you?
Cause currently im using my new lappy, having hard time typing,
so i cant type as long as what i wanted it to be.

Today, i was thinking, what do you call a friend who acted to be that close with you, and yet betrayed you/flirt with your boy/bitching about you?
A close friend may not necessary be a long lasting friend or real friend.
People who aint that close with you might even be your future long lasting friend.
Okay, many dont get me.

But seriously, i see super no purpose in having a friend who is extremeley flirt :)
And one who can left a long scar in your heart.

Friend, do you get what i meant?
I meant that im very fine to lose you :D

Friend that claim to be your bestie/sissy/close friend.
May be the one who hurts you the most / loves you the most.
They can leave you with happiness / sadness.
However, they may also be the one oppsite from what they claimed to be your closest/bestest etc.

Bitches are my friends..
& i despite them.

LOL! my new lappy somehow cant download the adobe flash, so its like alot of games cant play and cant post pic.
My spine hurts alot, i think that fall really can kill me.
After school, saw shujuan and others, so we went to canteen together, cause i ps-ed someone for them.
Good right?
Then late for duty, so stayed back till later lol.
Hmm, I wrapped the most books?
I wrapped super fast okay, my rate is 1.5 times of theirs.
First time doing it, last time was my first time carrying dirty and dusty books.
Now I even carried the table, those canteen ones.
Last time people asked me to, I also dont dare, always get guys to help me.
Hmm, ended earlier than shujuan, so slacked at the art gallery and see the dance members while only.
The teacher larh! Go close the door, so to library to slack, kept seeing adlin sia.
Like she knows sth, then kept wanna laugh at me like that.
English the grouping actually not that bad leh, though theres the person that people dont wannabe with.
Looked like andy was super pissed with him, him=jonathan, dont like that okay?
Zhikang hor, I didnt expect him to contribute leh.
Caused me to feel so bad =X
Like I never do anything like that.
I is the script marh, writer lo.
Zk timer, andy presenter (like wth?), jonathan, I forgot liao.
Worse is that i didnt know we need to raise our hand up when asked our role, super blur even though he kicked him to tell me to raise my hand up as im the script. stupid!
Seriously, zk was supposed to do 1 Q out of 7.
In the end, he contribute 2 with the help of adlin, pro lo.
Jonathan none.
Without me the group cant work! Cause Im the peacemaker :)
Asking him to relax, and managed to talked to jonathan,
though I think many knows I detest him, or rather the one who hates him most.
I collected all the paper after szewei collected.
And i realise that my grp is soo...
Im so proud of it jiu diu le!

Okay, ytd I told daddy i want a new phone, and he agreed immediately without having to sign a plan.
meaning will buy a super ex phone.
I feel so bad sia, but doubt i will by a super duper ex phone.
Cause im not into phone anymore, lost touch already!
But LG crystal is so cool. keypad there!
Now check sony to see any nice phone :)

Kekes, I've got blogging mood now, and I just realised that my blogger is totally perfect with all the icons already! Kekes.
I abit dont dare post already, somehow abit paiseh leh.
And I'm not such if I got a reader called andytanchunchiang, who can make me so shy =X if he reads my post. You saw it, boy?
Xiasuay to the max, hehees.
tues kept saying read my archives! Make sure you read all hor! until 2005 ? The last post?
Opps, there got about syazwan leh? Last time de marh, nevermind, same pri sch?
So, tues about going to clinic I wrote already.

Yesterday, (i'm pondering if i should write) Liting accompany me to the doc, for xray then to westmall then KFC then to jeanyip to borrow handphone from biaojiu<3 then I walked her to mrt :D
LOL, thats nothing, such a short distance only.
Then I walked to BBCC to find mummy, but she not there, then I dont want borrow hp from her friend.
So, I went to take my report myself and see the doc :)
Was super late, but lesser waiting time.
When I rushed up, I saw kangle, our future shuaixiaodi actor.
(You see! My knees' pain are acting up again!)
Say no fracture, machiam I dont know like that.
Then, I complaint that its still pain.
So referred me to specialist, sports clinic :)
Ohh, i wnt rm 59 -.-
The doc dont know what race lai de.
Like Philipine? Idk!
I chose SGH but today they called saying its Alexander.
Maybe cause that day the nurse explained that SGH for 16years and above,
they may not want to accept me =X
Then I went to BBCC to look for mum again, then shortly I went home.
Bathed, comed and ate and walked to mrt.
Ehh, called adrain then talked on phone with liting and saw bestie<333.
Chatting and called that guy, qianbiande.
Think he tabulehtahan me leh. Hehehes.
Saw mummy when I about to walk off.
Walked off shortly and chatted on phone again.
To me, guys should wait at control station nearby lo!
Adrain at the platform, like whatthehell? i cant find him.
Still give me what chance to call him! Bloody?
Like I despo and cant I like call him other than having any other reason. LOL!
Called andy once, no answer!
Heck and wewnt platform, twice answered.
I already threatened? to get into the mrt alot of time can.
Adrain kept : Andy leh, bear to not?
Wth? Okay, so I've never seen a guy making people waiting for him, esp when theres a girl. -.-
Maybe its cause, its always ppl wait for me machiam I princess aka duabai.
Called and decided to take to JE, cause I was freaking warm after all the walking.
Seriously, I got like 10mins spent waiting for him.
Its okay larh, cause not that long. But he was at home? when I was walking into the mrt to JE!
Wth? Home then say on bus reaching soon.
At JE so many mrt left, seriously Adrain cant tahan me larh, so mafan. LOL! sorry adrian.
Cause we were already going to be late when we need to walk there, and i seldom take mrt to tuition -.-
(Someone will starting saying my post is freaking long again)
I really wanted to leave when Adrian said next one.
Next came and from bb to je one also came.
Wahlao, i use adrian phone call him, like he shocked. hahahs. kekes.
And you know what! Quickly get into the mrt?
He sort of say like that? Wahlao I shocked, and you know I fear the gap between the platform and the train LOL!
xiasiwole!!
(now i dont feel like typing -.-)
Say wait for him machiam never, also never meet dao until lakeside.
May as well take the train and get down every station while waiting for him.
Thats what I wanted to try out. Havent done before yet.
Cheers and walked when we saw a lasy walking into the side gate, run like siao?
Adrain was like. your knee?
That time jiu heck care liao lo.
If Adrian never run I comfirm wouldnt run.
Even crossed the drain when running, thought I would fall sia.
Cause of my knee marh.
Aaron stoning at the glass door? there.
That freaking Amos was super late and complaint about wanting to sleep in a way.
Cause us end so punctully, machiam never learn anything lo.
Adrian's father send us home, thanks uncle!
But I msged him to thanks for me, cause my mind was occupied with sth, worried.
&&& Aaron was telling me about my pri sch mate, someone whom I talked on phone in the past and the mum knows me (well?).
So obviously I was worried about him and my _____.
I couldnt even give a damn about him ytd, cause he never reply the Q that I asked.
And I was freaking worried about sth.
That once I got the time I msged darling.
Darling this word, can seriously make him imaginative.
But its you whom I aishang le :D
Chiong-ed chinese.

Today, learning at hy was boring then chi, teacher late, only read one chapter of textbook! LOL!
But happy? Cause he sat there :):):) However, I got shocked once when my table was slammed, but not second time. OF course hit that guy like siao? No larh, I cant bear to. Hit also not pain one!
Phys, no teacher came to teach, only hmwork, slept and listened to music and err Yeo came at 15 mins before recess.
Then maths, changed to pe first, thought would be more comfy, but not in white pe shirt LOL!
Then maths, listened to music and Seo.
He super mafan, talked rubbish number one lo!
Then cme, watch movie, dont even know the tittle. What happiness de?
Then pe, height and weight then slacked at court nearby for awhile.
It wa suntil when andy wanted to pass th vb to us cause he knows that we want to play that I couldnt resist the temptation.
Wanted to play with moses and jeremy de.
But dont dare ask, not like they will want to play with noobs.
Then mdm tan asked us to pack the vb and off to 3rd floor.
Played vb with nadiah then liting and zahra joined.
In the end we seperate, me with liting of course!
Then Tan asked Thantsoe to play with us. Train rather -.-
I wonder why Tan kept focusing on me, focus on my DFsister larh!
But i dont mind actually, can train and learn marh.
I'm starting to love vb like siao.
Seriously partnering with pro is better than playing against, cause pro will help catch the ball, so i need not pick up the ball?
But against pro will help save my ball.
Like what thantsoe saved my ball, however liting go catch dao.
Wasted thantsoe's effort. hahas.
But i thought i was told that he doesnt go for training anymore?
Then cant go SL thingy, told lim, but of course not that happy larh.
Wed also never go cause got MC.
Told him that i wanna show him, but he say its okay, he believe me.
Seriously you say got MC can liao lo.
Then today got tuition, cant change.
Morever, im not close with the tutor.
Today third lesson and I wanna doze off again like 2nd lesson like that.
Eyes closed then i forced open, super pain!
Ended at 515, and i went home while smsing.
Then i saw my hp ringing while tutor teaching but i dont dare ans.
Seeing the hp ringing yet not answering.
Comfirm is hosp, homed and check, really eh.
Appointment at alexandra at 10am!
Smart mum changed time to 3 or 315.
Smart, hai wo cant pon sch.
Even if can, i also wouldnt lo. + Daddy wouldnt like it :)
But it be super rushing for me.
Alexandra not fangbian lo!
Then mum say we go tiong eat longjohn, cause she knows that I want to :D
Anyone can jio to LJS lo, cause i want the handphone strap thingy. Hehees!
Reached home and lay down straight on sofa for 3 hours until 810+?
Hahahhahahs, tired.
And also quite tired!
So after typing for 50mins, Im going to off my com soon and then wait for fated to love you to end and then go brush my teeth.
Oh! and pack my bag! I took my file out!
And applied some cream for my foot?feet?leg?hahas, sounds so wrong.
Then sleep!
I'm so tired.

Darling! I'm so sorry for you! Hopes everythings turns out right tmr.
I sincerely hopes nth happened, cause if anything happened to you, its akin to me.
Contact me asap if you can cause i doubt i dare to contact you for now :)
All the best, ily many many :)
I dont pray, yeah so...
I hope things go the way you wish for it to be.
Peace! (X-finger)

A short post before going tuition. Like that no one can say its long =X
Not sure taking 98 not, think i taking mrt but not sure meeting the A(s) or not.
Report out already, now still pondering if i should go specialist and check.
Very tiring and its either SGH or alexandra.
Should have know checked earlier then go SGH, can visit grandma too.
However, discharge already :) Good thing!
Ending here, short enought not? =X

TODAY!
1st teacher I saw was Adlin.
With bass was funking.
Okay, first guy I really know was him. :)
However from morning my knee on off pain, i cant take it.
Seriously, I wonder what happened to it.
The doc gave me a seriously worried face :(
I regretted for not taking good care of myself.
Sorry, my loves.
I even asked for gastric pills, hehes.
But not the one i wanted, its capsules and it seriously sucks big time now!
then!
whe i reached the clinic, they gave me and mum a korean doc, mum dont want.
She want chinese de.
So changed from rm 57 to 58.
Peeped at 57 doc, not shuai.
So i was very excited how shuai is mine, cause name abit angmoh.
However! and indian man ith bouncy bum walked out and in.
So mum rushed down to chg doc.
Then they say the indian doc can speak doc.
Cute!
Very attentive but super slow.
Nevermind.
Then my turn that time, his expression changed from when my mum say knee pain and i say knee pain.
Total different.
Mum maybe is no more 'rubber', my idk!
Tmr need take xray as it was late and i couldnt take!
Got MC! can pon school. pondering if i shld.
But i also want to have more glance of b.
Who knows! Thurs no vb for me if serious.
I seriously dont know what happened, just that the expression seriously scared me.
I dont know if i should say i wanna it be fine,
cause i want b. to dote on me more =X

&&&Darling! I wonder how is your common test, loves you many many. :)
No more of S anymore kay, me will do!

Oh freak, my knee is acting up again!

Schoo was freaking slack with lye not ard and short tongue teacher back!
pa-le-le! = parellel!
kuang not ard, with our senior as relief.

***

Seriously, if you aint sparing a thought for me or whatsoever, then scram pls.
I had enough.

Somehow a life is at stake.

You didnt give another thought?

I cant believe that im in such a complicated situation again!
Its your warth that make me move forward with tenacity.

I seriously can stand teachers who called home to complain! Freak.
Want complain? Complain to my dad larh, scare is it.
Called my mother, like she give a damn, she will be like, oh yeah, ya ya yah, okay.
yeah i know etc. F.
Called my dad, see you still got face or not larh, bitch!
Bloody you, may karma falls on you.
And you die terribly, bitch, old bitch, ugly old bitch. F you.
When will a care, caring teacher asking a student to drop to such a class.
No equivalent to from special to normal t, its so insulting.
What a teacher you are, its a disgrace for her to have you as a form teacher.
May karma falls on you man. Nb.
Whatsmore people say F also never tio, now only say some dialact,
what eat what, no shit thing.
jia pen bo sai bang, or sth.
Whats is wrong with your head man? Didnt even curse you.
If only my knee is fine :(
I give you 1 slamming kick start from your forehead, one sidekick on your tummy and one frontkick on your...
F.
Never had I seen such a bitchy teacher, call larh.
Dare then call my daddy larh, humji ah.
This is not even threatening enough,
if im the victim, i make sure your life is at stake.
Now is not me but her the victim, i wouldnt.
Cause I dont want her future to be at stake, when it is already like this.
You BITCH! F.

Hehehes, just got back home and had dinner, off to do homework.
Later will post again if got the time.

I wonder if I should tell b. that I went to doc not =X
The doc expression seems to be telling me that its real serious!
Shouldnt have delayed into visiting the doc.
Although he once said that 'dont see doctor, they very ugly'
I still got that message in my hp!
Later then post!

p/s : do you even have me in your eyes?

LOL I wasted 7hrs facing the com, gonna off it and do 1 hmwk now! hmpf!

Millie, I want my cookie!! :)
Loves you many many larh =X
I want drink mocha frappe again!

hahas, you know how cool it is for b. to msg me at 10:28am sharp.
oct 28th, my birthday =X
LOL
should be 28 oct, but timing no 28 marh. LOL!
thats so cool, b. msged me after i woke up, lucky not when sleeping.
If not, i will get red fed up! Smart him, xinlingxiangtong barh.
Hmm, from 1 to 6pm i did 1 compo only. smart hor?
And theres like nothing for me to do now except homework,
doing 1 more later and thats it :D
I brought maths txtbk for nth, since im not doing!

Currently, watching channel 8 to update about news.
Blogging and chatting with bestie and liangsheng.
Dont you find it cool to be indo chinese, comfirm v rich one lurh.
If i fo indo, must find him and pok him marh.
Pok as it spend all his money =X
Indo can watch S'pore channel, and i didnt know, so suaku sia me.

*update*
he asked me that Q that I expected -.-
but i think back to the old me and say, no :S

Freaking fed up with my laptop's icon for wireless networks, keep popping up. grrr.
Yesterday super late then go ion orchard, cause i anpped from 1+ to 5+.
Super tired =X
And on our way there, i suddenly tear-ed cause my knee hurts alot,
got once hurt until numb diao.
Then mummy say go buy knee guard, thanks to b.? sort of only! 1% crdit.
In fact is knee guardS!
And I need ankle guard too.
So now the Q is, which brand? What kind?
1digit? 2digits? or 3 digits?
Think dad want buy the 90+ bucks one, but i think i will stop him lurh.
I doubt I will use it.
Its not like i always wear jeans? long pants? etc?
Only for taekwondo and taichi only -.-

Who the hell say ion orchard walk till giddy? Totally rubbish!
Reached there about 9 after dinner, so like too late.
Had Yami Yogurt, rocks like heaven.
JP also got! Looks like I will visit JP often already :D
Millie zhuandao, lie that will always go there with her =X
Left there quite late I think?
Reached home 11+, so actually not that late either :D

But the variety of shops, nothing much lo.
Any other shopping malls also have.
Except that the Louis Vuitton is much bigger.
And I cant find the entrance for Prada!
Like wth?, maybe I should have walk the other side :)

Doubt I'll be going out today, need to chiong all 5 homeworks. Wth?
Now my butt hurts from that fall from the aftermath of my kick to raina -.-
after days...


(In American accent)
Btw, who are you?
What are you?
Do I even know you?

p/s : Get the freak out of my life, lets juejiao barh :D my friend.

Yippee! I'm using my new lappy :D
Since I downloaded both wired and wirelesss access, somehow my old lappy cant :(
Whatever it is, I'm glad that I managed to use the new one!
However I'm not that familiar with the keypad.

Early in the morning, woke up by my alarm and prepared for tuition!
Had pizza for breakfast!
Then tuition was cmi, can see chong super bias towards me during Jonathan's tuition =X
Then met up with my ladybug-on-banana aka my love :D
Seriously, she is one of the best friend I ever had after what I had gone through :D

And I think I dont wanna had bitch as my friend, yeah so sooner or lated lets juejiao barh!
ladybug-on-banana should understand!

Okay, went JP and drank mocha frappe and LOB had double choco frappe. Nice nice.
But I think I love milktea most.
Talked again, but this time like nothing much hor?

Who ask LOB said vb cmi! hmpf.

Dad came to drive me and send millie to hyss :D
Then home.
7pm sister reached home, and I got to knew that Dad got course, so forced him to go.
So in the end, we stayed at home.
Computer all the way, helping mum taking photos of her products and etc.
Using 2 com all the way, sis use 1.
We like busy girls sia, played with webcam too.
Nothing much barh, I played till havent had my dinner =X

Think going malaysia later for dinner aka supper :D

GRANDMA IS DISCHARGE! okay im super happy.
cause she is fine and my weekends will be 2 instead of 1 or 0.
Meaning. I can go town more often! I can go m'sia more often! Kiss goodbye to SGH! =X

Nothing much today, except for pe and aust maths comp.
Was the last to leave for girls for pe and aust maths comp.
Pro hor, I do till quite serious.

I dont know why that phobia for reckless driving is back.
After overcoming so many years.
Okay my neighbour is back, but i dont dare scream for her -.-
I got phobia about friendship wheneven I am at home thinking -.-

I couldnt forget what happened this year...

***

30 mins later I'm saying it.
Friendship is nothing.. I see no point in contributing anything.
When the other party sort of dont give a damn.
I think it applies to all.
Maybe I should think of being alone.
All the long lasting friendships are just nothing I supposed.
From kindergarten to pro to sec.
How many people I met, but how many I rmb?
How many I still keep in touch?

p/s Why does my back hurt so much, I didnt hurt myself from vb for there what.

OKay, I realised today many people birthday lurh.
But Im only wishing those that I know?
Happy 15th Birthday to ChooChoo :D Chinming :D
Happy 16th Birthday to SerLi Jie =X

And Im freaking emo today and these few day, and and and I am super freaking jealous.
Somehow I really wanna bash people up to vent my anger =X
Today I stayed back for duty, 2.4km meeting and waited for Raina :D

Gastric is super unpredictable...

What the hell, my post is gone.
Anyway, I thought about it, so I guessed what I wrote just now, will not be re-writen.

Yesterday, school-ed, home-d, napp-ed, prepare-d, tuition-ed.
Andy never give my dad face by taking cab. LOL. jking.
I super pissed when 3As supposed to take my dad's car, when Andy Tan saidhis good friend driving him home.
Super pissed, then I realised his good friens = my dad, make me angry for nth -.-
But in the end they never take, cause my sis tagged along and Andy dont want squeeze.
Felt so bad to make them cabbed.
Next week! Dont forget hor, andy tan.
Next week :D
I love it when the good friends chat, about anything about the sun :D
They so close, lie I go no position like that, jealous!
Go ask him be you son larh, Daddy, dont want me larh, hmpf!
Close until like that, I li jia chu zhou then you know ah!

Daddy still say bring him so eat durian, what the hell?
So close, jealous liao.

During tuition, was super stupid.
Suan-ing of Aaron to me being in Green Club or Pot Planting, thanks to Adrain Wong.
Rose making make Aaron thought I joing Green Club.
And we were being green-minded yesterday.
From Aaron, err? I forgotten liao, he was being green to me and andy saying about being green by not using tissue as duster :D
Stupid green :D

So on my way to tuition, at hyss, I saw a kiddy running after the bus which happened to be andy, I was like giggling. Stupid.

Today, after school went to kfc with liting :D huihao and gavin.
Then home-d, napp-ed and pon-ed yoga.
Got phobia of yoga already.
Plus daddy comfirm talk to me later about pon-ing yog :(
Very long never had I had such fear.

In school, chem okay, phys challenging.
Maths very boring, and Seo buaytahan me.
I nearly felt when I walked pass the teacher's table.
Thanks to atcc, caused he wanted the sweet that I ate, no! I had :D
Stupid no face, xiasuay! (learnfrom sister =X)
Today both me and DFsister tripped! Xiasuay! =X

Off to my Fated To Love You

B.! B.! B.!

1st of Aug, lets mark it down it our diary :D
Its the end :D
I'm never happy with you around, nor do i need you to be by my side.
Our little secret will be deleted :D The pacts too.
Everything shall stop, and i will concentrate on my studies.
By the way, I don't own any explanation :D
Dont bother asking :D
I don't see the point too :D
I never know you, I never liked you nor do I love you :D
I believe I'll be much happier without you,
don't blame me for my decision :D

***

If im going m'sia later, I wonder if there will be affinity between me and b. <3
Hahahas, I really think we got affinity and something that can never be described.
The LOVE bond :D
We seemed to know each other mind too, esp when b. gets along well with my F.
Hahahs, this seemed so wrong to be typing here.

p/s : I've got nothing to hide =P

The person in the relationship who cares the least controls the relationship. Seems unfair, doesn’t it, but I have never seen this truth disproven. But I still don’t recommend you use the ‘care less’ tact as a means of manipulating relationships in your favour.

Being aware of this power dynamic doesn’t actually help you either, if you are the one who cares the most. It won’t change the fact that at times your situation, your emotions and indeed your sanity will seem to be at the whim of the other. Knowing this power dynamic is at play only helps you to clarify your options and inform your emotions.

Being the person who cares the most doesn’t suck quite as much as it may seem. Yes, you are, to some extent, reactive to the decisions, actions and emotions of the other. No, you may not easily guide the relationship in the direction of your choosing or, indeed, to your desired outcome. Yes, you stand to hurt more because you are more invested in the relationship. But to quote Pink “I wouldn’t change the pain for what I’ve learned”.

As the person most invested in the relationship you stand to gain more. Not necessarily in the form of love from the other, or recognition from outsiders, but in personal growth. Faced with a loved one who is less caring, considerate and mindful of your wellbeing than you are of theirs is difficult. There are no two ways about it; you are bound to experience disappointment (at the very least) and personal growth.

What I know for sure: At the end of your life you will not regret having loved deeply. But you may regret the walls you erected to love and the love you withheld

Credit : http://blog.rachaelstott.com

Hahahas, I seen many saying, the more you love someone the more you will feel hurt.

To me? How do I feel about it?
Oh well, its almost absolutely true :D
However if one really loves that person, then why bother about controlling your love fo him even if you know that he is playing with you? :D
Am I right to say that?
To be able to control your love for him = not loving him truthfully.
Its very right to love someone deeply, because its your true feelngs :D

I admit when in love, one may feel scare, fearing that he will initiate the breakup...
However wih that fear, you cant even properly love someone.
If this goes on, when it comes to marriage.
Hahahs! Dead is the word, cause with the constant phobia/fear, marriage will end up sooner or later.

Why do people tend not to have marriage in mind whn together?
1 percent will not think that way.
For me, hmmm? Depends, if i really love, of course.

Does age matter to that thinking?
Absolutely no! NO!
It would even be better to have those angmohpai thinking parents.
COMFIRM? Most prolly can oen lurh.

Okay, i dont feel like continuing already -.-

LOLOLOL, adrain wong said blogger okay, but i dont have the icons!
What the hell! Jeez!
Okay yesterday, i dread to talk about yesterday.
It makes me feel blissful just like Cinderella...
After struck twelve, she had got no choice but to leave unwillingly.
So its like being happy until 12 and thats it.
My was until 1130am, you see! At least Cinderella's was twelve!

Sorry but to say, I dont feel respected.
I know how life goes.
Taking a couple for example :
Mr A and Miss B :D
Mr A has a real bad temper while Miss B is a kind, gentle, understanding lady.
So its not surprise for Mr A to get annoyed easily however Miss B still gave in to him.
Despite Mr A being super unconsiderate and stubborn-unwilling to give in.
Miss B dont mind.
It was until one day, even the good-tempered lady has got no choice but to vent her anger and express how she felt.
So dont you think. Mr A had gone overboard to drive Miss B to the end.

This is only an example! Im not even emphasizing on anyone and the example is exagerated :D

Okay you may not get it.
But what i wanna say is, everything in life is the same.
The example applies not only to couple too. Dont you think so?
If you dont, conclusion is that you dont treasure other relationship like how you treasure bgr :D
To family, friends, classmates, teachers, relative etc etc.
Giving in is part of it, but not everything.
The one who tends to 'bully' more should give in too!
Respect is the most important thing.

Just like how i respect lixuan and how she respect me :D
I really hate to say that i dislike the attitude of some of the people in hyss.
You see ah, they'll be like : I dont tell you/Why must tell you?
I get influence doing that at times too!
I meant theres nth to hide.
And if you asked someone to do something for you, you must must must feel that you own her!
If not no respect at all, not say immediately but in the end you take that person for granted.
Maybe I get the logic, so my relationships with some particular people are good.
Except for bitches and people I dont like =X
Asking someone to buy something for you applies too.

I remember saying no other bestie but 1 is enough, Im not being greedy.
And this is a form of respct too.
I respect her for being my bestie and thus she will feel that if im sincere.
Worst is that I sacrifice alot for her.
Including friendships with others.
Cause no matter how close i and others are, sad to say, no bestie title for you.
Other title yes.
And its important to let your friends know how important you're to them.
Dont say but express will be better.
Cause if they dont feel anything, it can really make them upset.
Like how im feeling now.

Weird is that, although lixuan dont spend that much time with me anymore.
Needless to say I'm sad larh, but weird is that i can be that understandable to say its okay.
Somehow I dont feel that ganyuan too, cause its like...
That close de friendship, 2nd in line after god, but not much time spend on me...
Sometimes i will jealous of her friends marh!
So why is it that i can be that understandable?
Maybe its really fate and affinity that i must know her :D
This may only applies one in a lifetime, and my is her :D

So my main point is...
If you dont think that friend is your true friend, close friend, friend that you wanna spend time with,
dont bother disturbing her.
CAuse I believe with such friend, it makes your friends feel super hurt.

"Leave me alone"
is the phrase, since the higher expectation the more easily you'll feel hurt.

p/s Im not emphasizing on lixuan, its just that so coincidence I think we are the model bestie :D
Correct or not, bestie? :D:D:D

Friday, in school, weiting didnt came, so... *ahems*
main point not her :D
Okayokay, blissful lurh yesterday, cause...
But i dont know why he keep taking my stuffs, and I nearly malu-ed myself with the note in my pencil case.
Seriously, guys shouldnt ransacked girls' bag, cause in the end guys will feel super paiseh! hahahs.
Yesterday this example did happen! (AWYR, you know what im saying right? I hinted to you yesterday)
He is super adorable de lurh!

First hour was chinese then chem then maths then eng.
Chinese and chem got test.
Wth? Chinese tet I, Adrain and Andy also got talked, so unfair to others =X
The test can super fast jiu finish, I took less than 10 mins -.-
I dont encourage copying! hahahhas.
Ok, so I am still excited to go sanlou, but andy direct me also no use.
Cause im the girl(princess), hahahs, admiring the scenery while daddy drives :D
Hehes, dont jealous okay.
Yeah, soo..
And the worst is that I need to tell him where ah biao's wanton mee is,
but i need dad to be back to help me direct him then can -.-
Though daddy told me yesterday, but I so dumb. hehes.
Also dont know if he lying say go there eat supper not.
How I wish I can go malaysia later.
After school, rose making. Dont talk about it le, its not going to be part of my memory.
Pissed off since english all the way.
Duty-ed and I had gastric pain. + the books fell from the top onto me, pain okay!
Dont know got internal injury not! hahas, arm ony larh.
Plus the duty can make me got muscle at my elbow and below there, so not nice!
Muscle ache. Home-ed, Napped then Ate and went for taekwondo.
Cause I respect my sis, so I went. :D Another form of respect :D
Then, its so disgusting to have a bastard there keep disturbing my student, I wanted to chase him off.
But I respect him so I didnt! SERIOUS!
Okay, chunfong asked me if im free to buy him bbt, and so I respected him so i did.
But he treat me =X
Strawberry milk tea + coconut jelly for me and peppermint milk tea for him.
I took a red striped straw and yellow striped straw. So, I let him chose.
He took the red one, of course I was like, why not yellow! in my mind larh
Cause its like strawberry also red.
But he super xixin, he was like, you want the red one right? Give you.
I was like, nevermind its only a straw. But he insisted, so xixin right?
IF only every bf is like that jiu hao, okay lah.
Some is you tell him you want he will also give.
But auto one better :D
Went to mac and talk alot of sort of bgr thing and reached home nearly 12.
I missed my feitianxishi and half hours of whywhylove, I forgotten th starting already!

And I slept at 2am woke up at 730am.
Until now I ate one redbean with crispy skin one, mum make, but i dont like redbean paste -.-
Never tell me! ohh dousabing ah?
Not sure!
Then I com-ed till now, wanted to watch doraemon but concentrate on com better.
To think I thought 7+ wake up alot of time, but not really!

I realised I talked alot of bgr things this week.
ITs in general larh!